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lmfao.

xD

i love you so much <3333.

lmfao.

i love you.











I WIN.

i love it too :D

but omg have you heard mcflys cover.
it is actually so bloody terrible.

but they covered it like two/three years ago, so XD
they were just little babies then. awww.


yeahyeahyeah myspace.
i loves you tons <3.

i loves you yeah yeah yeah
i loves you yeah yeah yeah
i loves you yeah yeah yeah yeahhhh.

you think youve lost your love
well i saw her (me) yesterday
its you shes (me's) thinking of
and she (me) told you what to say
she (me) said she (me) loves you
and you know that cant be baaaad
she (me) said she (me) loves you
and you know you should be glaaaad.


SHE LOVES YOU YEAH YEAH YEAH
SHE LOVES YOU YEAH YEAH YEAH
SHE LOVES YOU YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAAHHH.



i <3 this song.
& i <3 you.

: ))))

me too kinda.
i was stupid to forget how happy you make me.

i. love. you.

ohkay. so i don't stalk you or anything,
but you are so so pretty.
like omg.
D:

no ones given me a page of love in aaages.



i love you bnobs.

we should make a dictionary, loool.


i love you (:
<3333333.

talking on msn yesterday was all fun and stuff.
you made me... happy? 0.o

like, i was actually almost quite fucking happy.

you & dreya both did.

: ))))

iloveyousomuch <33.

but i look all scruffy and crap.

yeah. yeah, ive got a few of me @ the beach.

im going to stop saying its getting better because that always jinxes everything.

im just going to say... i dont know.

im not going to die.


i think thats the best i can do right now ._.



i love you more than love itself <333.

actually i deleted that journal, sorry >_<

but im not going to kill myself. i guess i just really really fucking think that sometimes theres no choice for me.

and i dont want to kill myself--
its just... there are moments.
read my journal. it says so.


i love you.

:')

all those times you thought you couldnt help me or that we couldnt talk, forget them. that comment just made me smile wider than i have in so long... i love you mary <3.

im sorry im so fucked up.

i mean, people say the first step of recovery is addmittance.

i thought saying i was fucked up would somehow help but it hasnt. not one tiny little bit, at all. it really hasnt.

i dont know what else to do.
i told everyone i dont want to kill myself anymore.

but i was asked today what i thought the hardest part of life was,

and i answered,

"living."


its fucked up mary.
its all fucked up.

my head is a mess and i cant get it fixed. i cant make it better.

i try to talk myself out of it every morning and night and every day when i feel weakest of all but its such a struggle. i just want to feel okay. i just want to feel content.


and the only time i feel as if i could ever even only slightly make it is when i look at him.

but hes far away. hes so far away and far away isnt enough.


i love you...

im sorry.

im so sorry.

but its so very hard to believe anyone could love me.

me.

i feel like such a fucking disease.



im sorry.

i dont have the time or energy to bother with it.

Mary... I don't think that's going to be happening.

I mean, I will try. I'll try so hard to be better in time. But I'm not allowed to go anywhere just now, and I don't know if that will change in 74 days or however long. I'm sorry. I really am so so so sorry. If it doesn't happen then I'll make it up to you, I swear.

I love you <3.

yeah ive heard about it now.
some protest thing. yeah.


love you.

thats projekt interlude isnt it...?