Running From Reality

I’ve got to breathe, you can’t take that from me, because that’s all that’s left that’s mine….
Post Song;; All American Rejects – When The Wind Blows

I laid beside him, his arms wrapped around me. I held on tight. Soon his breathing was even. I pulled my iPod out, and turned it up.
I’ve got to breathe
You can’t take that from me
Because its all that you left that’s mine
You had to leave
That’s all I can see
But you told me your love was mine
But in better times
Your so impossible
That I should sign a waiver
And you will find
Someone worth walking on
When you ask me to go
I’ll leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and well there it goes
I’ll be outside of your window
I’ll pass by but I’ll go slow
I’ll leave when the wind blows
How had I gotten so far away from what I had once been? I used to be so strong. My father broke me…I used to only get upset when I lost a big competition. But he had tore me so far down…that I hadn’t been able to notice. Nor had I been able to get back up. It was like a race. I was running in lane one. He was in lane six. But I stumbled over a rock, and he caught up to me, somehow he’d moved from six to one, and I was in two. He laughed as he ran past me, kicking me in the heart as he ran. And I was still lying down as he kept running.
But I could get up.
I could catch up. I could still beat him. If I would just stop hurting myself and letting him hurt me!
There was a day
You threw our love away
And you passed it to someone new
You wanna stay but since you wanna play
I’ll finally say we’re through
But if there are times
Your so impossible
And you asked me to go
I’ll leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and well there it goes
I’ll be outside of your window
I’ll pass by but I’ll go slow
I’ll leave when the wind blows
You can scream then just let go
I’ll pass outside of your window
You’ll be sad that you let me go
I was going to make my father sorry that he did this to me. Sorry that he kicked me into last place. Into lane six. I was going to destroy him. His reputation. His life. His career. His family. Though he had already successfully tore that to pieces on his own. I was going to kick him as he lays screaming on the rubbery track. Move him from one to six. He’ll get last place and I’ll steal first. No. I wont be stealing it. I deserve it. After the hell he’d put me through!
I’ll leave but just know
As I lay in solitude
Oh whats a boy supposed to do
I’ll shake the very thought of you
Of me together I remember
Late nights when I stayed up late
All I do is wait and wait
Your never coming home to me
(that’s an obvious thing to see)
(obvious thing to see)
I got to breathe
You cant take that from me
I can finally say we’re through
I’ll leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and well there it goes
I’ll be outside of your window
I’ll pass by but I’ll go slow
I’ll leave when the wind blows
You can scream but then let it go
I’ll pass outside your window
You’ll be sad that you let me go
Every face you’ll ever know
And everywhere you’ll ever go
You’ll be when the wind blows
By the time I get through with him, he’ll wish he was dead. And to me, and the rest of the world, he will be. Dirty douchebag dick. He was going down.
I got so excited by the thoughts going in my head, I was grinning. I turned into Alex and hugged him tight.
He stirred. “Are you okay babe?” He asked sleepily.
“I am absolutely amazing.” I sighed, kissing his chest.
He smiled and kissed the top of my head. “I sure hope so.”

I’ll leave when the wind blows
You can scream then just let go
I’ll pass outside of your window
You’ll be sad that you let me go