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CAN'T GO SHOPPING. MUST SAVE MONEY! :')

I will take plenty of pictures, don't you worry. I'll probably die in a mosh pit or something. Enter Shikari are supporting. WE'RE GONNA GET MURDERED! :')
I'm super excited though :D

I feel like going shopping, but I can't because no one has any money and I'm supposed to be saving
I want to go to the cinemas but I can't because Megan doesn't have money. (But I am going to see Eclipse on friday, with or without her :'))
I don't know what to do with my time :')

I'm just feeling a bit under the weather at the moment. It'll pass. It better pass by tomorrow! :D

I didn't expect to be going, because I promised I wouldn't go without Megan (because they're her favourite band) but she managed to get £25 out of her dad because he didn't pay for any of her prom stuff, so we could both go.
It was a happy day!

That's crap!
I'm struggling with things to do now. I've got plans for tomorrow and friday, but I don't have a clue what I'm going to do after then. I might catch up on sleep, though I was planning on doing that today because I feel like shit :') haha :D

Aww Becbec!
Are you still at college or have you finished for summer?

GOING TO SEE HIM IN DECEMBER AS WELL <3<3<3
In. The. Flesh. :D

I haven't done much more than recover from prom really. On friday last week me and megan stayed in bed till like 1 in the afternoon. Saturday I went out for a family meal, sunday I chilled at mine with Megan, yesterday I went up to Issys and today I saw Ben.
Nothing special xD
What about you? :)

They are, aren't they?
Mr Jared Leto is pretty damn awesome in himself as well xD

I'm good thanks, how about you? :)

I'M OBSESSED WITH 30 SECONDS TO MARS.
I'VE WATCHED THE CLOSER TO THE EDGE VIDEO SIX TIMES TODAY
*cough*

How are you? :D

Hi! Winners announced (:
http://www.mibba.com/forums/topic/post/7678405/#7678405

Haha. Thanks. I was just having one of my moods, I don't even know what was wrong with me. Well, I do. But it's passed now so it doesn't really matter. It was kind of along the same lines of the last really long comment I sent you :')
Never mind
AND THE PICTURES ARE ON FACEBOOOOK. :D

Oh, and I hope you feel better soon. <3 xx

Becks,
I could really do with some advice right now. I don't know when you're going to see this, it's fine if it's not for a while, but I could do with waiting till you're online before I ask you.
I just need a friend right now.

This is random, but I like your layout. :)

Right, I thought I'd give it a go...

I don't know exactly what it is, but I just get the feeling that none of my friends want anything to do with me anymore. I just feel so incredibly lonely and like I don't have anyone I can open up to. I haven't even told Ben what's been wrong with me because he's got too much on his plate as it is without having to worry about me, and he is the only person I can open up to face to face. I can't even explain it, because part of me knows that Issy and Sophie and everyone are my friends, I just feel so insignificant and unimportant when we're as a big group. I feel like I could actually just dissapear and no one would notice. I feel like I care about them and class them as some of my closest friends, but they just see me as another person in the group. When we're all together I feel like I just fade into the background, and I can't stop myself from feeling like that.

But then they filled in these note things on facebook and tagged me in them saying I'm one of the people they count on the most and Issy even wrote something about me being one of the only people she feels comfortable around, and that made me burst into tears. I don't even know why. I just did when I read it. But I still don't understand how I keep feeling like no one cares about me. Even Soffy, who lives in London so I don't see her often, has completely dissapeared. I've emailed her and text her so many times but I haven't had a single reply. I've told her friend Hannah to tell her to check her email and stuff, but still nothing. I miss her like crazy. She's like my sister. I think I know why she isn't talking to me though, I have a theory, apart from the fact that I'm clearly such a horrible person no one wants to associate with, but I'm not going to go into that now.

God, I'm not even making sense now. I'm confusing myself. I'm terrified for my mental health if I'm going to be honest.

That's another thing, I don't know if thinking I might be like this means that I'm actually not or whatever, but I think I have some form of paranoia. I mean like, I don't trust anyone anymore. At all. I couldn't even explain something that had been on my mind to Megan the other day, because part of me was telling me that she'd just judge me and think I was weird. I'm constantly convinced that everyone secretly hates me and I get terrified by the simplest of things. I don't even understand it anymore. I don't feel like I know myself.

I'm just sat here in tears now :')
God I'm so pathetic.
It's not even that bad.

Thanks Becka.
You're seriously the greatest person ever!
<3

Part of me doesn't even want to go into it
But then the other part of me knows that I probably should.
I'm just scared that once I start thinking about things, I'll start crying again, and I've cried myself to sleep the past few nights. I don't know if I can handle it again. :')

I honestly don't know where to even start.
I don't want to end up depressing you or anything.

I'm excited for you!
:D

Everythings just, confusing right now.
I don't even know where to start.
I've been quite depressive the past few days. No one has noticed though. As usual.
But it'll pass. Hopefully. :)

SERIOUSLY?
YAAAAY! :D
YOU BETTER NOT FORGET NOW.

I'm alright thanks, just feeling a bit meh-ish at the moment :')
How about you? :D

Hahahaha.
I've just given up all hope on life. in general. :')

I need to, so badly. I'll fail everything if not.
Well, I'll probably fail everything regardless.
But never mind
I'm past caring now. :')