This is really good work. The poem is really good at evoking emotion. Usually I'd think there were too many 'fucking's, but it seemed to add a special rhythm to the poem. Nice work!
So I see someone really enjoyed the word 'fucking' in this. Lol. I do like this poem. I like the imagery in the words, and I like that I can relate in my own way. The second stanza is my favorite part. Good job.