Dark Secret Love - Comments

Perfect ending! And it sucks he's actually dating her now. But I love that Adam was supportive of her. And I love the story they spun to explain the pictures. Such a smart move saying Matt took her for her birthday. Loved it and I'm so excited for the next installmen!

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@ SunSpotBaby

I know y'all will see it, but... My Strange Addiction

End to an era!

Good Girl is out the window, seen that she's currently drowning herself in JD (bbbrrrr), but I guess a little hangover is better than remaining the oppressed Hollywood Darling, right?
Ah yes...calling the ex's number when drunk and just...chasing those feelings you had to have, sounds like someone I know

I am actually surprised that Till confirmed her question. Wasn't he the one not interested in relationships? Or was she just not the right person at the time? We all know that Lon will certainly circle around that possibility in her moments of weakness.

I am sad that it's over, but absolutely stoked for you to start posting the sequel!!! I mean...eeeeekkkk!!!!!

Ugh, I hate that it's actually over now, but I'm super pumped for the sequel! And I agree with Adam, never thought I'd say that, as long as she's happy, everyone else can fuck off. Except for Till, lol.

I guess I'll just have to read this from the beginning while awaiting the sequel.

Poor London. I know hear heart is literally probably broken. I seriously can't wait to see the sequel. Post soon!!!!

IVE READ IT! YOU CAN PUT UP THE SEQUEL NOW!!!! :D

Oh man, Lo, have you ever heard the term 'let sleeping dogs lie'. Glad she deleted his info for her own mental health, but shame it was a smidge too late.
I cannot WAIT to see where the sequel goes!
I really hope she manages to keep her 'real' self public, and not get pushed back in that box!

I AM BACK, BABY!

Urgh, so much happened!!!!!

The drama between Paul and Till over Lo? Fucking perfect! I love that Paul was over and over reiterating that it wasn't a sexual thing, that he had nothing to prove. Gah, I love him, even if there was a little crush ;P

Thank God Till finally got over his ego enough to cut ties! We know that they both had to reach the conclusion or else they would forever be falling into bad patterns. It had to be a mutual decision or nothing. I love the little kiss at the end. Urgh!

And Adam. What an MVP. I said all along that she needs to cut him lose, but hey, looks like holding on for a little bit actually helped him out. I love that they are still friends, and that they both ACTUALLY took the 'media' bf/gf to heart, and didnt complicate things with emotion. That was a little surprise on Adams behalf because we never got a real insight, but I LOVE that he was truly her friend first. What a sweetheart!!!!

Cannot wait for the epilogue now!!! and then the sequel!!! WOOT!!!!!

That was an amazing update. I can't wait to read the epilogue and the sequel, oh yeah!

@ ProverbofHell

No! There is one more chapter!

Now...I never said that I didn't like Adam.
Only that I don't like the idea of their relationship, as it was just make-belief but restricting both of them.

He's a sweet man for coming through for her, still having her best interest at heart. Though I am a little surprised that she doesn't tell him the truth when he asks her about Till & her. He is also being a good friend for suggesting that it doesn't matter what media/ fans/ managers say: it's her life!
Either way: the mess will be cleared up with this "official split" going public. But without Till as her "new beau", she will be terribly lonely, she will miss Till.

Hoping that premiers and media tour and everything will keep her busy & her Avenged family can take her mind off things or that she can find a nice, male "distraction" for the time being? I mean...she's only female and we all need some sugar!

Proud of her that she is over the whole "pretending" thing with Adam, it's been going on for long enough!
Thank you for this update, I really needed it! Is this it???

@ ProverbofHell

I hope everybody loves it...

@ PhenoBarbiDoll
sorry, didn't get notified by Mibba that you responded. Typical!

I guess he'd be questioning his alpha status, if she'd sway from him to one of his band members. ...I love it

Well now it's out and it's over with Adam… whoo! Everything I was waiting for…so why does it feel so bittersweet? Sigh.

Absolutely loved this though, as always. Still fucking pumped for the sequel!!!

@ ProverbofHell

I would say his concerns about Paul are based more on pride than any real jealousy. I mean, if you're Till Lindemann and someone you're fucking starts jumping on cute little Paul's dick, wouldn't it bruise your ego a bit?

"I do not feel the need to prove I am still capable with every woman who crosses my path."

Right on Paul, right the fuck on! I do also believe very much that Till is always in such need to prove his libido and that he can 'still' get the ladies, that he doesn't build any emotional attachments.

In all honesty, he has done a few things he doesn't usually do in such situations(like staying over at London's place for 2 days and cuddling), but at the end of the day: if one door close, another is sure to open for him somewhere else.

And though Paul got a good few shots in, I think he could have been a bot more snarky...get Till a little more unsettled.
Cause him wondering if London and him have slept together...would he really even entertain the thought if he didn't care at least a little?

"Nothing. But you were right, and I'm going to end it before I care."

I don't care if she'll ever admit it to herself or anyone else, but she did already start to care. Her bouts of jealousy were very much proof of that. He showed her that there's something more than her sheltered life, ruled by media and Managers. And she loves it.

I wish Kori and Richard would have had their piece in this little moment woth Paul...I am sure they would have been a bit more pointed than Till and wouldn't have shied back from anything. They both love her and know, that no matter how often either Till or London proclaim there is no emotional attachment: they know tehre is!

Great update....now post another!

Awwwwwww! Right in the feels damnit! Why can't they both just suck it up and admit that they have feelings for each other already!?

Oh Till..., I love this side of him: it’s not all fucking and being dominant and stuff, but falling asleep with her. Soooo fluffaaayyy!

*cough*

Now that that’s over: I agree with London that really, there is nothing between them apart from fornicating around the world. And while she seems to enjoy it, it does leave her empty after. It has her realise that she doesn’t like her life, the fake relationship, the hold the media has over everything she does or doesn’t do.
And she also realises, that this no-strings-attached scenario isn’t working for her anymore. She wants more. But she knows that she won’t be getting it from Till.

I wanted to say, that Paul’s totally throwing his friend under the bus...but then again: Kori told her from the very beginning what kind of man Till is. She just didn’t plan on catching THE FEELS!!!!
And yes, just because I love breaking cover: he may like to corrupt London, but he is giving her so much in return! This is not one-sided for him, even if there are no “emotions” he shares with her. He isn’t using her. So Paul needs to stfu!!

I bow my head to her for making the very conscious decision to cut her ties(ha, no strings attached, eh?) to the man she feels all this physical attraction towards.
Because I already know that no matter how tough she thinks she is, this is gonna hurt like a bitch. She will realise, that he has sparked something deep inside her & I doubt very much thy shell be able to snuff that spark out.

With that being said: Paul is way too cute around her, offering emotional support and clearing the smoke & mirrors. I think she needs this kind of friend right now.

This update was SOOOOO emotionally draining. I can already feel my heart break for her: avoiding him will also limit time with her new friends. Because she will not be able to avoid her desire for what Till can give her, if they’re around each other!

Do continue!

She did know going in what he was like. But sometimes feelings sneak up on ya. And sadly that sounds like what’s happened to Lo. Maybe she will stick to her resolve but it seems like maybe he has some too if he keeps coming back. Loved it!

Loved the update!

@ PhenoBarbiDoll
Deal!!!!