The "You're Not Fat" Campaign

I am curled up under my blankets, staring at the screen of my laptop.

"Please log on please log on please log on," I whisper over and over and over again. I need to talk to her.

I don't know her real name, just her username.

wannabeaskinnybetchxox.

She is everything that I'm not - strong and dedicated and sneaky and brave.

wannabeaskinnybetchxox.

I refresh the screen. Refresh it again.

There she is.

wannabeaskinnybetchxox.

I click on her profile. There she is.

A little message box pops up.

wannabeaskinnybetchxox said: aaaaay fatass hows it goin xox

I suck in my breath.

Then I place my fingers on the keys and type.

you said: hey wannabe its goin ok u?

It takes her a minute to respond.

wannabeaskinnybetchxox said: in the midle of a 2week fast beeyatch eatin nothin but coffee cigs an sugafree gummm xox

you said: ive been thinking about doing one of those how is it going?

wannabeaskinnybetchxox said: 2 good!! i love this its awesome as i havent eaten in 6 days an ive never felt better!! altho i almost blackd out during math ystrdy but tbh who gives a damn lol not me bby skinny or dead! xox

you said: that sounds fab u think i should try?

wannabeaskinnybetchxox said: DO IIIIIITTTTT xox

wannabeaskinnybetchxox said: an post piccsssss b4 an after are totes thinspiring beeyatch!xox

you said: thi gap here i come NO MORE FATTTTT

wannabeaskinnybetchxox said: ayyy gurl thas wassuppp ;P xox

I hear footsteps padding down the hall to my room. It's very late and if Mom or Dad find me on my computer they'll kill me.

you said: ahh shit gtg soz rentals byeee

I slam my computer shut and flop onto my bed. Mom opens the door and looks in on me. She closes the door again and goes to the bathroom. I lie on my back, staring at the ceiling.

A fast sounds good.

Maybe not two weeks. I have to work up to that.

I'll start with just one week.

No binging. No purging. No food except for celery, coffee, and green tea with Splenda.

I wanna be a skinny bitch xox.