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Hey girl :)

hey! im sorry about your grandpa. loss is so tough and i lost one of my grandmas a few years ago so i know its hard. :/ im here if you ever need me! good luck on your exams

Hey! I've been doing alright. Busy, busy, busy lately! Also I'm just blah on my stories right now. I have all the ideas and layouts for the plots and such, it's just I have no motivation to write on them at the moment. It makes me sad. Also my attention span is like diminishing somehow. I can't hardly sit still or even sit through a whole movie anymore, but I'm sure it's just a phase. Anyway, how have you been? I've missed you! How is your Grandpa doing?

heyy (: just finished reading your Izzy trilogy and loved it! also read some of your one shots too and you've given me real inspiration for my stories so thank you :3 I wrote a blog post called REBOOT and mentioned you hope you don't mind, just wanted to say keep writing and thanks again! x

The second part has been updated

Here is the first part to your two-shot, I hope you like it :)

@ Angelina Shadows
okie dokie! can't wait to read it !!

I'm typing out the first part of you two-shot. I will let you know when it's up.

Course I'm up for it!! Haha.

I'll send you a pm now hun!

She's doing great :) school is pretty boring and I can't wait for it to be over

@ Angelina Shadows
ahahah!!! it's whatever you feel comfortable with!
how's your daughter btw? and how's school coming along? graduation is right around the corner! i hope you're studying hard!

Nevermind, I think I'm going to do it in third as well.

@ Angelina Shadows
lmaoo!! im super excited to read it!! it doesnt matter if it stuck to the plot cuz i know i will enjoy whatever you write!!
happy easter to you too mama

In* I can't spell lol

Is it ok if I do part 2 I'm first person?

Alright cool so I have the first part written so I just have to type it up and post it but I'm waiting on the banner and layout. Its not exactly how you described it but I hope you like it anyway. Im going to get to work on part 2 and hopefully habe it all done and postes sometime thos week. Btw happy easter to you :)

@ Angelina Shadows
that's totally fine!! teehee!! *feels special*

I think I'm going to make your one shot into a two shot if that's ok

Awww thanks for the advice and kind words Madame. You are right. I've always told myself I have to love myself first. For the most part I do. Some days I will even be confident, I just idk...I think I fake happiness with myself for so long that it eventually just bottles up and explodes into this big giant negative monster! I guess that whole thing about giving off how you are is true too. Since I've been more confident in the last month or so, like 2 girls have told me they had feelings for me. I knew one did, but I didn't the other. It was just shocking. Also the other day this girl I've known for awhile asked me to be in a threesome with her!!!! I was like.... :O and then there's this rather cute guy at my work who I know for a fact likes me. I can just tell by the way he acts and it's been going on for months now. Whenever I view myself as confident, I get flirted with, whistled at and other things so that leads me to believe that I must not be all that ugly. I was just shocked to begin with that these people would like me because I think, "Why would they like me? I'm fat?" I've always had a poor self image because of my weight. I just have to try harder. I know I'm not ugly, I just need to lose the weight maybe for health reasons and not looks. I should focus on that.

Thanks for being there. I really value you as a friend. Truly.

I don't know what triggered it honestly. I'm broke even though I work all week. I'm fat and overweight and it's proven to be sooo hard to lose it on my own. I don't have the cash to go to a trainer or whatever and I work at a restaurant so that doesn't help. Even if I don't eat there I still can't lose the weight. My confidence in myself is measured by how skinny I am. I know that's silly but it's just the way my mind works. Sigh. I feel like a failure in everything.