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also im extremely annoyed that my icon is draco and my username is garrett nickelsen. im trying to upload an icon from my phone -_- fuuuuuu.

every time ive written something for fireflies its been deleted, thrown away, spilled on, or just completley vanished. this story obviously doesnt want to be written D:

i totally had a dream about Sandy earlier btw. i was taking a nap and when i woke up i was mumbling something about john and then measuring Sandy with a ruler. idek.

i think i tried to write a robot story once. it was terrible.

omg. your computer. ghfuwio. im taking mine in soon but there are only digital paintings and old oneshots on it XD

stories.mibba.com/read/46658/One-Day-Robots-Will-Cry/

jfdeksla half siblings. i vote half siblings. you are blowing my mind with this i cant even :D

GHFJDSKWOUREI2ERFJDS RELATED. RELATTTTTEEEEED. HOW? :D

hgjfkd mibba. fuck.

but omg yesmgh fj serial killer john.

haha I googled it.

kevinandamanda.com/fonts/freescrapbookfonts/eight-fifteen/

The font I used for the Fireflies banner is called eight fifteen I think? I can't remember where I got it though D:

miiiiiba keeps eating my comments. read that story. hgfudisoa.

stories.mibba.com/read/159467/Momentum/

You're not gonna like the pairing lol but Frankie is still in highschool, he's only 16. But Gerard owns a morgue and in his mid twenties. He runs into Frankie I'm not sure how yet. I'm thinking hell be asked to give a presentation on the human body and the effect death has on it to the sophomore biology classes and they end up kinda in to each other and Mikey has a cow about it and Gerard has some weird necrophilia fetish lmao

I sent that text to Erin lmao its one of my new Frerard ideas. Her response was "........." XD what do you think?

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So I was up till 4am last night with the worst butterflies ever. It's kind of like when you're on a roller coaster, and your stomach drops on the way down? It was like that but completely out of nowhere. I was just laying in bed, it was like 11pm, watching Friday Night Lights. And then bam. Butterflies so bad I wanted to throw up.

And then I felt like crying, for no reason at all. All I could think was that something bad was going to happen and the first person I thought of was Shantel.

So I texted her completely freaking out asking her to call me. She hadn't texted me in days and the last time I talked to her she admitted to being suicidal.

And when I woke up this morning she sent me a text saying, "I don't want to hurt you." And I honestly knew what she was going to say before she said anything. "I've been dating this guy at work."

And that bad feeling was just gone. Really, I don't even know. I always try so fucking hard to believe people can change. With old friends, with my dad, with Shantel. I know that if I screwed up I'd like someone to give a second chance and God did she fuck this up.

I was really upset at first and almost cried. I tried to think of something to say to her. I was either going to brush it off and act like it didn't bother me or just be a complete bitch about it. But I just put my phone away and went back to watching Friday Night Lights.

I don't really know what to think. I expected this, I really did from the beginning. And she fucking promised me that she wouldn't ever do that to me again. And okay so we weren't officially together while she was with this guy from work. But it's still pretty fucked up right? She promised me all these things.

I think I'm gonna go back to bed and read Ron/Hermione fanfics. On my new phone :D The only thing I'm happy about right now, is this new phone. Honestly, it's like having a mini computer in my hands 24/7.

Earlier I was texting Erin, lurking twitter, reblogging on Tumblr, and checking my email. AT THE SAME TIME.

I can open new tabs, download pictures straight from the online browser, copy and paste, watch porn lmao I can do whatever the fuck I want. XD I was never able to do anything but text on my other phone. aljdflajkdf

I MISS YOU. <3

How are you?

oh hey just leaving you a comment from my new super amazing phone: D I'm in love with it. IN LOOOOOVE.

Bahaha XD Dude I have the weirdest dreams out of anyone I know. And I usually don't remember them at first, it's always at a really random time. Like yesterday I was washing the dishes and I was like LOL AT MY DREAM LAST NIGHT THAT IM JUST NOW REMEMBERING XD

My hair is dark brown and turquoise now :]

Have you heard Mumford & Sons? I love them. Also, I love Justin Bieber now? It just came out of nowhere :|

:[ If I had all of that going on I'd die. I would just drop. I don't work well under pressure and I always leave EVERYTHING until the last minute. Always. XD

Dude. YOU SHOULD. Print it out and totally put it on your wall. :]

<3

Okay soooo I was visiting you at your apartment and decided to bring Max with me to surprise you because he had played a show with the boys and owed me a favor or something. So I picked him up and we rode our unicorns all the way from LA into Canada. Because we can just fucking do that whenever we want. LOL.

So then we show up at your door right and you're like O_O "Do you want some pancakes?" And you led us to your kitchen where you making pancakes but Max was all, "LET ME TRY!" So he stuck his hand in the batter and just threw a handfull onto the griddle and it looked retarded and he burnt it. While you just sat there nomming on your pancakes still like O_O

I left you guys alone to go make up my bed on the couch but Max was like "LOL NO BITCH. YOU GET THE FLOOR." So I gave him Jack Daniels and tucked him in on the couch and he fell asleep.

Then I went to see if you were okay cause you hadn't spoken at all. I was afraid your eyes would fall out of your head. And as soon as I walked in you were like "JOIN ME IN MY OFFICE!" So we ran up the stairs and into your bathroom. You like did this weird little dance/squeal thing and then sat down in your huge tub and we talked about what a bitch he was.

Then we decided that it was his eyebrows. We were going to talk him into growing them back so that he could be cute Max again and not no eyebrows bitch Max.

