Chin Up Love
Christmas Wasn't So Bad
By the time my parents got home I was asleep and by the time I awoke the next morning I did in fact remember the previous day even though I suffered from a major headache finding the aspirin much needed.
But that was a couple days ago now. For the next hour everyone in my house would plaster a smile on their face no matter how hard it was because this morning was dedicated to Lucas he was the only one who believed in Santa these days I think he was the only one that believed in anything and I wished I was as naive as him.
Today was Christmas, most kids and teens I suppose wait for this day all year its time you get to spend with your family and friends and you get a bonus present or two. But I was dreading it more family time, great, just what I want.
But like I said walking down the stairs still in my pajamas everyone was smiling from ear to ear and I couldn’t tell but I was guessing that the only real smile was shinning from Luca’s.
“Merry Christmas baby” I said as he leaped into my arms “I see Santa came what did he get you” it was tradition in our house to put the presents under the tree and sit around as everyone opened, talking and laughing and for a moment even I was enjoying myself to see my brother like this he amazed me and I think he was the only thing that kept this family together.
As his presents came to an end I pulled mine out of my pocket handing it to him
“This especially from me” I said handing it to him and his face lit up as he climbed into my lap taking the present and slowly removing the paper, opening the box he pulled it out.
“Thank you Lacey” he said smiling up at me
“See look it has a messages on it too” I flipped it over to read the inscription “Lucas loving you always, Lacey” I read and for a change I felt my parents smile down on me like for just one moment of their lives they were actually proud of me and it felt kind of strange like it was out of place.
“Can you put it on for me Lacey?”
“Of course baby” I replied taking the chain in my hand and placing it around his neck doing it up.
The rest of the morning went by in an orderly fashion everyone getting showered and dressedready for the rest of our family to come over the family help coming and cooking moments after the presents were finished with. to my surprise I got one present and I like it too it was a light pink sweater that was purposely large I don’t think my parents expected me to appear wearing it and especially not the way I was with nothing more then a pair of stockings on under it. But I didn’t care by this stage I was almost done with pleasing them and I like how it looked even if they didn’t.
As my family rolled in I got more presents like a diary and photo frame useless things that I didn’t really care about I guess by this stage I had stopped caring as well. There seemed to be no point anymore so I walked around for the most of the day like the living dead. I heard my phone go off from upstairs receiving a text message I went up to see who it was from.
Opening it read
“Oli” clicking it to find what he wanted surprised it read
“Merry Christmas Lacey how are you love?
Oli”
Surprising myself I replied
“Merry Christmas Oli, im ok I suppose,
Family are doing my head in I need to get out of here I think im gonna head down to the field for a bit. Have a good day
<3 Lacey”
Hitting send it was only a minute before I got a reply
“Come over, don’t spend Christmas like that and its cold out youll freeze.
Come on my family love you come over”
I found a smile appear on my face and I couldn’t help but think maybe there was still a point to all of this.
“Ok thanks Oli”
I hit the send button and went to find my purse, my present for Oli and my car keys finding everything except the keys
“Mum where are my keys” I yelled
“Lacey you are not driving your banned again don’t you remember plus its Christmas your not going anywhere” she retorted standing firmly
“Are you serious im going out im not staying in this hell hole I put a smile on my face this morning coz of Lucas he’s happy off playing now im leaving”
“Lacey look at yourself I mean come on you are deffinently not going anywhere looking like that”
“What all of a sudden you don’t like the sweater you bought me” I asked with a look of mock horror on my face
“Lacey do not speak to me like that”
“Oh whatever im out of here”
“You’re pushing your luck young lady”
“Yea yea” I retorted leaving with only my purse and phone deciding I would walk to Oli’s it wasn’t that far I suppose…looking up it was freezing outside Oli was right and I could feel it start to snow around me loose, small not completely formed flakes, shivering I pulled my arms around my body walking that bit faster.
