Darling, You'll Be Okay

It was Sunday morning, the day after Christmas and we just landed in San Diego airport
Home sweet home, kinda
We got in a taxi and headed home
I called Justin to let him know I was home and he reminded me to tell the boys, I said I would but I know he sensed in my voice I wasn't going to soon.i hung up the phone and looked outside the window
"I bet those boys missed you" my mom said smiling
" I hope so because I sure missed them there like the brothers I never had" I joked
" hey!" Corey said sadly
" oh I'm just kidding I love you Corey" I said giving him the best hug I could considering we were in the taxi
The taxi got to my house and I jumped out grabbing my bags and throwing them in my room
I ran down the stairs and out the door past Corey and mom who were just getting in the house
" love you!" I shouted as I ran across the street
I knocked on the door and it swung open
"Jess!" Jaime yelled as he hugged me and picked me up bringing me in the house and closing the door with his foot.
"Jaime! I missed you constantly picking me up" I laughed as he set me down and I walked To the living room where vic sat
He jumped up
"Jess I missed you!" He engulfed me in a hug
" missed you too moma vic" I said as he released me and tony now jumped up and hugged me
" missed you" he said softly
"Missed you too turtles" I said
"Where's mike" I asked realizing he was missing
"He went out idk where to, he's been acting weird, did you guys fight?" Vic said sitting down on the couch n I sat next to him
Jaime sat next to me and tony sat across on the chair
"No,he hasn't talked to me since Wednesday , I don't know what's up with him" I looked down at my feet.
"Probably hates me like everyone else" I muttered
" not true! He's just being a dick Jess!" Tony chimed in
I looked up and smiled
We started to watch tv for about two hours . I started to fall asleep when I heard a door slam
Just then mike walked in the door and peeked his head into the living room
" Jess!" He said fairly excited
I got up and hugged him and we kissed
" I love you" he whispered in my ear
" I love you too"
We walked into the living room and sat down
"Hey lets watch a movie, how about mean girls, that's amazing" Jaime said excitedly as he got up and put the movie on before we could answer
I sat next to mike and cuddled into his side and watched the movie
Me and Jaime said all the funny lines
Towards the end of the movie my phone rang, it was Justin
I stepped out of the room ,went upstairs and answered the phone
" hey Justin what do you need ?" I asked curiously because he usually texts before he calls
" Jess did you tell them yet?" He said
I sighed
"Justin I don't want them to think I'm more of a freak and I don't know how to just bring it up in conversation, hey btw did I ever tell you the time I tried to kill myself?" I mocked keeping my voice down so they wouldn't hear
" Jess you have to , so they know your depressions that bad or I know you'll try it again if you feel alone I know you., listen I got to go do it or I will . i love you" he said and then hung up the phone
I sighed and walked down the stairs towards the living room an sat next to mike
"Who was that?" Jaime asked
"Just Justin wondering if I got home okay" I lied we'll kind of , Justin dd call just not for that.
" oh " he said not believing me but turned back to the movie
The movie ended 30 minutes later and Jaimes phone rang
He answered it not bothering to leave because the Movie was off.
"Hey Justin what's up bud?" He said
My heart dropped, he must of tooken their numbers when I was asleep
"There is?"He asked questionly and then looked at me nervously
"Okay okay ill ask, thanks ill talk to you soon" he said and hung up the phone
My heart raced
"Jess Justin said there's something we need to know that your not telling us" he said being serious.
I sighed
This is it I thought
I had to tell them
" guys sit on the couch it's a long story" I sat in the chair across from them and they stared at me
"Please don't hate me or stop talking to me because I'm some freak" I said
" never Jess please tell us"vic said
I took a breath in
This is it now or never they're probably gana be freaked out an never talk to me again I thought
I looked at them and finally said it

" I tried to kill myself last year "