Tour With Me

Natalie’s POV

I stood in front of Justin in complete shock. I couldn’t believe what had just happened. Not only had Justin asked me to be his girlfriend, but I had just confessed how much I like him. I had never imagined either one of those things happening. I wanted them to, but I didn’t think that they would.

My eyes were slightly wide, while my jaw was clenched shut. My throat became dry and felt as if it had closed up. I couldn’t speak. Even if I could speak, I wouldn’t have known what to say to him. I was in complete shock.

Justin simply stood there with his forehead pressed against mine, as he cupped my cheeks. My body loved every second that I was close to Justin. My heart yearned for me to lean forward and kiss him once more. My stomach was churning, from his touch, loving his gentle touch on my face.

His eyes stayed locked with mine, never straying. His eyes were hopeful, cheerful, and many other emotions. He wanted this, he wanted to make me his. I could tell by the look in his eyes that he had been waiting to do this for a while. I knew that if I asked how long he had been waiting, I would be surprised by the answer.

We simply stood there for what felt like hours, staring into each other’s eyes. The entire time, Justin’s expression remained the same. He continued to smile, and his eyes continued to radiate happiness.

Eventually, I was able to find my voice. “Justin…I-I don’t know,” I hesitated.

For the first time since I came back here, Justin’s expression changed slightly. I could tell in his eyes that he was slightly hurt by what I said, I wasn’t surprised though.

“Don’t get me wrong Justin,” I spoke up. “I want to say yes, I really, really do but—”

“Then say yes,” he interrupted.

I sighed as I closed my eyes. I wanted nothing more, than to say yes. I didn’t want to hesitate the way that I was, I simply wanted to say yes so that I could be his girlfriend.

I knew that I was just over thinking the situation, but I couldn’t help it. I didn’t want Justin to do something that he would regret. I didn’t want him to regret asking me to be his girlfriend nor, did I want for him to regret dating me.

“Justin I just…I don’t really know,”

Justin closed his eyes as he dropped his hands from my face, placing them on either side of me on the wall. I was actually glad that Justin closed his eyes. When his eyes were closed, I couldn’t see how much I was hurting him. I couldn’t see if he was upset by what I said or not.

Silence fell over us as we stood there. The cold air was thick with the immense amount tension between us. Both of us, knew that this was our first actually awkward silence.

I didn’t bother to break it. I couldn’t think of anything that I could say, that would make this situation better. Of course, I could have said yes, but I still wasn’t quite sure, about my answer.

After a few more moments of silence, Justin finally opened his eyes. I set my gaze, back on the floor before my gaze, could lock with his. I knew that I was hurting Justin, but I didn’t want to see it. The longer I avoided it, the longer I could deny that I was actually hurting him.

Justin sighed once more. “Ally, you do like me right?” he breathed. “You weren’t just saying all of those things, just to tell me what I wanted to hear were you? You weren’t saying that to make me feel better about this situation we have,”

“No, never,” I quickly spoke. I shook my head, showing him how serious I was, yet continued to avoid his gaze.

“I never lie about how I feel. I might avoid telling you how I feel, but I’m not going to lie about it. I meant everything that I said to you…including the fact that I don’t know,”

Justin gently, placed his index finger under my chin causing me to meet his gaze. His eyes bore into mine, easily showing me all of his emotions.

There were so many of them, that I didn’t know what to think. I could see determination, as well as pain and admiration. There were so many things running through his head that I only became more confused about what to do.

Justin slowly licked his lips, as he continued to stare at me. “Look Natalie, I’m not going to make you say yes. I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t want to do, no matter how much I want you to say yes,”

“But you need to know that I’m just as serious about how I feel as you do. If you meant everything that you said then that should be enough for you to say yes, but I’m not going to pressure you. If you say no, I’m okay with it…or at least I can learn how to be okay with it,”

“I just want you to be happy. I want to be the one to make you happy, and if I can do that by letting you go well...then so be it,”

The corners of my lips turned upwards forming an extremely small smile. It was hardly visible, but I knew that Justin could see it, from how close he was to me.