I knocked once that’s all it took for the door to come flying open, instantly feeling the heat from inside warm me up just a bit.
“Did you walk?” Oli sounded slightly amused
“Maybe” I tried to hid the smile that was tugging at my lips
“Oh my god” he let out a laugh “your insane”
“Are you gonna let me in im freezing its fucken snowing” he pushed the door open and I walked in he didn’t move but I could feel him eyeing me off insanely
“Oliver” I let out harshly with a smile defendant on my face as I turned around him still staring at me he instantly looked down
“Sorry” he mumbled
“Lacey your just in time come take a seat it’s a late lunch early dinner kind of thing” Oli’s mum gestured and I did as she said.
Oli’s home…it actually felt like a home unlike mine that just felt like a place of being. It was always cold and eerie and strangely uncomfortable for a place I have lived in for 17 years. Even though it was smaller and more cluttered the Sykes household was warm and accepting and comforting and even though I had only been there a handful of times it felt more comfortable like I could walk abound in shoes and not worry about marking the floor and sit on the kitchen bench without being shoed by the house help.
By the time our lunch/dinner was done and we all helped clean up the snow had calmed and Oli’s parents had decided to go down to the café on the corner for a while, whilst Tom put in a movie taking a seat on the couch waiting for Oli and I join him. Tom was spread across one of the couches and I couldn’t help but laugh at him as he gave me the finger. Finding a spot on the spare couch next to Oli we settled in to watch “Sweeny Todd” to whom I had seen several times already and I found myself singing along to the songs much to the disgrace of the two boys.
“Lacey we get the picture you know all the words” Tom yelled at me from his position on the couch. But I continued singing along anyway
“Shut up Lacey” Tom yelled laughing at me this time
“At least she’s not completely tone deaf” Oli laughed
“I am not tone deaf at all” I corrected and he pulled a face at me which made me shut up and pounce on him a little…well to the point where he had wrestled me into a position where I was straddling him.
“Well at least she shut up” Tom commented looking at us for only a minute then turning his complete attention back to the TV.
“Now what are you gonna do?” Oli asked rather seductively and I suddenly felt rather shy and completely unlike myself as I pulled away from my position on top of him. But before I knew it he had grabbed my hand and dragged me back to him so that my head was rested on his chest and I could feel his heart beat beneath me, he wrapped his arms around my body as I did to him and I felt him kiss the top of my head and I got comfortable laying like that the rest of the movie in silence.
By the time the movie had finished Oli’s parents were home and were heading up stairs to bed as well as Tom who had retreated to his room, I felt like this was the time for me to leave as well.
“Ok I think I should go then”
“No Lacey come on just stay a little longer you know you don’t want to go home” he smiled this cheeky yet somewhat innocent smile because he knew he was right.
“Fine” I smiled
“Good I want ice cream” he declared like a five year old running off into the kitchen
I followed not long after and popped myself into the kitchen bench as he made himself a bowl of ice cream pouring too much chocolate syrup on top.
“Aren’t you even going to offer me any?” I asked with a smirk
“Would you like some ice cream Lacey” he still had that smile plastered to his face
“Well since your offering” I laughed and he made me some ice cream adding syrup.
I stayed where I was positioned on the kitchen bench eating my ice cream while Oli stood next to me with his back up against the bench eating away we must have looked odd seeing as it was eleven o’clock. As we both finished he placed both our bowls in the sink as he came back over to where I was seated standing directly in front of me.
“Oli its past 11 I should really get going especially if im walking”
“Lacey just stay im not letting you walk home at 11 and its snowing come on”
“Are you forgetting I know you Oliver Sykes” I said and he knew exactly what I meant
“Look you can crash in my bed its big enough for the both of us and ill even wear underwear” he had a smirk plastered to his face as he ran his hands up and down my thighs sending tingles throughout my entire body.
He had snaked his hands around my waist and pulled me a little closer as he managed to wedge himself between my legs and we were finally about the same height.
