Passion

My legs are dangling off the edge
The bottom of a bottle is my only friend
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm
Gone, gone, gone, gone

My legs are dangling off the edge
A stomach full of pills didn't work again
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm
Gone, gone, gone, gone

Gone to far yea I'm gone again
It's gone on to long tell you how it ends
I'm sitting on the edge with my two best friends
Ones a bottle of pills and ones a bottle of gin.

“Happy Thursday!” I yelled out when I woke up. I turned off Bulled by Hollywood Undead then got changed. I walked down stairs and surprised to see my dad.

“Hey daddy” I smiled at him

“Hey pumpkin” He returned the smile

“Uh not to be rude or anything, but what are you still doing home?” I asked

“Well I wanted to take my daughter to school today, is that such a crime?”

“No not at all! I just missed you” I gave him a hug.

“Shall we leave?”

“We shall” We both climbed into his car, and left for the school

“So what’s new with you?” He asked

“Were to start? Uh I made the varsity baseball team, I made some new friends, and I have a 4.0 GPA” I smiled

“That’s all?”

“Yep”

“Well that’s good” We pulled into the parking lot, I gave him a kiss on the head and I left. I ran right into Erin.

“Hey hot stuff watch where you goin’ will ya?” I joked with her

“Oh I’m sorry” She mumbled, she looked up and saw me and her frowned turned into a huge grin

“CAM!!!!!” She jumped on me

I chuckled “Well hello to you”

“So how was your date?”

“I’ll tell you at lunch, I’m kind of in a hurry” I turned to walk away “Oh! And I have necklace and your purse” I smiled and walked into my first period. I took my seat by Carter.

“Hey Carter” I smiled; he just gave me a half-hearted smile, pretty much saying ‘fuck off’ in my eyes. “Yea love you too!” I pinched his check and he smiled, no one can stay mad at me. I sat back in my seat, maybe today wasn’t going to be as bad as I thought.

***

Lunch finally rolled around and we were all sitting around the table laughing.

“So Cam how was your date?” Erin asked while moving her eyebrows up and down her face suggestively.

“It was so much fun” I gushed

“Really?” Asked Zoë

“Yep”

“So did he take you to a nice dinner?” Brandon asked

“Nope, we got take-out, then he drove us to the park down town and we sat on the hood of his car, and we looked at the stars and talked” When I finished telling them about the date I was blushing.

“Awe, sounds like something from the movies” Erin commented

“Yea the horror movies, all you were missing is the part were the serial killer came out of the woods and hacked you to pieces.” Carter remarked, are entire table busted into uncontrollable laughter.

“So did he kiss you?” Zoë asked leaning over the table, I blushed but didn’t say anything.

“He so did!” Erin yelled, I blushed even harder

“So that movie in Spanish? Awesome right?” I asked

“No changing the subject!” Brandon yelled

“Alright! Alright!” I gave in “We kissed, Happy?”

“YES!” Erin and Zoë yelled. But of course our happy moments only last for some time, Heather started walking towards us.

“Hey loners” She smiled as she walked up to where we sitting

“What ever could we have done, to have you grace us with your presents?” I asked

“Well a little birdie told me you went out with a hot sophomore from a rival school.”

“I already don’t like this birdie” I told her smiling

“Yea well go die in a hole”

“I would but everyone wants too see my beautiful face, unlike yours. So go do everyone a favor and buy a paper bag. I’m even sure your parents would appreciate it” This seem to struck a nerve with her

“OH YEA?! ATLEAST I DIDN’T TRY TO KILL MYSELF!” she screamed

“I didn’t?” I asked her confused; from the corner of my eye I could see Erin go pale.

“Yea will your little friend Erin tried too, to bad daddy dearest found her before she could do it, I would have been so happy if he didn’t” she sneered, Erin got up and ran from the table, I could see the smug look on Heathers face as everyone started staring at Erin running away. Everything started slowing down around me, the next thing I know I’m on top of Heather trying to beat the shit out of her. That was a low blow to her own sister. Carter finally got me off of Heather; she looked like shit with blood running down her face.