So then we went back downstairs and we couldn't find him. Turns out he was in your bedroom going through all of your clothes. He had a bra on and was dancing on your bed, blasting fucking Kesha.

Then we suddenly realized we were wizards and I confunded him while you whipped up a quick eyebrow growth potion.

And then he was nice cute Max again. :]

:| YES. THEY ARE [B]ALL[/B] BABES. Except for Gabe. He looks like like he got dropped on his face as a baby... a lot.

But dude. You should see my brother, he's so cute! He's going to be mauled by teenage girls in those pants he bought yesterday. It literally looks like he painted them on. And then he got a haircut and dyed a part of it blue. XD

Oh so. We have to talk about Telly.

We're not together, but dating I guess? I mean.. we go on dates so yes, dating. And she's so different now. She's sweet and nice all the time. She's actually considerate of my feelings and my anxiety. Like we were supposed to go to a movie and out to eat tonight and then she suggested we go tomorrow instead so it's less crowded and that we could just stay in tonight and watch movies.

I can't go over tomorrow though :[ My mom is all "Whoa you can't go anywhere who's going to watch your sister?"

Um. Mom, you have two teenage children. Why am I the one who always has to stay home with Lain? I mean like, Ryan gets to just go off and do whatever without asking. And the one time I finally want to go out somewhere it's an automatic no.

I fucking hate that. What's she going to do when I move out? I will have to move eventually. She can't always count on me to be mommy #2. I love my sister but that shouldn't be on my shoulders.

Oh and my dad called the other day? He's out of rehab and living in a halfway house. ACROSS THE FUCKING STREET.

I argued with mom about that too. I understand that he's my dad and I love him. But I don't like him. And yeah okay so he's been sober for a year. That doesn't mean that I have to talk to him. And I won't, not after what he said to me the last time he saw me. He is a huge part of my anxiety and having him around is seriously not okay with me or good for me mentally.

She just doesn't understand that. She doesn't understand anything.

She gets pissed at me for not being responsible for myself but when I do try and get away, go out on my own like people my age should, she shuts me down and gets annoyed with me like I'm supposed to always be here to support her, to take care of her kids.

:|

All I've watched since Friday night is Glee. I have all of the episodes now. I bought Season 2 Volume 1 yesterday. I'm obsessed.

I actually had a dream the other day that Kurt and Quinn had to have sex? I don't even know why. And Mercedes and Rachel were taking samples of Kurt's jizz. And Miley Cyrus was there trying to learn hebrew? Then Puck and Finn came in and saw Kurt and Quinn doing it on Finn's dad's chair and then I woke up cause I had to pee. It all made perfect sense in the dream okay. XD

And I think I'm going to buy that phone after all o_o

I only bought hair dye, converse, two bras, one shirt, and glee. I still have a ton of money left. lol

OH AND I HAVE INTERNETZ NOW. :D

How have you been??

ASLO. HAVE I MENTIONED ALEX? THE OTHER CUTE FRIEND OF MY BROTHER. HE IS A BABE. :D

Hey! Sorry it's taken so long to comment back. Things have been a little hectic lately.

I'll be over at T's all week now that a good amount of snow has melted.

Do you like Glee? I bought Season 1 of Glee yesterday and I haven't watched anything since.

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OH AND GHAKLFJ;EF THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME YOU EVER WATCHED TITANIC??? FORREAL?

OMG. my message just erased itself and now word is frozen. I'M FREAKING OUT.

[i]So. I accidentally left this on MY comment page at first. -_- I'm special. [/i]

Ello :D

So, how are you? What is up?

We had a legit blizzard on Monday/Tuesday. While our heater was broken. Cowboy had come home from school with Ryan. So yeah, he's stuck here. We got over two feet of snow. Outside our apartment, the snow was up to the top of our bushes, you couldn't tell where the roads were, and you could only see the very top of my car.

You couldn't even open the door on Tuesday. If you looked out the window, you couldn't see anything but white. It was actually kind of scary. My mom hasn't been to work all week. And we only just got the car shoveled out. So her and Ryan went to get groceries.

Cowboy and Ryan actually walked a mile away in two feet of snow, in -15 degrees just to get a few things yesterday because we didn't have anything. Now Cowboy is sick :[

And Lainey has an ear infection, mom has major pms, and I have a wisdom tooth coming in and I'm being an absolute cry baby about it. XD

I've been sleeping in the living room all week on that stupid fucking couch. Lain's been with my mom.

When Cowboy and Ryan spoon, Cowboy is the big spoon. XD Hahaha uh yeah and then there was the naked thing. He said, "Hey, don't look! I'm naked!" I didn't know he was serious though! I was at the counter rolling out tortillas and I looked up and yeah. Hot, naked, wet, blonde, standing in the hallway.

Best thing I've ever seen. For real. :D

Ummm, what else. I've got a mental evaluation on Saturday, if it doesn't get canceled because of the snow. So I've been thinking a lot about my options once I get my money.

Do I move in with Telly? Do I get a house with mom and the kids? Do I get my own apartment near the kids? My biggest worry is that if I move in with Telly then I'll be too far away from the kids. I don't know.

Nothing really interesting has happened. We're all super bored. There's nothing on tv, we've watched all of these movies a thousand times, we're freezing! And we don't have enough blankets for everyone and... Rambo just walked in! XD

How did your meeting thing go yesterday? I'm blanking on what you called it. How's school?

I miss you!