I'll Carry You Home Tonight
Chapter 13
As Ambers bump began to blossom, she began to fall on a downward spiral spending most of her time at the cemetery and shutting her self away in the bedroom only coming out to eat every so often.
The house seemed to be consumed by an odd grief, both of my parents supporting Amber my mother and I attending midwife appointments and trying to show her that she had nothing to fear. My father converted the en suite in my room in to a gorgeous nursery she had nothing to worry about, everything was ready for our new arrival.
I walked in to the music class room and sat down next to Nate who was uncharacteristically quiet
“Hey? You okay?”
“Just dandy!”
“What’s up?”
“A girl I slept with a while ago is pregnant I could be the father”
I laughed slightly
“I’m going to be a daddy too”
I beamed at him; he looked at me still looking down trodden
“I don’t even know if I’m ready for this, I don’t even know if the baby is mine”
I sighed loudly
“Come to mine later okay we’ll order a pizza and watch some movies for a while”
He nodded and put his head down on the desk crying slightly, I felt bad for him but after I warned him several times about protection he hadn’t listened and now it was too late for him to take everything back.
The day dragged past slowly until we finally found our selves walking up the drive from the car, I let us in and walked straight through to the kitchen where Rachel and my parents where sitting talking between themselves. They all turned to look at me and Nate as an awkwardness fell over the room.
“What?”
“Jack you need to speak to Amber”
My mothers voice was thick and laced with sadness
“Why what’s wrong?”
Worry scratched at my insides painfully
“She’s thinking of adoption”
Nate looked over at me confused and I sighed before making my way upstairs Nate in tow I pushed the bedroom door open, Amber was sleeping peacefully on the bed her stomach swollen with the pregnancy.
I silently sat on the bed next to her and stroked her hair off of her face
“Amber? Baby you gonna wake up?”
Her eyes fluttered open and scanned the room widening at the sight of Nate
“What’s He doing here Jack? WHY IS HE HERE?”
“He’s my best friend Amber? What’s wrong what’s happened?”
Nate stepped forward and walked towards us angrily
“I’ll tell you what’s happening! That Little slut could be carrying my baby! She was a drunk fuck! She would sleep with anything if you buy her enough vodka!”
“Shut the fuck up! How many girls have you slept with?”
I interjected before the argument could escalate any further
“Just stop! Both of you! Nate get out now just leave I won’t let you talk to her like that especially if its your child shes carrying! God help you if its mine!”
“don’t worry I couldn’t stand to be around that whore for much longer anyway!”
He stormed out of the room shortly followed by a loud slam from the front door, I looked over to Amber who was now laying with her back to me cradling her bump, I lay next to her and pulled her in to my chest as she began to sob quietly
“I’m so sorry jack, I wanted to tell you, I just didn’t know how or when”
“It’s fine Baby I don’t care we are going to raise that child as our own and she is going to be so happy to be here fuck adoption babe we can do this I know we can”
She continued to cry silently until she fell asleep early on in the evening, after a few hours I joined her, slowly drifting as I held her tightly,
“Jack wake up!”
“What?”
I groaned and rolled over, the room was blurry I struggled to focus and in the dim light I could see Amber sat up clutching her stomach
“Shit! Its happening isn’t it!”
“I think so”
“Ohhh fuck!”
I shot out of the bed and dashed sown the hallway banging on Rachels door and swan diving on to my parents bed
“Mum it’s happening Ambers gone in to labour”
My mum came running down the hallway with me as my dad got dressed, she eased Amber off of the bed and helped her down the stairs, I hunted around my room for Amber’s slippers and her hospital bag, Rachel had handfuls of paperwork and my father started up the car, we took the long drive to the hospital and booked her in.
A few hours later Amber was in a hospital gown attached to several drips and inhaling deeply from an oxygen canister she let out the occasional painful groan, after a few hours nurses swarmed the room as Amber began to push I gripped her hand and wiped her head as she let out the occasional anguished yelp between pushes, the nurse encouraged her
“Come on Amber last one”
She pushed and shouted at the same time, for a second the room fell in to a deafening silence and suddenly a shrill cry filled the air, the baby was here, Amber threw her head back in reliefe and began to cry as the nurses wrapped the baby up and placed her gently in to her arms, she smiled down at her and then back up at me,
“What should we name her?”
I stood thinking for a second looking down at the tiny little life form in Ambers arms
“Zilah, Zilah Jackobiah Antonoff”
“It’s beautiful”
I leant down and kissed her head and scooped the baby out of her arms, holding her to my chest and inhaling her sweet new-born scent.
