Darling, You'll Be Okay

I didn't want to wake up the morning of my third week being here so I didn't .
I told my mom I was sick so I was allowed to stay home
I woke up at 10 to 4 messages. 1 for each guy
Mike: hey why aren't you at school are you okay?!
Vic: morning chica you feeling better?
Tony: hey I wanted to see how you were
Jaime:hey I know your at school but at lunch text back n let me know your okay ?
I sighed placing my phone down and went back to sleep I woke up at 5 and didn't care about my messages I opend the desk droit and started to cry as I placed the cold object to my skin and instantly fell a wave of relief but guilt. The words flew in my head
WORTHLESS
Anouther cut
FREAK
Anouther
EMO
anouther one and deeper .
KILL YOURSELf
I sliced hard and then dropped it blood soaking my hand .
I cried harder.
My phone went off and I decided to check it 24 new messgees
Shit
I checked them scrolling
"JEss are you okay?
Jess?
Jess mike said you weren't at school
Jess I know your not sick
Come on we miss you"
Were most of them.
" but one caught my eye
"Jess we need you. If you don't answere We will come n check on you"
I didn't care I locked my door and continued
I sat on my floor knees to my chest one arm warping around then and the other hanging out with the blade in hand and started to sob again and started to fall asleep and again my phone went off
I heard running up the stairs probably Corey and his friend dj.
Then a knock on my door I slid down further on the way burying my head more. It was Corey I knew t Ido was quit he would think I was asleep and leave me alone. I was wrong I heard something like a lock being picked then the door swung open.
"Jess !"
I blurted up pulling my sleeve down n wiped y tears.
"H-h-hey,sorry I was sick and I fell aslee-"
No you didn't dont lie Jaime said grabbed my wrist and examine the deep cuts.
" Jess come on why. We love you."
" I know it's just.- jus-" I felt arms around me vic mike Jaime and tony were around me I was crying
"Sh, it's okay just please never again"
"I can't promise but ill try I said wiping my eyes."
I put the blade in my pocket but Jaime grabbed it out
"No Jess you don't need it anymore"
I sighed " fine but just taking that one won't Leo as I took a small box with 20 blades on my bed .
His eyes grew wide and sat on my bed." Jess how many times have you done this."? " 3 years."
I said
He grabbed the box and said he'd get rid of them. I was upset I needed ten no. No I didn't . But I did . My mind hurt.
"Go home it's late dont worry about me I'm fine."
"Bullshit your staying with us hang on"vic said going to t moms room obviously asking for permission
"Let's go chica he said as he picked me and I grabbed my phone bag ad cloths for tomorrow. I sat in the couch and looked at vic
"Vicky??" I said sweetly
"Jessie??" He smiled
"I'm hungry ,feed me?"
"Sure what do you want?"
Make me a sandwich?"
He laughed and got up returning with a sandwich thanks I said and smiled.
I fell asleep shortly after that and woke up to a pillow in my face
"Wake up but face time for school!" I was wacked again.
I got up and tackled Mikey to the ground.
" I'm coming slut"
I got up and laughed leaving the guest room and into the bathroom.
School I hated school.
I ran into Vic's room and jumped on his bed.
"Vic!!"
He groaned and sat up " what do you need sunshine"
"Do I have to go to school"?
" yes you do it's only your 3rd week get going ill visit on lunch with Jaime n tony and bring you Taco Bell "
"Yay I yelled hugging him and walked out letting him sleep again.
School was going fast I got beat again not as bad. At lunch vic was waiting outside as promised with food I hugged then all and went inside after.
Another week went by and things stayed the same
But whenever I felt like giving in I called Jaime or vic and they helped me
. After school on my fifth
I promised I'd be back in 30 to hang out with the guys
I hugged Mikey and walked to my drive way noticing a strange car.
I walked in and stared at the man. No no
"Jessica"
"Dad..."