Some Say This Can't Be Real.

I rolled over as I began to see the light through my eyelids. I felt more rested than I had ever felt in a while. My eyes fell to Zack who was still asleep. He lay on his back, shirtless with the sheet resting on his stomach. I smiled and scooted closer to him, nesting myself against his side and draping my arm across his chest. I hadn't intended on waking him, but he stirred next to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulder, pulling me close. “I think the excitement was a bit too much for you last night,” he murmured.

“You think?”

“I know. You were snoring when I came back from my shower last night. I never hear you snore.”

I turned my head to look at him. “For real?”

“Yep. You were completely dead to the world. I even dove into bed and you didn't even budge.”

“For real?” I asked again.

“Not really,” he laughed. “I didn't dive into bed, but you were dead to the world.”

“I guess it was too much for me,” I let out a chuckle of embarrassment as I rested my head back down.

“It happens. It got to us all because of how emotional the show was. You were amazing last night though.”

I blushed. “Thanks, babe. It was emotional, especially when you played 'So Far Away.' I swear I saw Matt crying a little bit.”

“I'm sure he was, just don't call him out on it,” he laughed. “He tries to keep that kind of stuff to himself.”

“I don't blame him. Was he like that when Jimmy passed away?”

“Pretty much. The only person that's seen him truly broken down Is Val. It was hard on all of us, and no matter how manly we are, the rest of us couldn't help but just cry in front of each other for days.”

“You cried in front of me,” I said with a slightly joking tone. “But it's all understandable. Anyways...” I trailed off, wanting to change the subject. “...are you getting up or going back to sleep?”

Zack turned to look at the clock. “Umm, I'm gonna try to sleep for a bit more. You're more than welcome to stay here or go do whatever you wanna do.”

I grinned. “Well I had better things in mind, but I wouldn't wanna disturb your precious sleep.” I rolled over and started to climb out of bed.

“Oh no you don't,” he said, grabbing me around the waist, causing me to squeal as he pulled me back into bed. “You don't have to worry about disturbing my sleep. Whatcha got on your mind?” He asked as he leaned against my back, pressing his lips to my neck in a single kiss.

“That's for me to know and you to find out,” I said with a snicker as I tried to pull from his grip.

Zack laughed as he held on tighter. “You're not going anywhere until you tell me what's going on in that head of yours right now.”

“Well I was going to let you find out if you let me go,” I laughed. He unwrapped his arms and I took the moment to jump out of bed. “You blew your chance though, later,” I giggled as I ran out of the room.

He shouted something as he also jumped out of bed and ran after me. He caught me in the kitchen, pinning me against the counter. “I believe I have my chance back,” he murmured as his lips brushed my neck again.

I giggled softly as I let my lips touch his. “Only because I love you too much,” I whispered after our lips parted. The two of us kissed heatedly right there in the kitchen. His hands on my butt didn't surprise me, it was when he moved them down a bit and lifted me to sit on the counter that caught me off guard. I let out a small yell of surprise that was cut off by his lips crashing against mine. “You must know how to read minds,” I whispered again, absently wrapping my legs around his hips and pulling him closer to me.

His lips brushed my neck again before softly attaching to the spot behind my ear. “I just know when you're in the mood. I can see it in your eyes and the way you smile,” he whispered, sending a chill through my body. I laughed softly as I threaded my fingers in his hair, pulling to try and meet his lips again, but he wouldn't allow them to leave my neck. I threw my head back with a soft groan as his kisses traced my neck to my collarbone.

Things quickly grew heated, and I already wanted him. I wanted to feel him like I had felt him once before. “Baby, can we take this to the bedroom now?” I asked in a breathless whisper as I felt the heat pulsating to the core of my body.

He snickered, but didn't say anything as he managed to lift me from the counter just enough to slide my pants off. “Why not just stay right here?” he whispered, brushing his thumb against my clit. I gasped lightly, this time throwing my head against his shoulder as I tried to push his shorts down. I didn't argue because I had suddenly become too far into the moment to move. “Babe, the shorts will come off if you unlock the death grip you have around my waist,” he said with a laugh. “As well as your pants.”

I unwrapped my legs from his waist and he didn't hesitate to let my pants and underwear fall to the floor, as well as his own shorts. “Hmm, somebody's all set to go it looks like,” I snickered.