Continuing to draw shapes on my back I could have sworn one of them said I love you but I wasn’t about to say anything
“So are you gonna stay?” he asked
“Fine” I smiled as he placed his hands either side of my face slowly bringing his face closer to mine so closer that I could feel his breath on my face and our noses almost touching all I had to do was move forward a fraction of an inch to join us at the lips but he was too fast doing it for me. The connection of our soft lips meeting the cool metal of our lip rings causing friction as the kiss became deeper and more needy running his tongue over my lips allowing entrance our tongues battling and soon pulling apart for that dreaded thing called air.
This time his lips were on my neck moving down to my collar bone which he felt the need to bite down on as I ran my hands down his back possibly leaving a mark.
“Come on lets go put in a movie and jump into bed” Oli smiled pulling away
I was about to jump off the counter as he started to retreat to his room but I pulled him back to me quickly for one last kiss smiling into it.
“I like this whole height thing its probably the only time I am ever the same height as you” I laughed
“Your such a shorty” he laughed back at me
“Well I always wanted to be someone’s shorty” I stole a line from One Tree Hill and he shock his head at me smiling as he grabbed my hand dragging me from the kitchen and to his room.
Once there he was rummaging through his draws grabbing a pair of red plaid pajama pants and a top
“Think fast” he smiled as he through them my way “Get changed that looks too uncomfortable to sleep in”
“Thanks” I replied sliding off my stockings my oversized sweater barley covering my ass as I put the pants on then putting the shirt on as well.
Once I had turned back around to face Oli he was in only his pajama pants putting in a movie his body looked sculptured and defiant with ink covering the most part of his torso and I had to pull myself away from staring at him. Instead I went and found a place to sit on his bed.
Turning around to look at me he stated “you look much better in my clothes then I do” and I just shock my head at him biting down on my bottom lip a little.
He came and joined me pulling the covers up over the both of us a little and pulling me closer to his to that there was basically no room in between us.
As the movie came on it read “Halloween” and I sighed at the fact this movie did actually scare me
“Oli isn’t this the wrong occasions its Christmas not Halloween”
He laughed at me “well they haven’t made s horror movie about Christmas yet”
“Oh shit I forgot” I sighed rolling out of bed
“Where are you going?” Oli questioned with a pout on his face
“Don’t pout at me like that its too cute” I pouted back retrieving his little Christmas present from my bag.
“This is for you” I said getting back into Oli’s warm bed
He gave me a questioning look as if to say what the hell is this for but opened it anyway pulling out the beanie and looking at it a little
“Thanks Lacey” he smiled
“Do you like it I know it’s just something little but” I shrugged my shoulders and he smiled at me sitting it on top of his head like the gronk I knew he was.
Laughing I took it from him fixed up his hair and placed it on his head properly like it should have been. Surprising me he took my hand and placed a small kiss on it before rolling over and opening his little bed side table draw pulling out a little plastic multie coloured rainbow ring.
I smiled at him “this only cost me a couple of dollars but its bright and special and pretty like you” he smiled and I laughed at him
“Thanks Oli” I smiled kissing him before he wrapped himself around me pulling me close to watch the movie eventually falling asleep like that.
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The morning came and awoke before Oli did still wrapped in his arms I found myself following the outline of his tattoos like I did when we were in the tent which felt like so long ago.
“You always were a little stunned by my tattoos weren’t you love” he awoke
“mmmhhhmmm” I murmured as we lay in silence for a while me continuing to trace over his body
Time passed and eventually I had to get up getting dressed back in the clothes I had worn the previous day I got Oli to give me lift home as it was still lightly snowing outside.
So maybe christmas wasn't that bad after all. But now what did this really mean for Oli and I, that was always our problem we never knew where we stod for eachother were we friends or friends with benifits or something more then all of that. and even if we were who said he would never hurt me again like he did the first time.
