Soulmates

Sierra's POV

I couldn't control the tears that flew freely out of the corners of my eyes . Brian was leaning against the wall , kissing and f*cking his ex - wife . I'd come out just to see if he was okay , or even in order to try and fix things between us . But I was wrong . The scene in front of me proved that Brian was probably playing with me this whole time .

I watched as he moved his head and stared at me , his eyes widening before he looked at the woman in his arms once again . I couldn't stay there anymore , though . I had to leave . I didn't even want to be in the bar anymore , so I simply left , texting Jason that I was going back to the bus . Thank God the bar was in walking distance .

I walked fast , almost too fast . I hadn't stopped crying , and I couldn't hear anything that was going on around me . It was like the whole world was on mute . All I could see was Brian f*cking that woman , only hours after he'd claimed his love to me . He was a liar , a f*cking worthless individual . He never cared for me ...

After some minutes I finally reached the bus , I sighed . And decided to wipe all the tears off my face . That was when I heard a voice calling my name . I widened my eyes as the voice kept on screaming my name , something that caused me to identify it ...

'' SIERRA ... What the HELL ? '' I heard Brian shouting desperately , and I turned around , looking at him with widened eyes ...

'' Really , you're the one who gets to ask THAT ? '' I snapped , but Brian didn't pay much attention to it . He was struggling to breathe , he was sweating and coughing like crazy ...

'' I .. I've been CALLING your name ever since you turned to leave ... I followed you ALL the way here ... I've been running after you like a loony for all this time , and you wouldn't EVEN bother to turn around and say something ? '' Brian said , and I simply rolled my eyes ...

'' Tell you WHAT , exactly ? Good job f*cking your wife ? '' I snapped at him , and now I could see the hurt in his eyes . But I didn't care right then , I wanted him to suffer for what he'd done to me ...

'' Sierra , I - '' he tried saying , but I wouldn't let him say a word ...

'' Really , Brian , WHY did you come ? To explain to me all the details ? WHY ? To let me know how good it felt f*cking her ? '' I said , and now he stood there , his eyes casted down the ground ...

'' Now , you look at me now ... Look at me and tell me how it felt ! '' I said and grabbed his head , forcing his eyes to meet mine . I could see he was somehow close to tears , but I simply couldn't find it in my heart to care about that . So I kept him there , and smirked at him ...

'' I ... I bet it felt good ... I mean , you probably felt even better , somehow knowing I was watching ... It made you feel like a man , huh ? Didn't it ? '' I said venomously , and he tried shaking his head , but I held my grip .

'' B-ut guess what ... Guess f*cking what ... I'm glad it made you feel that way ... I'm just too excited ... '' I smirked , and let go of him . Brian furrowed his eyebrows , but still I kept on smirking as I went closer to him , up to the point where our noses practically touched ...

'' You are probably wondering why , huh ? Standing here , in front of me , looking at me with those sad , brown eyes ... Thought you'd come and see me cry for you ? '' I said , and Brian shook his head ....

'' I - I n-ever ... Never want to see you cry ... '' he said quietly , and I snorted ...

'' That's funny ... Because it seems you are always the main source of my tears ... '' I said bitterly , and he looked down , breathing slowly ...

'' I swear , Sierra ... I h- '' he tried saying again , but I let out a small laugh ...

'' Let me guess ... You '' hate '' yourself for doing this to me , but somehow there is an excuse that will make you look like the innocent one here , right ? That's how it always goes ... Or better yet , you ' ll choose to blame me for everything ... Right ? Like that afternoon ? Then snap at me , but then regret it too f*cking much and start trying to apologize again ... Of- '' I started saying , but Brian took hold of my hands and pressed me against the bus ...

'' Sierra ... Why a-re you being like this ? '' he asked , and though his grip on me was tight , I could tell just by his eyes that he was about to break down . I felt my heart aching at that sight , but I wouldn't let him win this . I'd rather hurt him , as much as he'd hurt me , and I wouldn't stop at nothing to do just that . So , I slowly raised my eyes , and faked a pout ...

