Darling, You'll Be Okay

I looked at their faces turn white
"Jess we knew you were depressed but " vic said clearly surprised
"Guys I want to tell you the whole thing , why I left Boston why I tried to kill myself ok?" I said looking at them
They nodded
This was going to be a log story
I sighed as I started my story
" ok let me start off with the back story
In school i was hated and got beat a lot they all hated me and i started hating myself too.
i started self-harming but kept it a secret from everyone because they'd ruin my life if the school found out
.Me and josh dated sophomore year through junior year n he cheated on me when i caught them makig out he slapped me telling me it was my fault
My dad constantly beat me at home also ad i was driven to the edge
it was Tuesday and I woke up and got ready .
I walked downstairs and my dad came to me . He was upset that I didn't clean up and he smacked me I ran but he grabbed my neck and shoved me to the wall then walked away calling me a stupid bitch"

I saw the boys eyes widen, my story was only beginning

I walked out the door and met up with Justin and we walked to school like norma.as we got there the bell rang .
He hugged me and told me to be careful because I wouldn't see him till lunch because we had no classes together"

I moved in my seat as the boys still looked at me with Hurt eyes
I sighed

The first two classes went with no big events but the third , before lunch, one had my worst enemies
Gen ,josh ,Kylie and Anthony
It was study ad they always tortured me
I sat in tHe back and listens to music when they came in and smirked at me
They sat in the row in front of me
They turned and gave me a note I opened it and my heart sank
It read
"We know your secret "
They found out about my cuts , josh probably told them because I trusted him but I was wrong to.
Not knowing what to do I got up and ran towards the bathroom but then I was pulled behind the lockers Anthony gripped my neck and shoved me to the locker smirking
He looked at me as said" soon enough they will all know " then his fist was in my face until I fell to the ground and he walked away"

I stopped as I choked on the words

"I sat there before lunch ad started to get up when I was grabbed again I tried to struggle but I felt two hands on me
I was pushed to the locker facing Anthony josh Kylie and gen Anthony and Kylie's arms were on me
"Where you going so fast Jess you have an announcement to make" Kylie smeared
I told her to stop but she didn't then Anthony let go of my wrist and Kylie grabbed the one arm and twisted it around my back making me bend over Anthony hit me in y jaw causing me to moan in pain
Josh stood in front of me and titled my chin to face them Kylie's grip not loosening
"Lets see your scars freak" gen said reaching to my hand. I piled away put I was hit again she pulled my sleeve up revealing my cuts that snake all up my arms. she dug her name into a new cut on my wrist I whimpered
"If only it was deeper and we wouldn't have to look at your ugly face anymore" she spat letig my had go
Kylie grabbed the other arm and put it also behind my back
"Lets go Jess time to announce your secret you freak" josh said as I was ring pushed to the cafe tears in my face we got in with people starring josh got on a empty table and soon enough we were all up me struggling as people laughed
"Listen up everyone the freak has a secret"
"No!! " I screamed struggling as josh slugged me causing cheers
My arm was taken and I could see Justin running towards to table a Anthony went down and knocked him down holding him as he screamed stop
My sleeve was rolled up and the cuts were visible people laughed and said things like " she deserves it, if I was her I'd cut too" "ugly freak"
"Josh laughed and yelled the loser is now a emo freak who cuts herself! And threw me off the table I bite up crying running out the door and down the street I ran to my street and went to my room . My dad came in and got upset I skipped
He called me names and then shoved me into the desk hitting me and hitting me then left probably getting drink
I threw my bag and grabbed my blade
I cut but only a few because my wrists were full

My voice trembled and tears started coming the guys also had a few tears Jaimes energetic face was red and filled with sadness

I then took the blade and pressed it hard and went across my vain knowing what I was doing my eyes started to blur and my world was turning black last I saw was Corey coming in and I was out , that's the story

I finished and looked at the guys who looked terrified and sad they were unable to speak I could see they just sat there for a few seconds and I started to cry thinking of what happened that day and thinking of what they thought of me