But that was a couple days ago now. For the next hour everyone in my house would plaster a smile on their face no matter how hard it was because this morning was dedicated to Lucas he was the only one who believed in Santa these days I think he was the only one that believed in anything and I wished I was as naive as him.
Today was Christmas, most kids and teens I suppose wait for this day all year its time you get to spend with your family and friends and you get a bonus present or two. But I was dreading it more family time, great, just what I want.
But like I said walking down the stairs still in my pajamas everyone was smiling from ear to ear and I couldn’t tell but I was guessing that the only real smile was shinning from Luca’s.
“Merry Christmas baby” I said as he leaped into my arms “I see Santa came what did he get you” it was tradition in our house to put the presents under the tree and sit around as everyone opened, talking and laughing and for a moment even I was enjoying myself to see my brother like this he amazed me and I think he was the only thing that kept this family together.
As his presents came to an end I pulled mine out of my pocket handing it to him
“This especially from me” I said handing it to him and his face lit up as he climbed into my lap taking the present and slowly removing the paper, opening the box he pulled it out.
“Thank you Lacey” he said smiling up at me
“See look it has a messages on it too” I flipped it over to read the inscription “Lucas loving you always, Lacey” I read and for a change I felt my parents smile down on me like for just one moment of their lives they were actually proud of me and it felt kind of strange like it was out of place.
“Can you put it on for me Lacey?”
“Of course baby” I replied taking the chain in my hand and placing it around his neck doing it up.
The rest of the morning went by in an orderly fashion everyone getting showered and dressedready for the rest of our family to come over the family help coming and cooking moments after the presents were finished with. to my surprise I got one present and I like it too it was a light pink sweater that was purposely large I don’t think my parents expected me to appear wearing it and especially not the way I was with nothing more then a pair of stockings on under it. But I didn’t care by this stage I was almost done with pleasing them and I like how it looked even if they didn’t.
As my family rolled in I got more presents like a diary and photo frame useless things that I didn’t really care about I guess by this stage I had stopped caring as well. There seemed to be no point anymore so I walked around for the most of the day like the living dead. I heard my phone go off from upstairs receiving a text message I went up to see who it was from.
Opening it read
“Oli” clicking it to find what he wanted surprised it read
“Merry Christmas Lacey how are you love?
Oli”
Surprising myself I replied
“Merry Christmas Oli, im ok I suppose,
Family are doing my head in I need to get out of here I think im gonna head down to the field for a bit. Have a good day
<3 Lacey”
Hitting send it was only a minute before I got a reply
“Come over, don’t spend Christmas like that and its cold out youll freeze.
Come on my family love you come over”
I found a smile appear on my face and I couldn’t help but think maybe there was still a point to all of this.
“Ok thanks Oli”
I hit the send button and went to find my purse, my present for Oli and my car keys finding everything except the keys
“Mum where are my keys” I yelled
“Lacey you are not driving your banned again don’t you remember plus its Christmas your not going anywhere” she retorted standing firmly
“Are you serious im going out im not staying in this hell hole I put a smile on my face this morning coz of Lucas he’s happy off playing now im leaving”
“Lacey look at yourself I mean come on you are deffinently not going anywhere looking like that”
“What all of a sudden you don’t like the sweater you bought me” I asked with a look of mock horror on my face
“Lacey do not speak to me like that”
“Oh whatever im out of here”
“You’re pushing your luck young lady”
“Yea yea” I retorted leaving with only my purse and phone deciding I would walk to Oli’s it wasn’t that far I suppose…looking up it was freezing outside Oli was right and I could feel it start to snow around me loose, small not completely formed flakes, shivering I pulled my arms around my body walking that bit faster.
I knocked once that’s all it took for the door to come flying open, instantly feeling the heat from inside warm me up just a bit.
