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@ XXXataktoulaXXX
You're right. I should look up haha, I've git several girls i might go to the movies with depending on which of them decide they want to see a movie with me.

Come on, you shouldn't think that much about what other people think. That's what makes you depressing and anxious. Relax.

@ XXXataktoulaXXX
Yep... I just dont know what to do anymore, on top of me just wishing to stop existing altogether, my little brother is in highschool now and everyone likes him better than me, everyone thinks we are all alike and that makes me replacable essentially.
Its happening all over again, just like in elementary school...

Oh hun, I'm so sorry.

@ XXXataktoulaXXX
I just didn't like her and didn't want to lead her on...
I currently really crave a connection, I just feel so damn cold and alone in this world, its like God playing some sick cruel joke on me. So I sit by and watch this girl like everyone but me, I guess I really fucked up, or something, I'm fairly sure this girl won't ever like me and I just feel like death, I literally wish I could tear my heart of my chest. I hate this so much. I have heartbreak, like, literally heartbreak. Its a condition sprouted from depression and shitty feelings when it comes to your happiness emotion.

Why what happened?

@ XXXataktoulaXXX
I am your friend, we dont have to be close by, or even in the same country in this case, its okay :) im always available and i try to keep online.
So i broke up with my girlfriend of almost a month, i wasnt feeling the same as her, and i couldnt really get to see her a lot...
I tried to make it better by trying to convince her that for those reasons, she deserved better.
I thought i had made her feel better...
Im not so convinced right now anymore...

Oh, that well, huh?
Lately I believe that I have no friends, just people I kinda know.
Its like no one cares and I'm alone against the world. Strange but yea.

@ XXXataktoulaXXX
Yeah, you're right.
Today is a really shitty day. I have to keep reminding myself that people care and that I have friends.

You are right on the part where you said you are either a good actor or your friends don't really get you. I've know this from experience.

If you like another girl, then break up with the one you are now. Don't lead her on cause it's gonna be harder for her later on.

@ XXXataktoulaXXX
I need some encouragement, i really like this girl, but i dont want to act on my real feelings until i can get past the blockade of this other girl. I mean, last thing she said,"Okay, well i'm gonna save this Disneyland ticket so i can go alone with you :) " .~.
Im so incredibly frustrated and sad right now, i wish i had a friend that would console me, but i guess im either a really good actor or they are blind to my emotions because it seems nobody notices me when im feeling really shitty,

Yup, I got it.

Your friends have nothing to do with it. What you feel and what that girl feels is what's important. And above all honesty.

@ XXXataktoulaXXX
Jon Miller remember?> haha

I think i reallize that i have time for myself, but i find it easier to find someone to love, because honestly, id feel a lot better with someone i actually really like and find attractive in all ways than to have less to do. Youre right though, i need to figure something out probs :/

Its gonna suck because my friend and all the people i hang out with she knows are gonna know and might harbor harsh judgement on me for being "picky" when in reality, i just didnt want to hurt her more than just hurting her momentarily with a breakup instead of leading her on, pretending i like her.

Remind me your username? I have the mind of a fish so don't kill me.

You really need time for yourself hun, otherwise you'll reach your limits, if you haven't already.

Tell her that you can't see as more than a friend. The truth may be cold and harsh but its better than lying.

@ XXXataktoulaXXX
I already have you added <3 and i guess i see this constantly being repeated in people older than I, who are all facing assorted problems trying to get away from family.
I get headaches a lot actually, literally yes. It does seem a bit much, and im working at convincing my parents to help me lessen the load, but honestly, they dont seem like they want to. I just wish i wasnt so cornered into trying to fit social life AND cute girls AND school prep for college AND doing activities i love at once, i dont get too much time to myself, basically when im at home for maybe an hours or several at a time is the most, im usually accompanied by people at home so yeah :/
That really sucks, i wish it could be better for you, you deserve it.
Also, theres a huge amount of pressure on top of that all of tis girl, i thought i could make it work because i like who she is, but in the end, im displeased with how she looks, and as much as a dousche i guess i can sound for that, its not that she looks BAD necessarily, just not my type, and i dont want to lead her on, but she had done so much, she likes me alot, and she even got me a friggen disneyland ticket, what am i supposed to do??! Ahh

My brothers and mother are the same so I totally get you. My father used to be very understanding but lately alcohol has became his best friend so we fight a lot.

