Well, here it is, he is your father, and tho you dont like him, you love him, that is a fact, I feel like that about my mom sometimes. He does love you, but probably doesn't really want to sometimes! I dont kno y!!!!!!! Well. Try to trust him, and forgive him, forgiving is the first step to love!
"And thats like saying i only care about myself. I promise you I dont. She only cares about herself. Shes always trying to one up people all the time." What is that supposed to mean? I only care about myself, really?