'' Ohhhh , now ... Please don't try to break my arms ... Like that last time . I have a show to play tomorrow ... '' I spat , and I could see that my words were killing him inside . He instantly left my arms , but move his body from its position ...

'' Y-ou know I'm sorry ab-out that ... '' he said weakly , but I shook my head ...

'' Like you are sorry about what happened tonight ? Sometimes , Brian , sorry just ISN'T enough ... You can't expect it to fix everything .... '' I said , before I raised my head , glaring at him ...

'' But never mind ... I was probably just a game to you anyways ... Hope you had fun ! '' I said bitterly , and Brian bit his lip ...

'' Don't do that , Sierra .... Y-ou know it's not true ... '' he pleaded , but I kept my ground ...

'' Really , now ? Then why the f* - Well , as I said before , never mind ... You don't have to explain yourself to me ... You don't have to say anything to me ... '' I said , and he brought his hands to his face , wiping some tears before looking towards the sky and sighing .

'' I - I NEVER lied to you ... Never ... '' he said , and I snorted ...

'' Yeah right ... Br - '' I tried saying , but now it was his turn to cut me off ...

'' I never LIED to you , Sierra .... You know that I'd never do that ... You are just the first girl in my f*cking life that feels too precious for me to lose ... I've done all those things , JUST to make sure you stay ... Just in order make you understand how much you mean to me ! And I'm not just saying things ... You KNOW that you me- '' he said , but I wouldn't let him continue ....

'' Then why did you walk away ? Why did you refuse to stay by my side ? Why did you abandon us ? '' I said desperately , and that seemed to shut Brian up . He simply looked down the ground once again ...

'' I - I don't .... '' he mumbled , and I shook my head ...

'' Yeap , just what I thought ... Brian , just leave ... '' I said as I moved and unlocked the door to our bus . Of course , Brian followed me back in ...

'' No ... I'm not leaving until you hear me out ... Until you hear the whole situation , exactly the way it f*cking happened ... '' he said strongly , and I sighed , my back turned to him ...

'' Maybe I don't f*cking want to hear it ... '' I said bitterly , and went towards the kitchen . I leaned against the counter for some minutes , and then moved to open the fridge , desperately searching for something to drink , knowing that the whole time , Brian was right there ...

'' You need to hear it though ... You must ! And then ... '' I heard him saying before I felt him getting closer to me ...

'' And then , if you still want me to go , then I will ... '' he said , and I silently groaned as I met his eyes .

'' I don't want to hear anything from you , Syn ! I don't need this whole thing in my life ... You should f*cking know that ... So please leave ... '' I said , still glaring at him ...

'' No ... '' was the only thing that left his mouth , and I felt myself getting even more frustrated ...

'' I said go away ... Your wife , I bet , is waiting for you back there ... '' I muttered , and still Brian didn't move an inch from where he was ...

'' I f*cking promised you Sierra ... I promised I won't let go ... And I f*cking meant it . So don't tell me to give up on us ... I'm ... I-'m not that strong ...'' he said strongly , but his voice still held a scent of sadness ...

Alright , that's it

I grabbed the kitchen's knife , and held it firmly in my hands . Brian's eyes widened slightly , and I sighed ...

'' Brian , leave ... If you don't ... I'll f*cking force you to .... '' I said , and raised the knife , holding it out right across Brian ...

'' So , what are you going to do ? Kill me ? Go ahead ... '' he said , and started walking closer to me , and closer to the blade . I shrieked , I never thought he'd react that way ...

'' What ? Don't be scared baby , I won't move at all ! It'll be easy ... I'll even f*cking leave my prints on the knife , so you can call it a suicide or something ... Just stab me , right here ... '' he said quietly , and moved even closer , so that his body was pushing against the blade ...

'' C'mmon , do it ... I don't care about me anymore , Sierra ... I really don't ... And I'm not afraid or sorry ... I'm asking you to do it ... Show me how much you hate me , how you meant every single word you said ... Do it , baby ... '' he said , and I screamed as the blade grazed his chest as he pushed it even harder against the blade ...