I've Been Walking These Streets For Days

I felt like my heart had sunk out of my chest and it was hard for me to breath as I continued to choke back sobs. I just felt so empty inside right now. My whole body was shaking and even though Cadence was holding me I still couldn’t calm down. This was just too much for me to handle at the moment. There were so many different thoughts running through my mind that I couldn’t think clearly at all. Only one thought was clear in my mind.

Cadence was leaving.

As much as I want to stop him there is nothing I can do about it. If Cadence wants to leave then he’s going to leave. I can’t beg him to stay he’s already made up his mind. He’s leaving to work things out with his parents. Who am I to stop him?

This just sucks so much. I really don’t want him to leave but I can’t do anything. I finally worked up the nerve to express how I feel about him and now he’s leaving. I kissed Cadence and he actually kissed me back. I never thought that would ever happen. But it did. It doesn’t matter though its not like he actually likes me back and I never told him I liked him I just kissed him. Friends kiss each other all the time right? Hell I don’t know I don’t go around kissing all of my friendseven though I don’t have any.

“Gavin come on Babe calm down.” Cadence whispered in my ear as he rubs his hands up and down my arms. I groaned slightly I’d been crying so hard that my chest was hurting We’ve been like this for about two hours now just lying on my bed. My head is buried in his chest as I continue to fail miserably at trying not to cry. I hiccup again before I bury my face into his soaked shirt again. I could hear him curse to himself but I was focused on the rise and fall of his chest.

“Gavin I’m really sorry I didn’t know you would take it this hard.”

“W-why w-wouldn’t I?” I said slightly shocked “My o-only fr-friend is up a-and l-leaving m-me why w-wouldn’t I-I t-take it h-hard?” I snapped at him and Cadence’s face fell and he casted his eyes downwards. I bite my lip and sighed slightly mad at myself. I know it’s hard for Cadence to leave and I shouldn’t be harsh towards him it will only push him away and I don’t want that to happen.

I lifted his face in my hands and pressed my lips to his. At first he didn’t respond but a few seconds later he pressed back forcefully. His slung his arm around my waist and pulled me closer. I squeaked into his lips and his chuckled before attaching our lips again. His tongue brushed across my bottom lip and I willing opened my mouth letting his tongue invade my mouth. His fists gripped my hips tighter and I wrapped my arms around his neck to get closer to him. I moaned into his mouth and I pulled away slightly shocked and embarrassed.

“I-I’m s-sorry I d-didn’t me-mean t-to s-snap a-at y-you.” Cadence just wiped a stray tear from my cheek and smiled.

“It’s okay Babe I know me leaving is just as hard for you as it is for me.”

“S-since w-when did y-you s-start ca-calling me b-babe?” I asked him as my cheeks started burning red. Cadence just shrugged before snuggling with me again.

“I just think it suits you. Don’t you think?” I scrunched up my nose.

“Not really.” He poked my nose and I pouted.

“Too bad I’m still going to continue to call you that.”

“Okay.” I mumbled a frown reappearing on my face.

“Gavin? Babe what’s wrong?”

“I really just don’t want you to leave.” I mumbled trying to avoid his eyes. Cadence sighed and kissed my forehead.

“Gavin it’s not like you’re never going to see me again.”

“Promise?”

“Gavin I promise you, just because I’m leaving doesn’t mean I’m never going to see you again. I’m just moving back in with my parents that’s not going to effect our friendship in anyway.”

“Okay.” I said not bothering to argue. I knew that Cadence leaving would affect our friendship deeply no matter what. I just didn’t want to admit it. I stopped talking and just closed my eyes.

I was starting to get sleepy from crying for the majority of the day. I could feel Cadence kiss my forehead as he ran his hands through my hair.

“Hey Cadence?” I yawned as I tried to get his attention.

“Yeah Babe?”

“Thanks for making my first kiss amazing.” I said smiling at him as my eyes started to become heavy. He looked like a dear in headlights but his expression soon changed as a smile made its way across his face.

“That was your first kiss?”

“Yep.”

“Seriously?”

“Yes.” I giggled why was he so shocked that was my first kiss. “Why are you so shocked?”

“You’re so cute I’d would have thought boys would be lining up to kiss you.” At that I couldn’t help but laugh not matter how sleepy I was starting to get.

“Oh please no guy has ever been interested in me before in my life.”

“I find that hard to believe.”

“Well try and believe harder cause its true. Now be quite so I can go to sleep.”

“But-“

“I said hush.” I fake threatetned. Cadence just chuckled to himself and kissed my cheek.

“You really are too cute Gavin.” He mumbled to himself before pulling me into his chest.

Damn I’m going to miss this when he leaves.