Tour With Me

Natalie’s POV

We all walked backstage towards one of the back exits. We had to use the back exit due to so many fans around the venue. Sure, a few of them who didn’t have meet and greet passes had actually left, but the others stayed. They were hoping that they could catch a glimpse of Justin as he left the venue. How parents are okay with their daughters surrounding a building in hopes of seeing a guy, was beyond me?

“Exit!” Sabrina yelled, pointing at a black metal door with an Exit sign above it.

She then linked her arms with Annabelle and picked up her pace. I couldn’t help but notice Annabelle roll her eyes as Sabrina pulled her to the exit.

Ever since Annabelle’s friend came to visit, she’s been really moody. Everything seems to annoy her now, including Sabrina. Sabrina gets along with everyone so of course her and Annabelle were friends. Normally they would be having girl talk, but Annabelle was to annoyed to say anything. Honestly, I loved it. I didn’t have to be the one to annoy her now, everything else did it for me.

“You know dimples, it’s not good to take joy in others pain,” Allan laughed.

“I know that,” I began “But I’m not taking joy in others pain, just hers,” I spoke as I continued to watch Sabrina pull Annabelle outside.

Allan laughed and pulled me closer to him. I simply tightened my grip around his waist, not thinking much of it.

Surprisingly, this wasn’t me flirting. I don’t think I could ever flirt with Allan the way I do Thomas, or anyone else. He was my best friend before I changed, it would be awkward to turn him into a boy-toy now. Not only that, but I don’t see him that way. I see Allan as my best friend who happens to be a guy, nothing more, nothing less.

Allan held the door open as we both walked out, Thomas trailing behind us. Sabrina and Annabelle were standing in the parking lot. Annabelle telling Sabrina that she wasn’t hungry and all she wanted to do with sleep. Oh, you have got to be loving this as much as I am.

“Wait, I’m starving, I say we get something to eat,” Thomas spoke as we inched closer to Annabelle and Sabrina.

“That’s what I’m saying,” Sabrina added. “I say we walk down the block, order a pizza or get something to eat. You know, to celebrate the performance,”

Allan shrugged his shoulders, not caring which we picked. Thomas simply high-fived Sabrina, for being on his side, before he put his arm around Annabelle’s shoulders. She rolled her eyes and muttered a curse to him before throwing his arm off her shoulders.

“Well I say we celebrate back on the bus,” Allan suggested. “We could get a pizza to go and take it back to the bus, that way we could celebrate and Annabelle can lay down,”

Annabelle suddenly flashed a smile in his direction. Allan sent a smile her way in return. Her smile seemed to grow slightly wider at his reaction. I glanced back and forth between the two, not liking the smile on Annabelle’s face.

“Awe, well aren’t you the little problem solver,” I spoke as I smiled up at Allan.

He tore his gaze away from Annabelle and looked down at me. His smile seemed to grow wider, into the smile that I was use to seeing from him.

“Of course dimples, that’s why you love me remember,” he responded.

I rolled my eyes as I smile made its way onto my face. “I knew that there was some reason,”

“Love you too dimples,” Allan cheerfully spoke as he pulled me closer to him. out of the corner of my eyes I saw Annabelle roll her eyes as her smile fell. I simply ignored her, as I normally would, not thinking much of it.

“Pizza!” Sabrina shouted, gaining everyone’s attention. We all laughed, minus Annabelle, before we started walking to the pizza place down the block.

-X-

I laughed as Sabrina danced to “Hot Mess” by Cobra Starship. As usual she was energetic, and the pizza did nothing to slow us down.

We were in the living area in the back of tour bus. After we had gotten two large boxes of pizza we came back to the bus. Annabelle immediately went to her bunk and crashed. Everyone else came to the back to eat.

We ended up plugging my I-pod into the docking station after everyone’s second slice of pizza. Although there were only four of us, this ended up being more of a celebration, than I thought it would be.

The guys were still eating pizza while Sabrina tried to get me to dance with her. I laughed as I continued to shake my head. normally I wouldn’t hesitate to get up and dance, but I didn’t think that it was a smart idea after eating 3 slices of pizza.

Sabrina let out and aggravated groan before plopping down on the couch next to me. She continued to dance while she was on the couch. All I could do was laugh, and shake my head.

Suddenly I heard the sound of footsteps as my laughter died down. I looked to my left to see Justin standing there, looking tired but amused. He raised his brow at us until his gaze landed on the pizza box on the table in front of Thomas and Allan.

“Any more pizza in that box?” he asked, his eyes gleaming with hope.

Allan continued to chew his pizza as opened the pizza box. He nodded his head at Justin. “Three slices dude,” he spoke, pizza flying out of his mouth as he did.

Both mine and Sabrina’s faces twisted in disgust. I understand that the pizza was good but that was a bit much.

“Miracles do come true!!” he yelled before running over to the table. He grabbed a slice of pizza out of the box, and took a large bite. He closed his eyes and nodded his head.

