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Lucas has been trying to call me multiple times every day since he cheated on me. I wanted to disconnect the phone but Mother wouldn’t let me. She just promised me that she would answer it, and if it was him, hang up.

I wanted her to tell him that I hate him and to f*ck off but she knows I don’t hate him.
I don’t. I love him. I wish I didn’t, so this wouldn’t hurt so much, but I do.

I still haven’t been back to school. I don’t want to see him or Sammy or Dustin and Mother agrees that I need some time off.

Father just says that I’m being a p*ssy and that I should have defended myself “like a man”.
I wonder what he’d say if he knew the real reason why I wasn’t going to school was that my boyfriend cheated on me with one of his best friends.

Jake has been amazing. He’s been coming over almost every day after school and telling me what’s been going on. He says that Lucas is depressed and so sorry for what he’s done and is missing me, but I’m not sure I believe him. He’s probably just trying to make me feel better. It’s nice that he’s trying but it isn’t working.

On the plus side of all of this, I’ve lost 2 more kilograms in the last few days. I'm under 50 again. I guess heartbreak does have some perks. Lucas is going to wish he never hurt me when I’m skinny and hot.