A-p-L-a-I-r-C-t-E-y / Comments

Hm.... I just think I like this summer more than any other time in my life....

You probably were.
I think in Junior High we fell back on eachother because that's what we had. None of us really fit in very well with any of the other groups...
But in High school there's more people. More groups. And we all just fell with different people. but that's just my opinion on things.

Freshman year... was crap.
Yeah I had good times, awesome and amazing times...
But look at what they turned into.
Truthfully, this past year is one that I would take back.
I truely would.
Not the summer, just the school year.

Hm.... I finally think I got most all of freshman year down.
Me and Sam talk ALOT about the past.
Guess we're just trying to set things right or atleast finally vent it all out.

You know what I realized?
It's only Valdezians i know that I have issues with.
I can meet tourists or junior highers I dont know and be totally normal and have a conversation.
But with people I've already been shy around,
I STAY shy around them.
Weird how I work...

Haha which part of the story?
All of it?
Or just some of it?
*sigh*
I think alot of people want that power.....
....it's called communication.....
lol.

I figured that much, I've known you for a coupla years now...

hmm...
Truely, I dont know.
I know I wasn't exactly suprised by anything in ur, ummm, story type thing (or whatever you call it)

I guess.... I just wish you could of known what was going thru mine or Sam's head that whole time we were all friends. and vice versa.
Might of made things less difficult...

everyone's mind is freaking complex.
Even those people who you can guess their very move down to the bone are complex.


Um, so I'm taking that you precieved things.... Okay I can't guess,
Because I haven't the slightest clue anymore.

Haha. Mostly towards what you were thinking all this time and what you thought we were all thinking.... Basically it's just alot of thinking.

I know.

Everything I guess.

Thanks for subscribing to my story :D

Yeah....

No, you aren't/
I can't get back into that.
I don't want to.
I wont.
Sometimes I wish you were my friend
But I'm not sure I would of gotten out if I still was.

I know I've changed quite a bit in the last month.
I'm sure you have to....

I think you'll always be in my heart Shania,
but with the life you are leading right now....

*sigh*

Shania.
What are we doing?
We aren't friends.
We aren't ememies.
You still party.
I have given up.
We talk all the time over mibba.
But hardly ever talk in public.

it was about this time a year from now.
we were besties again.
Your rents were outa town and somehow you convinced me to go to a party with you.
I get wayyyy stoned and wasted.
So did you.
And on the way home ur flipped off a cop and started cussin him out.
So we were caught.
I was soooo pissed off at you.
And sent to rehab.
Once i got out my mother moved away.
And I never heard from or saw my valdezian friends again.
I woke up and totally thought it was real.
And then it wasnt.
I was sooo happy.

I had a dream that had you in it a couple weeks ago.
It was kinda weird.
What was yours?

uhm.... Easily.
Just by getting over it.
It's not like I take things to heart and cry over them.
If im an ugly/oser/bitch/whatever the fuck people say
I just dont care.

Ummm............I'd probably be fired if i did that.
lol

haha I know I did.
I noticed this morning
I'm just to lazy to change it.


uhm.... you can.... fuck i dont know.
Haha, you being nice is like me going up to a teacher and punching them in the face.
0.o which wont ever happen.

uoud probably be her VERY VERY best friend then.
She'd fall head over heals for you.
Maybe you should be really creepy and nice and see if she goes away.

Yeah. Right.
I wish i had a fuckin backbone.
But I dont. =( Makes me sad.

But I dont even do that!
Except with Ceylon.
But I just tell her to screw off and then I lock my door. WOO!

I can be a bitch to Tori,
but she "understands"

But yeah, pretty much.
I'm just to nice to tell her to fuck off.
I'd feel realllyyyy bad.
I couldnt even say that to Robert for crying out aloud.
I had to have Sam do it for me.