“Did you walk?” Oli sounded slightly amused
“Maybe” I tried to hid the smile that was tugging at my lips
“Oh my god” he let out a laugh “your insane”
“Are you gonna let me in im freezing its fucken snowing” he pushed the door open and I walked in he didn’t move but I could feel him eyeing me off insanely
“Oliver” I let out harshly with a smile defendant on my face as I turned around him still staring at me he instantly looked down
“Sorry” he mumbled
“Lacey your just in time come take a seat it’s a late lunch early dinner kind of thing” Oli’s mum gestured and I did as she said.
Oli’s home…it actually felt like a home unlike mine that just felt like a place of being. It was always cold and eerie and strangely uncomfortable for a place I have lived in for 17 years. Even though it was smaller and more cluttered the Sykes household was warm and accepting and comforting and even though I had only been there a handful of times it felt more comfortable like I could walk abound in shoes and not worry about marking the floor and sit on the kitchen bench without being shoed by the house help.
By the time our lunch/dinner was done and we all helped clean up the snow had calmed and Oli’s parents had decided to go down to the café on the corner for a while, whilst Tom put in a movie taking a seat on the couch waiting for Oli and I join him. Tom was spread across one of the couches and I couldn’t help but laugh at him as he gave me the finger. Finding a spot on the spare couch next to Oli we settled in to watch “Sweeny Todd” to whom I had seen several times already and I found myself singing along to the songs much to the disgrace of the two boys.
“Lacey we get the picture you know all the words” Tom yelled at me from his position on the couch. But I continued singing along anyway
“Shut up Lacey” Tom yelled laughing at me this time
“At least she’s not completely tone deaf” Oli laughed
“I am not tone deaf at all” I corrected and he pulled a face at me which made me shut up and pounce on him a little…well to the point where he had wrestled me into a position where I was straddling him.
“Well at least she shut up” Tom commented looking at us for only a minute then turning his complete attention back to the TV.
“Now what are you gonna do?” Oli asked rather seductively and I suddenly felt rather shy and completely unlike myself as I pulled away from my position on top of him. But before I knew it he had grabbed my hand and dragged me back to him so that my head was rested on his chest and I could feel his heart beat beneath me, he wrapped his arms around my body as I did to him and I felt him kiss the top of my head and I got comfortable laying like that the rest of the movie in silence.
By the time the movie had finished Oli’s parents were home and were heading up stairs to bed as well as Tom who had retreated to his room, I felt like this was the time for me to leave as well.
“Ok I think I should go then”
“No Lacey come on just stay a little longer you know you don’t want to go home” he smiled this cheeky yet somewhat innocent smile because he knew he was right.
“Fine” I smiled
“Good I want ice cream” he declared like a five year old running off into the kitchen
I followed not long after and popped myself into the kitchen bench as he made himself a bowl of ice cream pouring too much chocolate syrup on top.
“Aren’t you even going to offer me any?” I asked with a smirk
“Would you like some ice cream Lacey” he still had that smile plastered to his face
“Well since your offering” I laughed and he made me some ice cream adding syrup.
I stayed where I was positioned on the kitchen bench eating my ice cream while Oli stood next to me with his back up against the bench eating away we must have looked odd seeing as it was eleven o’clock. As we both finished he placed both our bowls in the sink as he came back over to where I was seated standing directly in front of me.
“Oli its past 11 I should really get going especially if im walking”
“Lacey just stay im not letting you walk home at 11 and its snowing come on”
“Are you forgetting I know you Oliver Sykes” I said and he knew exactly what I meant
“Look you can crash in my bed its big enough for the both of us and ill even wear underwear” he had a smirk plastered to his face as he ran his hands up and down my thighs sending tingles throughout my entire body.
He had snaked his hands around my waist and pulled me a little closer as he managed to wedge himself between my legs and we were finally about the same height.
Continuing to draw shapes on my back I could have sworn one of them said I love you but I wasn’t about to say anything
“So are you gonna stay?” he asked
“Fine” I smiled as he placed his hands either side of my face slowly bringing his face closer to mine so closer that I could feel his breath on my face and our noses almost touching all I had to do was move forward a fraction of an inch to join us at the lips but he was too fast doing it for me. The connection of our soft lips meeting the cool metal of our lip rings causing friction as the kiss became deeper and more needy running his tongue over my lips allowing entrance our tongues battling and soon pulling apart for that dreaded thing called air.