“Calm down, Cam”

“I’m Calm” I reassured him, the second he let go of me I was on Heather again. This time both Carter and Brandon got me off of Heather.

“Cam!”

“LET ME THE FUCK GO! IM GOING TO KICK HER ASS!” I screamed

“Look, I know you want to kill her, we all do. But right now your friend needs you.” This made me stop screaming and I straighten my shirt. I looked at Heather, and so badly did I want to kick her again, for the crap she put everyone threw. But Carter was right; I had a friend that needed me right now. I ran outside to see Erin slumped against the wall crying. I ran over to her and sat next to her letting her cry on my shoulder. After a few minutes of silence Erin finally spoke up

“A gay baby named Mark was just born”

“Huh?”

“After every 9 minutes of awkward silence, a gay baby is born” We both started laughing at Erin’s randomness

“Is it true?” I asked after we both finished laughing, Erin sighed but none the less nodded her head.

“Why?”

“My sister” She sneered

“What did that bitch do now” I asked her

“Last year, everyday I would come home and her and her Barbie’s would make fun of me, telling me I should just go kill myself. No one wanted to be my friends because she would make there lives hell. She kept telling me the worst things like: “Your fat!” “You have no friends!” “No one will love you” and my favorite “You’re a waste of space” And after awhile you start to believe these words that are yelled at you over and over. And one day I couldn’t take it anymore, I tried hanging my self. But thank god I was so stupid and didn’t realize my dad got home early that day. He found me, and took me to the nearest hospital. I survived obviously, but I had to go threw months of therapy. Then you came along, you did what you wanted to do and didn’t give a shit what anyone said, I asked Carter to help me get to know you. I was afraid when Heather started to pick on you, you wouldn’t want to be friends with me, but you still did, and I can only thank you for being my friend.” She smiled and by that point I was crying with her

“Why did she do that do you?” I asked in-between my sobs

“I don’t know for sure, but I think it has to do with my parents liking me better than her. My parents always treated my better than her, why? I’m not sure. I think it has to do with our personalities. They hated how fake Heather always was, her fake smile, her fake face, her fake tan, and her fake personality. I always was 100 percent original. And my parents loved me for that, I was the apple of there eyes. Heather wanted me out of the picture so she could be the ‘good’ child in there eyes.”

I was shocked to hear all of this; I knew Heather was a major bitch. But trying to get your own flesh-and-blood killed? That just brought this little feud of ours to a whole new level; she wasn’t going to like the new Cam. I helped Erin to her feet.

“So what happed when I left?” Erin asked

“Oh nothing much, though your sister might need to buy a new nose” I smiled at her and she just laughed

“Oh good lord” Was all she said.

***

So some big mouth happened to tell the coaches what went down in the cafeteria today, so right now I’m on my 43 lap around the field, I had 50 to do. I almost collapsed after my 27th lap, right now I feel like I’m about to die.

“Pick it up Henderson!” Coach yelled, oh how badly I wanted to punch that mother-fucker. I managed out a barley heard ‘yes sir’ and tried to run faster, but failed miserably and I tripped. I couldn’t get back up, so I just laid there. I heard foot steps running towards me.

“You alright princess?” I heard Derek ask

“Peachy”

“Your right hooks are pretty sweet” He grinned

“If coach heard you encouraging me to fight, he would make you run 50 laps with me”

“DAMN! 50?” He asked

“Yea 50.” I said as he helped me to my feet

“What lap are you on?”

“43”

“DAMN!” He yelled even louder “Look I’ll finish the last 7 for you.” He smiled; I almost kissed him, almost.

“Oh god! I fucking love you!” I told him, he just kept smiling and ran the 7 laps. When he finished he walked up to me.

“Now you own me” Great, just great I owe the devil So much for a 'not so bad' day