The house seemed to be consumed by an odd grief, both of my parents supporting Amber my mother and I attending midwife appointments and trying to show her that she had nothing to fear. My father converted the en suite in my room in to a gorgeous nursery she had nothing to worry about, everything was ready for our new arrival.
I walked in to the music class room and sat down next to Nate who was uncharacteristically quiet
“Hey? You okay?”
“Just dandy!”
“What’s up?”
“A girl I slept with a while ago is pregnant I could be the father”
I laughed slightly
“I’m going to be a daddy too”
I beamed at him; he looked at me still looking down trodden
“I don’t even know if I’m ready for this, I don’t even know if the baby is mine”
I sighed loudly
“Come to mine later okay we’ll order a pizza and watch some movies for a while”
He nodded and put his head down on the desk crying slightly, I felt bad for him but after I warned him several times about protection he hadn’t listened and now it was too late for him to take everything back.
The day dragged past slowly until we finally found our selves walking up the drive from the car, I let us in and walked straight through to the kitchen where Rachel and my parents where sitting talking between themselves. They all turned to look at me and Nate as an awkwardness fell over the room.
“What?”
“Jack you need to speak to Amber”
My mothers voice was thick and laced with sadness
“Why what’s wrong?”
Worry scratched at my insides painfully
“She’s thinking of adoption”
Nate looked over at me confused and I sighed before making my way upstairs Nate in tow I pushed the bedroom door open, Amber was sleeping peacefully on the bed her stomach swollen with the pregnancy.
I silently sat on the bed next to her and stroked her hair off of her face
“Amber? Baby you gonna wake up?”
Her eyes fluttered open and scanned the room widening at the sight of Nate
“What’s He doing here Jack? WHY IS HE HERE?”
“He’s my best friend Amber? What’s wrong what’s happened?”
Nate stepped forward and walked towards us angrily
“I’ll tell you what’s happening! That Little slut could be carrying my baby! She was a drunk fuck! She would sleep with anything if you buy her enough vodka!”
“Shut the fuck up! How many girls have you slept with?”
I interjected before the argument could escalate any further
“Just stop! Both of you! Nate get out now just leave I won’t let you talk to her like that especially if its your child shes carrying! God help you if its mine!”
“don’t worry I couldn’t stand to be around that whore for much longer anyway!”
He stormed out of the room shortly followed by a loud slam from the front door, I looked over to Amber who was now laying with her back to me cradling her bump, I lay next to her and pulled her in to my chest as she began to sob quietly
“I’m so sorry jack, I wanted to tell you, I just didn’t know how or when”
“It’s fine Baby I don’t care we are going to raise that child as our own and she is going to be so happy to be here fuck adoption babe we can do this I know we can”
She continued to cry silently until she fell asleep early on in the evening, after a few hours I joined her, slowly drifting as I held her tightly,
“Jack wake up!”
“What?”
I groaned and rolled over, the room was blurry I struggled to focus and in the dim light I could see Amber sat up clutching her stomach
“Shit! Its happening isn’t it!”
“I think so”
“Ohhh fuck!”
I shot out of the bed and dashed sown the hallway banging on Rachels door and swan diving on to my parents bed
“Mum it’s happening Ambers gone in to labour”
My mum came running down the hallway with me as my dad got dressed, she eased Amber off of the bed and helped her down the stairs, I hunted around my room for Amber’s slippers and her hospital bag, Rachel had handfuls of paperwork and my father started up the car, we took the long drive to the hospital and booked her in.
A few hours later Amber was in a hospital gown attached to several drips and inhaling deeply from an oxygen canister she let out the occasional painful groan, after a few hours nurses swarmed the room as Amber began to push I gripped her hand and wiped her head as she let out the occasional anguished yelp between pushes, the nurse encouraged her
“Come on Amber last one”
She pushed and shouted at the same time, for a second the room fell in to a deafening silence and suddenly a shrill cry filled the air, the baby was here, Amber threw her head back in reliefe and began to cry as the nurses wrapped the baby up and placed her gently in to her arms, she smiled down at her and then back up at me,
“What should we name her?”
I stood thinking for a second looking down at the tiny little life form in Ambers arms
“Zilah, Zilah Jackobiah Antonoff”
“It’s beautiful”
I leant down and kissed her head and scooped the baby out of her arms, holding her to my chest and inhaling her sweet new-born scent.