Breathe

“Lolita…” Ricky said as he got to my bunk,
“What Ricky?” I asked
“Chris was going to tell you later on but he thought you wouldn’t even care since you love him so much” Ricky said as he slipped into my bunk with me
“It feels like he’s just using me Rick, I don’t want that” I whispered cuddling into Ricky
“He would never do that”
“People change, including vampires. Vampires are very well known to do that kind of thing”
“But Chris isn’t like that” Ricky defended Chris.
“Leave” I said pointing Ricky to leave
“Not until I explain” Ricky said
“I don’t care, just leave” I said again
“No”
Yes, now to do it before I make you leave” I warned him
“Do it then” and as soon as Ricky said that I pushed him out of my bunk and landed on the ground.
“Talk to me whenever you feel like it then Lolita” I heard Ricky say then left me alone. I laid in my bunk for a while then started to think, maybe I could just leave. I could find a house but I have no job or money so what do I do? Screw this, I’m still leaving. I thought to myself as I hopped out of my bunk, I started to pack everything I had on the bus in a spear suitcase that was on the ground. I didn’t know that someone was still on the bus until I heard footsteps; I looked over my shoulder and saw Allie walking my way.

“What are you doing?” she asked
“I’m leaving” I said bluntly
“But why?” Allie asked
“Because I’m sick of all this shit” I said packing even more things into the suitcase
“But you have no place to go or even money” Allie said
“I don’t care if I even have to live on the streets for a while until I get money, all I just want to do is just leave” I said
“Fine, I won’t stop you but I’m not going to let you live on the streets. Ryan and myself have a spear room in our house and you can live there until you have enough money to support you” Allie said
“You don’t have to do that” I said as I zipped up the suitcase
“I know I don’t exactly have to do that but I want to do that, you are my friend and I love you” Allie said giving me a hug
“Thank you” I whispered looking down trying to fight off the tears.
“Are you going to tell the guys or what?” Allie asked
“I don’t want to tell them face to face since I know they would try to talk me out of it” I explained,
“Maybe just write them a letter to let them know everything, I can leave with you” Allie said
“Alright” I said as I grabbed some paper and a pen and write them a letter.

Dear Motionless In White boys,
Firstly I am so sorry that I am leaving. I have realised that the vampire life isn’t for me and I just want to get away from everything, don’t blame yourselves for this because it isn’t your fault, I’m mostly saying this to Ricky and Chris.
Secondly, I’m going to be away and living somewhere you guys don’t know where I’ll be. Please don’t try to contact me because I’m going to be changing my number and I don’t really want to speak to anyone for a while, if I want to talk to you guys I will ring you.
Thirdly, Chris I will always love you. You are the first guy that I have been in love with and always be that guy that I will never stop loving, you are my partner but please promise me you will find someone else.
You guys will always be my favourites and I hope the best for the future.
Love always,
Lolita xo

I finished the quick letter to the guys and put it on the kitchen bench, Allie wrote a quick letter to Ryan.

Dear Ryan,
I’m going to be with Lolita for a little while but I will be back as soon as possible. I don’t want Lolita to do anything stupid so I’m going to be looking out for her, I will keep in contact with her but I don’t you guys to try to find me or Lolita just yet and also DO NOT get Meaghan to try and find us.
Love you forever,
Allie xo

And she done the same thing as me and quickly grabbed some of her stuff and put it in her suitcase, zapped it up and called for a taxi to get us to drive us to the airport. When the taxi got here we put everything in the trunk of the car and sat in the backseat, we were both staring at the home we had for the many weeks.

“Goodbye Christopher Thomas Cerulli” I whispered to myself as we left.