“You know? You already have me wondering if I tainted your innocence,” he whispered, pushing his hands up my shirt, cupping my breasts in his hands for a moment before pulling my top off.

“A little bit. Is that a bad thing?” I wrapped my fingers around his freed erection and stroked him gently.

“Nope. I just don't want you feeling too pressured or anything.”

“Baby, don't worry. I'll tell you if I'm ever uncomfortable. This is how I figure myself out when it comes to sex, and right now, I want you.” I laced my fingers in his hair again and crashed our lips together while my other hand continued to stroke him. I wrapped my legs around his hips again and we both shifted so he could ease himself into me. I gasped at the slight discomfort, but it soon went away as he thrust into me slowly. Both of us became oblivious that we were on his kitchen counter. All that was in my mind was how we were together, and how amazing these moments were. We were both soon breathless, and I buried my face into his shoulder. “God, Zacky, I love you so much,” I whispered.

“I love you too, sweetheart,” he replied before he stopped, gently cupping my face in his hands. “Do you trust me baby?”

I became instantly nervous after he asked the question, but I always knew he wouldn't try to hurt me intentionally. “Yeah.”

He eased my body off the counter and motioned for me to turn around. He planted a few kisses at the nape of my neck before gently pushing me to lean over the counter. I groaned as he entered me from behind. He set a faster pace and within minutes I could feel the familiar aching feeling forming in the pit of my stomach. I groaned with each thrust as the feeling grew stronger. I knew it wasn't going to be much longer. His hands held my hips tightly, going as deep as he could with each thrust. I could hear his grunts mixed with my moans, and the moment turned to a blur as both of us climaxed at the same time. He snapped me back into reality by pressing a few more kisses against my shoulder blade. “I love you, baby,” he whispered.

I leaned against the counter catching my breath. “I love you too,” I said as I turned in his arms and hugged him. A few minutes later I picked up my clothes from the floor and got dressed. “I'll be in the shower while you...umm...clean the counter,” I chuckled as I walked away. I sat in his room for a moment, taking the moment in. Wondering where my innocence really had gone. I laughed to myself, knowing that not too long ago I was completely afraid to even fool around, but Zack really had helped me conquer the fears and the discomfort.

“I thought you were taking a shower?” Zack's voice startled me. I turned to him, still smiling. “What's with you, babe?” he asked, wearing a smug grin as he sat next to me. “I know I can't be that great.”

I laughed as I leaned against him. “Just got lost in thought, and I guess lost in the moment.”

“How so?”

“A few months ago I was scared to do any of this, and now I feel like I'm over everything. I'm not afraid of sex like I used to be. You helped me get over it.”

He smiled, touching his lips to my bare shoulder. “I just tried to make it comfortable for you. It was all on you to either go with it or not.”

I nodded and was about to shower, not even catching the words that passed my lips next. “Zacky, do you think we're gonna have kids one day?” His eyes went wide, and then mine did when I realized what I had said.

“Umm......” His eyes remained wide, his body unable to move.

I cupped a hand over my mouth. “Shit. I...wow...” I stammered. “I'm so sorry, baby.” Embarrassed, I grabbed the armful of clothes that were on the bed and headed straight for the bathroom. As I showered, I tried to figure out how the words came from me without even thinking about it. Of course I had planned on talking to him about it, but not for a while. I tried to take as long as I could to shower, and get ready for the day. I was afraid to face Zack at the moment because I was embarrassed. I could've dragged this moment on all I wanted, but I knew that I had to talk to him about it now. He was in the living room, lounged on the couch, entranced with the TV, and without word, I flopped down next to him.

“I think we may need to have a chat,” Zack murmured next to me.

“Umm, yeah. I'm sorry about that. It was something I planned on bringing up further into our relationship.” I turned to him, but he wouldn't look away from the TV. I was afraid that I had upset him.

“I want kids, I do, but it's not quite the right time. With the new album, both of us touring, it's just a busy time for us.”

“Yeah, I know that. I just spent too much time around Leana, and it just fascinated me. But yeah, as I said, I hadn't planned on even mentioning this for a while, and it just slipped out.”

He finally turned towards me. “It's okay, Lis.” His arms wrapped around me. “It'll happen. We both love each other, and when we're both ready, then we'll start trying.”

I smiled as I snuggled close to him. “Deal.”