I love this story, but if the fact that it is extremely slow at updating (which it isn't since some authors go months without updating) means that you are feeling less depressed then I would gladly go months between updates. I would rather lose this story completely than think about the inner turmoil you might have experienced in order to have inspired the brilliant chapters in this spectacular story. I hope you find inspiration in your more positive emotions though, because you are amazing and deserve to have both.