This time his lips were on my neck moving down to my collar bone which he felt the need to bite down on as I ran my hands down his back possibly leaving a mark.
“Come on lets go put in a movie and jump into bed” Oli smiled pulling away
I was about to jump off the counter as he started to retreat to his room but I pulled him back to me quickly for one last kiss smiling into it.
“I like this whole height thing its probably the only time I am ever the same height as you” I laughed
“Your such a shorty” he laughed back at me
“Well I always wanted to be someone’s shorty” I stole a line from One Tree Hill and he shock his head at me smiling as he grabbed my hand dragging me from the kitchen and to his room.
Once there he was rummaging through his draws grabbing a pair of red plaid pajama pants and a top
“Think fast” he smiled as he through them my way “Get changed that looks too uncomfortable to sleep in”
“Thanks” I replied sliding off my stockings my oversized sweater barley covering my ass as I put the pants on then putting the shirt on as well.
Once I had turned back around to face Oli he was in only his pajama pants putting in a movie his body looked sculptured and defiant with ink covering the most part of his torso and I had to pull myself away from staring at him. Instead I went and found a place to sit on his bed.
Turning around to look at me he stated “you look much better in my clothes then I do” and I just shock my head at him biting down on my bottom lip a little.
He came and joined me pulling the covers up over the both of us a little and pulling me closer to his to that there was basically no room in between us.
As the movie came on it read “Halloween” and I sighed at the fact this movie did actually scare me
“Oli isn’t this the wrong occasions its Christmas not Halloween”
He laughed at me “well they haven’t made s horror movie about Christmas yet”
“Oh shit I forgot” I sighed rolling out of bed
“Where are you going?” Oli questioned with a pout on his face
“Don’t pout at me like that its too cute” I pouted back retrieving his little Christmas present from my bag.
“This is for you” I said getting back into Oli’s warm bed
He gave me a questioning look as if to say what the hell is this for but opened it anyway pulling out the beanie and looking at it a little
“Thanks Lacey” he smiled
“Do you like it I know it’s just something little but” I shrugged my shoulders and he smiled at me sitting it on top of his head like the gronk I knew he was.
Laughing I took it from him fixed up his hair and placed it on his head properly like it should have been. Surprising me he took my hand and placed a small kiss on it before rolling over and opening his little bed side table draw pulling out a little plastic multie coloured rainbow ring.
I smiled at him “this only cost me a couple of dollars but its bright and special and pretty like you” he smiled and I laughed at him
“Thanks Oli” I smiled kissing him before he wrapped himself around me pulling me close to watch the movie eventually falling asleep like that.
***
The morning came and awoke before Oli did still wrapped in his arms I found myself following the outline of his tattoos like I did when we were in the tent which felt like so long ago.
“You always were a little stunned by my tattoos weren’t you love” he awoke
“mmmhhhmmm” I murmured as we lay in silence for a while me continuing to trace over his body
Time passed and eventually I had to get up getting dressed back in the clothes I had worn the previous day I got Oli to give me lift home as it was still lightly snowing outside.
So maybe christmas wasn't that bad after all. But now what did this really mean for Oli and I, that was always our problem we never knew where we stod for eachother were we friends or friends with benifits or something more then all of that. and even if we were who said he would never hurt me again like he did the first time.
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sorry it took me so long to get up i was gonna write it yesterday afternoon but i ended up at my boyfriends house instead loland sorry no sex scene i knew this would have been my perfect opportunity but i didnt think it would fit so bad luck
umm this chapter i stole a line from One Tree Hill becuase its awsomness and i stole some insanity from my boyfriend coz hes a gronk
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please leave comments i want as manny as possible before this ends
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