I'm trying to get away from my family as well so I'm trying to find a job because I want to move in with my fiance.

I'm trying to work out things with my fiance because I honestly love him. Truth be told, when we started going out I just liked him and the same went for me. We weren't inlove or anything but as the time went by and we were still together we kind of fell in love. I know he loves me but it's in his character to flirt with other females. He doesn't cheat, just flirt.No touching, just talking...so I kinda forgive him for that.

You have to much going on at your life. Don't you get a headache? Aren't all these too much? All these extra things? You should choose what you like and what not, stop attending some things and have more time for yourself.

When I went to college, the college was 30 minutes away by train so I wouldn't know. But I liked the enviroment and the different people I met. Honestly though, I don't even talk with the people I met in college anymore. The only friendss I have are my childhood best friend Olga, a friend from highschool Theano (which I nicknamed as Tia), an ex fuck-buddy named Dimitris who is an older man and is Olga's older brother and Olga's boyfriend who is Alex. These are my friends who care about me and I care for.

Do you have Facebook or another site you get online more than here?
If you have Facebook and you want to add me, my real name and account there is:
Maria-dimitra Vetsika

Stay strong and no negative thoughts hun.

~Marian.

@ XXXataktoulaXXX i just dont know what to do, with all of my work that i try to do, ive got choir i love at 7 going to band ending at 4, then i have extra choir, extra scouts, extra lots of things, and on top of it, i have my social life to try and live, but when i ask for ONE thing, just to get rides to school because i hate biking with a passion (i would give up doing choir which i love to not have to bike), they demand that i pay them 3 dollars a ride or bike or use the buses, but if i bike, i dont eat and fall asleep in classes, if i catch the bus, i dont eat and fall asleep in classes, if i get rides, i eat, and i dont fall asleep in classes, and i dont have to worry about transportation, but now, i have to worry about having the money to get to school, or else i fail in school due to lack of ability to function in class.
I hate my family so much, they all are against me, i swear my mom has a good and a bad side that can switch at any moment, and doesnt give a shit if i have a social life or not, my dad just doesnt understand. He is like a goddamned computer. My little brother is an asshole i wish would go away, and my older brother just doesnt care about me at all, like, thats it. If it werent for my friends, id probably go crazy, especially with what feels like reoccurring sadness or depression or whatever the fuck it is, and id probably end up doing some crazy shit because honestly, i find myself more and more recently thinking about how easy it would be just to not have to deal or whatever, itd be so nice not have to worry, i mean sure, never experience those other things you want? fine by me, about this time, i just dont give a shit anymore. The ONLY reason i keep trying is so that i can go to college halfway across the US to get away from my family and never come back and never talk to them again. Ever.

@ XXXataktoulaXXX
Oh my o.o that's terrible, but good that you're trying to work it out :) its something lots of people here don't quite get.
I wish it were different for you, that you didn't need to deal with all these basic problems on top of the ones that cripple you, slowing your progress on dealing with the other ones in any way you can.
and that is SO ANNOYING. I hate having my brother take or use my stuff, then laugh when i catch him. Its not like i'm against sharing, its just I want him to ask first, yknow?

My fiance hid some things too for two years and I found all of them now. We had a huge fight and we also broke up. After a few days, he came back, said sorry and a bunch of other stuff and now we are trying to make things work.

Basic problem is that I am low on money thanks to the bad economy in Greece and the fights with my younger brother who tends to take my netbook and without it, I can't go online at all.