Darling, You'll Be Okay

I woke up at 10am as we were just approaching Boston
I sat up and yawned and looked over at Corey who was still in his iPod like he was 5 hours before
"God you sleep through everything don't you" he said chuckling
"Not my fault I like to sleep" I said while looking out the window
Just then the intercom went on telling us we would be landing
I put my seat belt on and closed my eye leaning on Corey's shoulder
I hated flying
We got off the plane and headed to baggage claim
We then headed to the parking lot where Justin's mom was parked
As we neared the car Justin jumped out and ran towards me
I gave my bag to Corey and ran to justin
He brought me in to a huge hug
"Missed you slut"he said laughing
"Missed you too bitch" I said,
I really did miss him
And had a lot to tell him
We got in the car and headed to his house
We were spending Christmas with the hills which meant I got 3days with my best friend
We got to Justin's house ,which was a big 2 story house with a finished basement and huge upstairs ,
we walked in
Justin's 12 year old brother rian greeted me with a hug
"Hey ri haven't seen you in forever" I said smiling as he ran off the the basement probably to play video games
"Alright guys make yourself a at home I'm ordering pizza in a hour " Joanne said as she sat down in the living room with my mom.
"Lets go upstairs Jess your sleeping in my room" Justin said
We walked down the hall way past the living room and up the stairs to the upstairs
We could already hear Corey and Zach, Justin's older brother , playing video games in zach's room
We went down the hall and to the last door on the right going into his room
It hasn't changed much
Red walls with band posters everywhere
His 3 guitars ,2 electric and 1 acoustic in the corner his bed against the back wall and tv In front of it , dresser across the room an air hockey table that had cloths on it.
"Get over here" he said jumping o his bed and sitting Indian style at the top of it
"One sec Gata call the guys to let them know I'm here" I said walking to the window and taking my phone out of my pocket
I turned it on and dialed mikes
number
After a few rings it went to voice mail
Why is he ignoring me ? I thought as I dialed Vic's number
After one ring he picked up
"Jess!" He said loudly
"Hey vic " I said smiling
"Hey guys shut up I'm on the phone with Jess"! I heard him shout to the boys who were being loud
"How was your flight?"
"It was good I slept the whole way" I said still upset over mike
"What's wrong ?" He said obviously hearing disappointment in my voice
"It's nothing don't worry"
I then heard the phone being moved and vic shouting
" hey Jess!" Jaime said
"Ha hey Jaime "
"Give it back!" I heard vic shout in the background
" I love you guys" I said laughing
"We love you too"! He said
"We'll I Gata go I'm at at the hills house" I said
"Aww okay tell Justin we say hi, and text me love you!" Jaime said handing the phone to vic
"Bye Vic love you"
"Love you too my little Jessica " he said hanging up the phone
I walked over to Justin's bed and climbed on sitting at the end Indian style across from him
"Sorry about that, they say hi by the way"
"It's okay" he said smiling
"Now lets talk " he said being serious
"About?" I said raising an eyebrow
"Everything " he said smiling
We sat there for 2 hours talking about his life and music until we were called for pizza
We ran down and were handed a large box of cheese and pineapple pizza
"You kids have some catching up to do you can eat up there" Joanne said smiling handing me a bottle 12 pack a Pepsi
we ran back upstairs and set the pizza in the middle between us and started to eat
After we finished he pushed the boxes away
"Now enough about me Jess how are you., no lies ."
" terrible" i said
"What?, why? You have the boys?" He said surprised
"I do I love them n honestly they get me through so much but "
He cut me off
" do they know about your depression, self harm and how you attempted suicide?"
I sighed
" yes they know about my depression and yes Jaime saw my cuts n we talke about it all of then do their best to help me not self harm, but I haven't had the right time to tell them about my attempt to suicide , ill tell them , soon"
" Jess you have to when u get home so they watch over you , if I'm not there I need them to watch out for u"
" they do, but yes I will tell them
Don't worry"
"Okay Jess now what's wrong what happened.?"
I sat up and sighed
" I'm getting bullied more than eer I get te shot beaten out of me an idk I just can't handle it" I started to cry
"Get over here" he said and I crawled next to him and snuggled with him
" it's okay Jess u graduate in 5 months it'll be okay" he said rubbing my shoulder
" I love you Justin I miss you you always help me through so much"
I said drifting to sleep
" I love you too you always have me and the guys "
I fell asleep shortly in his arms feeling better but I knew when I got home I'd haw to tell the guys the whole story .