Sabrina and I laughed at him. It amazes me how much we teens love pizza. What is it about pizza that makes us teens so happy? Either way it’s so good that it gained all of Justin’s love.

The song soon ended, but none of us bothered to change it, my I-pod was on shuffle. Soon the song “Kisses Don’t Lie” by Rihanna began to play. Sabrina let out a girly squeal.

“I remember this song, I use to love this song, I seriously love your I-pod,” she spoke. She then began to sway back and forth as she sang the lyrics.

Emotions come and go
Who knows how the wind will blow?
There so little in this world to trust in

All I could do was shake my head at her. She was enjoying today as much as I was earlier. She continued to rock back and forth and belt out the lyrics.

Seduce themselves with lies
Some don't realize
They call it love but it’s really only lusting

Suddenly my gaze drifted over to the table where the guys were. Allan was of course swaying back and forth as he ate his pizza. That earned a punch in the shoulder from Thomas who was now eating the crust to his pizza. I couldn’t help but laugh at the two of them.

So you see you and me
We're getting close to the danger zone
Show me how tell me now
Should I stay or should I go
Cause I'm caught between yes and no

My laughter died down, as my gaze shifted. Justin suddenly looked up, our gazes locking. My heart began to pound into my chest as I stared into his eyes. His eyes soon filled with an emotion that I couldn’t place. We continued to gaze at each other as the lyrics to the song filled my ears.

Cause when you kiss me
I feel everything that I been missing
I try to slow down but my heart won’t listen
And its tearing me all up inside
And when you touch me
I feel a rush but I'm afraid that it might crush me
Should I put my trust in something I don't trust in
I try to run but there’s no place to hide

“Cause baby kisses don't lie,” Justin mouthed the last line to the chorus as he continued to gaze at me.

That’s when it hit me. Everything that happened after the show poured into my brain, including me kissing Justin. my eyes went slightly wide as I shifted my gaze to a singing Sabrina.

I couldn’t believe this, I couldn’t believe what I had done. My whole plan was to take one step at a time, and I had just thrown it all out of the window. What was the point of Justin not kissing me earlier if I was just going to do it later?

I quickly grabbed Sabrina’s hand and pulled her out of the room with me. I didn’t stop until we reached the bunk area. Annabelle’s curtain was closed, I assumed that she had gone to sleep a while ago.

I dropped Sabrina’s hand and turned around to face her. She had a confused look plastered onto her face. She opened her mouth to speak, but I cut her off.

“I kissed Justin,”

She furrowed her brows together as she started at me. “Yeah I know, you told me remember,” she spoke.

I shook my head. “No, I mean again,” I explained.

Her eyes flew wide. “Oh my gosh, when?’

“After the show backstage,” I began, “I was so caught up in something that had happened earlier that I just did it without thinking. What am I supposed to do now?”

“Ask him how it was,” she smiled.

“I’m serious Rina. This wasn’t supposed to happen, now what am I supposed to do? This practically ruins everything,”

“Calm the hell down it doesn’t ruin anything,” she spoke as she continued to smile.

“Just talk to him about it, I’m sure you have talked to guys about it before. Just tell him that you were caught up in the moment and it happened. Tell him that you don’t want it to be awkward between you guys because of it,”

“Are you insane,” I whisper yelled. I would have yelled but I didn’t want to wake Annabelle up.

“Fine then don’t talk to him about it. Just do that same thing that you did the last time that you guys kissed, just don’t worry about it. If it was that big a deal, I’m sure Justin will say something about it, but until then just relax and act like you would normally act,” she spoke.

I opened my mouth to speak but closed it. She had a point, I could just not talk to him about it. Then again, if I don’t Justin might get the wrong idea. Maybe it would be best for me to wait for Justin to say something. Maybe he simply shrugged the kiss off.

The pit of my stomach told me that it wasn’t true. He remembered that kiss, I knew that he did. The fact that he mouth those words to me, told me that he remembered it. The only thing that it didn’t do was tell me what he thought about it. It didn’t tell me anything other than the fact that he remembered the kiss.

I groaned and ran my hands through my hair. I couldn’t just ignore it as if nothing happened, but I didn’t want to talk to him about it either. I knew that I was going to have to talk to him about it, I couldn’t just keep ignoring what happened every time that we kissed. I would have to talk to him about it, and soon.

Only I couldn’t do it tonight. Tonight just didn’t seem like the right moment to do it. I would have to do it, whenever we were alone. I didn’t need anyone else besides Sabrina knowing that I had kissed Justin. They would all think that that was the only reason why I was here. Not only that but I just didn’t want everyone knowing.

I nodded my head at Sabrina. She smiled before skipping back to the living area. I sighed once more, as she left.

If only I could actually talk to him. Whenever we were alone that’s when it happened. Every time that we were alone, we either kissed or we were almost kissed. How could I talk to him alone, about not kissing him, when that’s all that ever happens.

I bit my lip and shifted my weight to my left leg. Maybe this time it won’t happen. Maybe this time I would simply talk to him and that would be it.

Talking to him would be harder than trying not to kiss him.