Killing Joy

I had been staying in my mom for like three days, and so far it was very fun without Caleb. My mom hadn’t gotten be suspicious with my presence in her house not in my real house as Mrs. Turman.
I was free like bird. I was free from my cage at last, I knew I should had did this long time ago. Living without Caleb was like having three ponies at once. It opened my happiness.

Caleb once called me but I didn’t bother to pick it up. He also sent messages that once again I didn’t bother to read, I just deleted them all.

Everyone had been killing my joy ever since the catastrophe was started with my birthday party. But this time, no one could kill my joy again.

I was tinting my toe nails with yellow nail polish in my room as the TV motioned some new music that came from bands. It played some lame video clips so I ignored it. When I was concentrating polishing my nails, I heard my door was knocked and then it revealed the figure of woman in her early forties bringing a tray of chips and juice.
She was strolling over me and sat next to me.

“Nickins… can we talk, honey?” my mom said stroking my raven hair as I watched her eyes deeply. Uh oh, I thought she was discovering my reason being here. She knew it was not because I missed the house but it was about Caleb. And yes.

“Are you fighting with Caleb, dear?” my mom asked very slowly and then I just swallowed hard. I closed the cover of the nail polish and then I sighed. I was about to cry but I held it back trying to talk properly.

“Uhm.. i.. I don’t want to see him anymore, mom” I said raking my hair in frustration and then my mom grabbed my hand and rubbed it softly

“But why, honey?”

For some reasons I wanted to tell her so bad that he raped me. But I dunno why I didn’t spill it already. I just became mute in long moment. I didn’t reply her and then she lifted my chin so my eyes were on her.

“Nichole Penelope… answer me, dear”

I then took her shoulders and hugged her helplessly. I didn’t cry but I was sobbing because I was holding some heavy bound in my heart. “I’m scared of him, mommy. I really really am…” I felt my mom hugged me back and stroked my back to comfort me. She seemed confused why I was acting so scared toward Caleb. I dunno whether I should tell her or not.

“Did he hit you?” I heard my mom became harsh. I pulled away and then watched her eyes as I shook my head.
“Nicks, he called this morning and asked how you are doing. He said he missed you, baby. He loves you” my mom explained. And I thought it was the stupidest reason he’s got to lead me back to the house by calling my mom and said he missed me. Screw that. He didn’t miss me, he just wanted fuck buddy. Why didn’t he just hire those fangirls or free sluts? Why it had to happen with me.

“He’s not mom..” I said in cracked voice “We had sex, mom. He took it.. I couldn’t stand of him. I am scared with him…” I trailed off.

For sudden, she pushed me and looked at me. I dunno if it was..

Oh shit. It happened again.

I swore I saw my mom’s eyes were brightening when she heard that I had sex with Caleb. It was really embarrassing to tell and knowing my mom was really eager to see me hooking up with Caleb was like the world falls down.

“Mom!” I cried noticing her sucky response.

“Nickins, that’s good news! Caleb really loves you, baby” she giggled and squealed in triumph

“Mom! He’s not! He was horny and needed fuck buddy! I freaking hate him! I don’t want to see him! MOM! Listen to me!!” but she didn’t instead dancing goofily in front of me.

“Mom! I don’t believe you! You are happy with me on major sorrow! I hate everyone!!!” I shoved my head on the pillow and buried my self under the blanket annoyingly ignoring that my toenails were still wet. Why there was nobody who could understand me! Why??!

“Nicky.. don’t be like that… I’m glad you two finally…”

“MOM!” I roared and then made an annoyed face.

“Alright baby” my mom still giggled as I peek out from the blanket. I rolled my eyes and the suddenly she said, “Oh I almost forgot, Michaela and Beth are here. Let me call them” then I heard my mom’s step was disappeared leaving me alone in my bedroom.

MICH AND BETH! I really needed them right now! So, after my mom waltzed out from my room, a hyper giggles abruptly echoed through my room and the door revealed two features. The one with her blonde hair and blue streaks was skipping over me and crashed me into a wild hugs.
On the other way, the brown haired girl stepped into the room and shoved herself next to me with a weak smile.

“I’m fricking missing you, baby!!” Mich giggled and ruffled my hair and then on the other way, Beth joined the giggle but she stared at me with a meaningful look.

“How are you, Mich. How’s your vacation?” I asked still hinting an annoyed tone

Mich gasped, “It’s marvelously wonderful. Me and Ernie had a great time”

“Wow, that’s amazing” I responded aimlessly

Well, they seemed bought my moody state. Beth watched me intently as she demanded what happened to me.
“Nicky? What happened?” she started making Mich stopped smiling and then concerned about me.

“I hate everyone” I muttered as I shoved myself back to the bed blanketing my body.

