Bitter Sweet Symphony

And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next

~~~~ One Month Later ~~~~

I was sitting at my desk in my office at Madison Square Garden going through the list of concerts and such for the next month on my computer when there was a knock at my door.

I looked up to see my best guy friend, Caleb James Malcom, standing in the doorway staring at me.

“What?”

“Don’t you have an appointment today?”

I looked at the calendar on my desk and silently cursed.

He was right. I had an ob-gyn appointment.

“Damnit you’re right”

“No cussing around my god child”

I just stuck my tongue out at Caleb and glanced at the time. I still had 5 minutes before I had to leave.

“I’ll be ready in five”

With that Caleb waltzed into my office and picked up my coat and came around my desk and turned off my computer.

“Hey!”

“You say five minutes and it’s a half hour later like that”

“I do not”

“Mhmm yes you do. And I was told to make sure that you’re there on time since you skipped your last appointment.”

“I didn’t skip it. I just missed it due to a meeting that I couldn’t get out of”

“Bull shit”

“You shut up”

“Make me”

I thought about it for a minute.

“Nope not gonna happen”

“Wise choice”

“Oh we both know that I would take you if I weren’t in my current position.”

“Yeah yeah yeah I know”

I couldn’t help but laugh at him.

I grabbed my purse off the floor by my desk, threw my phone and iPod into it and stood up.

I was definitely starting to show now. Thankfully between Julianna and Caleb I was able to buy some new outfits. Getting bigger wasn’t so great. It was hard to tell my boss, Roger. He was a little upset at first but he didn’t want to lose me and as long as I kept up the awesome work we would be okay. I would have the month up to my delivery date and a few months after that on paid maternity leave. He even said I could bring the baby in after they were born if I was just going to be in my office. He didn’t have a problem with kids. They just annoyed him sometimes.

I followed Caleb out to his car. He was driving me to my appointment so that I wouldn’t be late. I had kinda skipped my last appointment. Julianna had made it for me and I had still been in denial that I really was pregnant for at least two weeks after I found out. My ob-gyn wasn’t too thrilled with me and neither was Julianna OR Caleb who I kinda had to tell because he was noticing the changes in my body appearance. What I didn’t tell him or anyone else for that matter was who the father is. All I said was that it was an old flame. I wasn’t going to dare say that it was the lead guitarist for Avenged Sevenfold and that we had hooked up in Berlin. Yeah that wouldn’t of gone over well and I really needed this job right now. Roger was kind enough to give me a raise after my review came in from Andrea and everyone else there in Germany. A lot of bands wrote or called in saying how great it was to work with me and that they couldn’t wait to work with me the next time they were in New York City.

This made both me and Roger happy. Of course the best review came from none other than Avenged Sevenfold. I had been expecting this but I wasn’t expecting Brian to write anything. But he did and it was actually nice. He just said that I was very well organized and I didn’t take any crap from him when he was having a bad day. I snorted at this and ignored the weird look Roger had given me. Try a bad month with this guy.

But anyway. I slid into the passenger seat of Caleb’s SUV and just stared out the window. I wasn’t looking forward to this appointment. I didn’t want to have any more proof of whose baby was growing inside of me. I was sure I would get enough of that when once they were born. I still thought about adoption but Julianna was right, I knew after nine months I wouldn’t be able to do it.

I was just silently praying that the baby wouldn’t look like Brian. I was praying so hard for that.

Suddenly the car slammed to a stop and I instinctually grabbed my stomach to cover it. I looked up at Caleb shocked.

He looked pissed.

I looked ahead of us and saw a Mercedes just coming in on our right side. Caleb let the horn blow.

“WHAT THE HELL YOU FUCKING ASS HOLE I’M PREGNANT HERE WANNA MAKE ME HAVE COMPLICATIONS YOU FUCKING ASS HOLE!!!!”

Oh Shit Alina

I sank down in my seat and looked over at Caleb who was just staring at me in shock.

“Nicely said Alina”

“You shut up and drive. If I’m late Julianna will have my head”

Caleb just laughed and continued driving. I made it to my appointment with 10 minutes to spare. Caleb parked and walked me into the building where Julianna stood waiting.

“Well it’s about time”

“Hey I’m 10 minutes early”

“Mhmm”

“Caleb got cut off. Delayed us a bit”

“Hey”

“Sorry Caleb”

“Whatever. Sure you don’t want me to stay Alina?”

I just shook my head.

“Nah it’d be awkward”

“Okay call me and let me know how it goes”

“Will do”

Caleb kissed my forehead, gave Juls a hug and left. Once he was gone I turned to Julianna and we walked into my ob-gyn’s office.

I was called up exactly at my appointment time. After a few minutes of being bitched at by my ob-gyn she was ready for the ultra sound. But she had to give it to me. I was doing everything right so far and the baby was perfectly healthy. The doctor put that cold gooey crap on my stomach and turned on the machine. Julianna grabbed my hand and smiled at me encouragingly.

Suddenly I heard a fast heartbeat fill the room. I looked over at the doctor with a scared look on my face.

“Don’t worry it’s just your babies heartbeat. It’s normal to be that fast.”

“Okay”

I looked at Julianna for reassurance and she just smiled at me and pointed to the monitor.

“Look at your baby Alina”

I slowly turned my head and gasped at the little life that was growing inside of me. I fought back tears has the realization finally hit me full force.

I was pregnant with Brian Elwin Haner Jr.’s baby. I was having THE Synyster Gates baby.

“Wow”

“Yeah it is isn’t it?”

“Look there’s the head and a leg and an arm”

The doctor pointed out everything and I couldn’t help but smile.

That was my baby.

“Can you tell if it’s a boy or a girl?”

My voice was a little scratchy has I spoke. You could tell I was nervous. I was praying that it wasn’t a boy. But if it was I sure as hell was going to teach him manners and how to treat a woman right.

Unlike his father.

“No it’s still a little early I think. Besides your babies not in a good position to tell. It should be easier to tell in your next visit or two.”

“Okay”

“Now since you haven’t seen me in four months I want to see you again in two weeks to make sure everything’s still okay.”

I just shook my head yes.

Julianna and I left shortly thereafter with more pre natal vitamins and three ultrasound photos. One for me, one for Julianna, and one for Caleb.

Julianna drove us back to our apartment in silence. She could tell that everything was hitting me right now. There was no way that I could deny it now.

When we got back to our apartment I just went to my room and sat down on my bed. I just stared at the ultrasound photo with one hand on my stomach.

It wasn’t long before I was curled up on my bed crying with Julianna sitting next to me rubbing my back.

Everything still hurt so much.