I wasn’t sure why I was smiling. I was feeling a mixture of guilt, and happiness. I felt bad for making Justin feel as if I was going to say no. I felt as if this way my fault because Justin had basically waited around for me.
On the other hand I was cheered up by his words. I was glad that he was actually willing to wait to hear my answer. Honestly I wasn’t going to have him wait, but it was good to hear that he would if he needed to.

“But, Justin I…I haven’t actually…dated someone in a long time. I’m not even sure if I know how to be in a relationship anymore,” I confessed.

If I was going to admit how much I like him, I might as well get a few other things off my chest as well. If we’re going to do this, then we should do this right.

Justin simply smiled and shook his head. “Okay, neither have I, but who cares. I don’t want you, because of your experience, I want you for you. I like you for you,”

I smiled as I looked up at him. “Are you sure this is what you want?” I questioned.

Justin laughed lightly at my words. He dropped his hands from my cheeks, only to lace his fingers with mine. “It’s all I’ve wanted for a while,” he quietly spoke, as he looked down at our intertwined hands.

I licked my lips before nodding my head. I could feel a smile etching its way onto my face. Despite my efforts to fight the smile, the corners of my lips still turned upwards.

Justin eyes went wide as his smile grew wider; suddenly his smile fell until he was smirking. I raised my brow at I looked at him, despite the smile on my face. He was planning something; anytime he smirked he was planning something.

“Say it,” he spoke.

I giggled and shook my head. “You already know my answer,”

He shook his head, before flipping his hair from his eyes. “I don’t care, I want to hear you say it,”

“I’m not saying it,”

“And why not,”

A smirk slowly made its way onto my face. Honestly, I was just teasing Justin, as I always do. I didn’t care if I said it out loud or not. This was just me, being me.

“Because you would enjoy it too much,” I retorted.

“True, but do you know what I would enjoy even more?” he responded. Justin started to lean in as a smirk continued to play against his lips.

Before his lips could make contact with mine I leaned back, so that my head made contact with the wall behind me. I couldn’t hold my hand up to stop him, since they were currently, entwined with Justin’s.

Justin raised his brow out of confusion. I couldn’t help but to giggle at his expression. I didn’t know why I felt the need to giggle, but I did. I was simply happy that I had finally gotten what I have been waiting for, for so long.

“Justin, we’re in the same hallway, as the bathrooms, this isn’t exactly the most romantic place to kiss,” I spoke pointing out the obvious.

Justin looked down the hall in the direction of the men’s bathroom. He quickly, pursed his lips before locking his gaze with mine. A smirk soon danced across his lips once more. I giggled knowing exactly what he was going to do next.

“You didn’t mind a few minutes ago,” he spoke.

I rolled my eyes as I continued to smile. I wasn’t surprised that he would point what happened a few minutes ago. He would try anything to convince me to kiss him again.

“It was a spur of the moment thing a few minutes ago. I was caught up in the moment. Now, I’m actually aware of what’s going on and like a said the bathroom isn’t exactly the most romantic place in the world,”

He flipped his hair and he continued to smile. “Leave it to me to pick the girl who is picking about when to kiss me, to be my girlfriend”

I playfully narrowed my eyes at him. “Leave it to me to say yes, to a guy who wants me to kiss him by a bathroom,”

Suddenly his smile grew wider, as a mischievous glint shone in his eyes. I couldn’t help but to raise my brow at him. He was planning something, or he was going to point something out, just as he always did.

“You know you just said it, right?”

I shook my head as I suppressed a giggle. “And that just made your day didn’t it?”

He licked his lips as he smirked. “Nah,”

I furrowed my brow as I stared at him. He let go of my hand as he placed his hands on my waist. I simply continued to stare at him, with confusion plastered onto my face.

“You saying yes was better,”

This time I couldn’t stop the smile that made its way onto my face. I smile now matched his as we stood there.

I was officially glad that I said yes.