“Well.. ermm.. why?” Beth asked again

I shot a mad look at Beth, “Can you believe it my mom is happy! She’s happy that Caleb raped me!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!” I managed not to whimper but failed. Beth and Mich suddenly gasped in shock looking me in disbelief.

“What?” Mich squeaked “He raped you? What do you mean, Nicky??”

I groaned, finally I spilled it out to somebody. I tightened my grasp at the pillow holding the anger in my heart. “He raped me you goon!! Haven’t you ever heard of raping in the national headline!!?” I barked and punched the bed annoyingly with that Mich shifted her spot nearer to me and shushed me soothingly.

“I’m here because I’m avoiding him, guys..” I said in cracked voice, “And then he called my mom to ask me for coming back.. he.. said he missed me. That fucktard made good choosing a great reason to pull me back so he could have his fuck buddy! I…” then I tore my eyes out as buried my head on Beth’s shoulder sobbing and shuddering. I knew I should have been like this. I wasn’t your vulnerable girl, I was a tough girl. I didn’t know what came to me so I was like this.

But I felt everything was hard for me. Since I was forced to married Caleb, he’s a major manwhore, I never loved him and then at last he raped me.

“Oh please, Nicky.. You’re not that whiney. You can through this, baby” said Beth hugging me sending a comfort shock across my body. Well, she’s right.
“And you have Zack. He still loves you right?”

“He hasn’t known anything about it. I’m scared to tell him.. what if he dumped me? I already fall for him, Beth”

“Oh come on, what kind of boyfriend who dares to dump his girlfriend just because she slept with somebody, huh?” Mich stated

I stopped crying and then glared at her in annoyance.

“Mich!” Beth cried

Mich winced a bit and then made an imaginary zipper across her lips as she made a peace sign at me. “Sorry” she added

And then, abruptly something was vibrating on my end table. My cellphone. I let go from Beth’s shoulder and then took my cellphone that rang frantically. I picked it up and managed my voice so it wouldn’t be heard cracked.

“Nicky…” I heard someone breathlessly greeted.

“Hey..” I wiped my slipped tear and smiled at Zack who called. “What’s up?”

“Well, we were just finishing our performance here. And I’m all sweaty. I just want to know how you are doing.” I could picture him smiling through the phone and then I couldn’t help but smiled back.

“I’m fine. I’m just having company here” I said glancing to Mich and Beth who curved their smile at me.

“Company???” I heard Zack hinting his overreacted tone playfully “Who? Well dude, just don’t tell me you’re cheating on me, okay?”

I giggled at him, “Of course not, you silly. Beth and Mich come over my house”

I heard Zack chuckled lightly, “You’re not cheating on me with them, right?” Zack grinned.

“Oh my, I dunno Zack. They’re as amazing as you” I played along and giggled

Then I heard Zack gasped and whined, “Nicky…”

“Zack, I’m straight for Pete’s sake” I giggled, “You’re my only one, okay?”

“Well.. that’s not enough. I’m already broken right now” I could picture his overreacted face which made me giggled more and more. “You should pay it”

“What?”

“Yeah, you should go with me today”

I rolled my eyes, he got a nice excuse to ask me out, and he made good of it, “Alright, don’t let me down with the date, okay?”

“Uhh.. well, I dunno. It’s just the common date. Ice cream and maybe something?”

“That’s quite nice. Okay, I’ll be waiting for you then”

“Okay, I’m going to your place right now. After the shower”

“Right. Bye” I said and he replied me with a kiss then hung the phone.

I couldn’t help but smile at my friends and it seemed they already knew about it.

“Alright, we’re off from here then. We don’t want to disturb your lovey date” Beth chuckled and then got up from date. “Come on Mich” Beth pulled Mich’s hand and letting her got off from my bed.

“Wait wait..” Mich interjected, “I have a good news for you two”

“Is this about you and Ernie again?” Beth said hinting annoying voice.

“Well, kinda. Ernie asked me to help his family restaurant in Hawaii for the entire summer break. How fun!” Mich clapped her hands happily and squealed.

“Oh shut up!” Beth laughed and congrated her, “So it’s like you’re having a summer job, right?”

“Yeahhh.. I’m so excited”

“Congratulation Mich. Happy jobbing” I smiled

“Oh yeah, actually me too. I applied a summer job as a preschool teacher. Isn’t it fun?” Beth widened her smiled and then I gasped.

“Oh no way! You’re having a great time for the summer. And job!” I commented and was like protesting for their fortune having job.

“Please” Beth and Mich said unison. “You’re expecting a summer job? You’re rich enough, dude” said Beth

“But I want to have a job”

I saw Beth and Mich rolled their eyes as they headed to the door, “Have your way, we’re signing off from here, baby” said Beth after she hugged me followed by Mich.

“Be good for the summer” Mich smiled happily.

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