~~~~ Two Weeks Later ~~~~

I had taken the day off for my morning ob-gyn appointment. Julianna went with me again and everything was going great. The baby still wasn’t in a good position to tell if it was a boy or a girl and I wasn’t sure if I even wanted to know yet. Maybe I would just wait until the baby was born.

But somehow I knew that just wasn’t going to happen. I would want to know.

I was walking around the apartment reading papers from work and sucking down my fourth slurpee for the day. Thank goodness there was a 7 Eleven right next door. They were beginning to know me there. I was wearing one of Caleb’s overly baggy t-shirts that I had stolen. I was also wearing capri pajama bottoms that had penguins on them. I was wearing socks too. Julianna was running around in sweats, a long sleeve shirt, a hoodie, and socks and slippers. She was freezing but I was hot due to being pregnant and if I was any hotter I was going to flip out so Julianna just sucked it up and wore warmer clothes. It wasn’t too cold this winter which was a blessing to me. But it still had its day. Like today for instance. It was pretty cold outside. I was sitting on the couch watching TV and flipping through a left over babies r us magazine from Christmas time.

Now Christmas had already passes but I didn’t really care too much for it. I had found out about my pregnancy just before then and I wasn’t too thrilled. Plus telling my parents had been oh so joyful, not. At least they were being supportive and didn’t freak out too too much. They even bought me a bunch of toys and such and said that once I knew if it was a boy or girl they would buy me a crib and stroller. I already had one picked out for each. They were marked in the magazine and I was going to register there once I knew the sex. Hopefully my next appointment would be the day I find out.

I was shifting my position on the couch when the doorbell rang. I looked over at Julianna but she was in the bathroom so I stood up and walked over to the door and opened it.

Three people were standing there beaming at me.

My heart sank and I couldn’t help but stare back at them.

“Hey there Alina”

“What’s going on?”

“Surprise!”

Julianna came out of the bathroom and walked up behind me peering under my outstretched arm. She gave out a squeal and ducked under me to give one of them a hug.

I was still to shocked to move. For standing there in my doorway was Zacky, Gena, and Johnny.