Our Faith Will Silence the Doubt

No. Ashley, you love Bre and her only.

You can't let what Chris told me at his house about me liking Andy be true. I don't like him, not like that I don't think.

It's just that I can't look at him. I can't look in his blue eyes without feeling strange. Since he kiss my nose, I've been off.

What if I do like Andrew? Then what Ash? Leave your girl in Cal for some boy I barley know? My eyes wonder the room to see the guys.,

Avoiding contact from Andy. He made me feel more than what I feel for my girlfriend and I was ashamed of that.

"C'mon Ashley. He'll listen to you." Someone said that snapped me out of my train of thoughts. I looked up and I lock contact with a blue eyed boy.

I couldn't help but to smile at him.
Stop it Ashley.

I did want to see why everyone said Andy has an amazing voice, so I wanted to hear it.

"Yeah Andrew. Sing that one song. Um...what was it?...If we stand together we will be unbroken?"

He grabbed his notebook after hopping off his desk.

"Yay! We got him!" CC shouted.

"Shut up C."

"C'mon Andy. You know you can sing. We've all head you. I don't know why you're nervous to because of Ashley."

"I'm not nervous because of Ashley." I snapped back.

"Yeah...of course not."

Why would he be nervous around me? I'm like his friend now so it shouldn't be a problem.

He said it wasn't done but I didn't care. I smiled smiled at him and told him to sing anyways.

Then I saw it, I saw his face turn a shade of red before he quickly dangle his hair to hide it.

Oh no....
Before my thoughts could travel, I'm snapped back by a beautiful voice.

The pitch and his tone of voice make my heart catch up in my throat. I watched him, his face expressions match the lyrics he sung.

I fade out for a few minutes then out of nowhere they all clapped and cheer. I join in.

The night went by and everyone was asleep except me and Andy.

I watched him a few times, he was in that notebook of his by the window and I couldn't help but think how beautiful he is.

Then I would mentally slap myself for even thinking that. I'm in love with Bre, I can't be falling for some boy.

That was a faze in middle school. After I found Bre, I''ve grown out of it.

There was the smell of a ciggerate being lit. I saw Andy cupping his hand around the lighter as his face turn orange because of the flame.

He inhaled deeply and exhaled out one good time.

"Andy?"

He turn to me and put the ciggerate out before looking at me.

"Yeah?" He said in his deep voice.

"You know that isn't good for you..." I was about to tell him that I was feeling weird around him but I couldn't get it out.

He noticed that we only had one blanket but didnt have a problem sharing. That's what friends do, yeah?

I went over to the floor and spread the cover out for the both of us. He came over and I held the blanket up for him.

It was quiet so I needed to make conversation..

"That song was really good." I said lowly.

"Thanks."

"I think it's cool that we have the same music taste."

"Yeah. People at school think it's weird that I'm into punk. I was raised off of it you know?"

"Yeah. Just like me likening county?"

He did a little giggle and that uncomfortable feeling came back.

We talked and didn't mind it. I can't sleep over other people's house who I don't know that much.

He was making me feel at home. He made me more comfortable now. I listen to him talk and his voice calmed me in a way.

I smiled a little then turned on my side. He face me as well.

Our bodies almost close, a small gap between us and the urge to close it. I'm use to holding someone in my sleep but I can't do that with Andy tho.

I could feel his eyes wonder around on me. I let him and didn't even tell him to stop. He then sighed loudly.

"I am really fucking sorry for that." He was preferring to my nose. I didn't understand why he was so sorry, I shouldn't had even mess with his personal stuff.

"Don't worry about it. You won't remember in a week or so."

"But still it–"

"Shh..." He worries too much. "Good night Bright Eyes."

I heard him breathe out and it was strange but bidding comment on it.

"Good night Ash." He said in a deep voice. My face felt hot and I got uncomfortable for the seventh time. But the weird part is I can feel myself smiling like an idiot.

You can't Ashley, girlfriend remember? My smile fade and I couldn't look into his blue eyes anymore so I turned away from him.

He could have sworn he blew under his breath, shift away from me. My face cooled down as I played in my hair to help go to sleep.

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I heard giggling when I woke up. I could tell the it was bright as fuck outside because the lighting of the room was from the sun.

"Dude, stop. Don't take a photo." Someone whispered yelled.

"But it's so cute CC!" Jake went. What was they talking about and why did my body feel so warm?

I groan slightly, my body inched and end up bumping into someone. My face felt fuzzy and whatever my nose was in smelt like shampoo.

There was a tickle on my chest like someone breathing. The breath of a smoker and this natural smell.

My eyes flutter open to see black hair and pale skin. My eyes adjusted more to see that my arms are wrapped around Andy's waist.

He had his chest pressed on me, his forehead on my shoulder, one arm around hooked under my shoulder fast asleep still. Oh god.

I quickly move him off of me and shot up. Jake , Jinxx, and CC gave me wide eyes before they all ran off laughing except CC.

"Its not funny guys! Delete it!" CC scream after them. I could hear them running from up here.

Andy shift in his sleep, turning on his back with his hair everywhere. Parted lips and his lip ring poked out perfectly.

I couldn't lie to myself anymore; he is gorgeous. I'm not gay anymore but i will admit he was.

But that doesn't mean anything if I have a girl.. it doesn't mean anything at all. I end up cuddling with him, yeah but still. It's nothing.

I got off the floor and went down the stairs. The guys were still goofing off. CC sat on Jake and Jinxx, still reaching for Jake's phone.

Jake end up getting free then tried to get up and run but CC wrap his arms around him. "Jakey, no! Bad Jake!" Jake lean down and lick his cheek which cause him to let go fast.

Jake then jet off somewhere in the house with Jinxx in fits of laughter. CC was too busy wiping away the trail of saliva off.

He stood up and faced me with a frown. "Hi Ashley, good morning."

I raise an eyebrow at him. "Why the sad tone?"

He sigh, shaking his head." Nothing, you'll find out later on today. Is Andy up?"

"Not yet. Want me to wake hi-"

"I can hear you fuckers rambling around from my room! Chill the fuck out!" Andy growled. Well, someone's not a morning person.

Out of nowhere, Jake ran into Andy and it end with them both falling on the ground. Jake was laughing and Andy pushed him off.

Andy went off yelling at him but Jinxx told him, "Come on Drew, stop acting like a dick is up your ass."

Jake sat up. "I think he would be more "happy" if a dick was up his asshole."

They burst out in tears almost. I felt myself blushing. Why, I don't know so I push my hair in my face to hide it.

"Whatever." Andy went as he got back on his feet. "It's Saturday on the afternoon. Steak N Shake then we can hang on my rooftop?"

CC pumped his fist in the air. "FOR THE FOOD!"
"I'm driving!" Jinxx grabbed the keys and ran.
"No!" Jake chased after the two of them. "Jeremy, I don't trust your driving!"

I stood there lost. Andy chuckled at me. "You'll get use to us. Come one." He grabs my hand and pulled me with him.

His hand is so soft.....

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Everyone took turns climbing through the window to sit on the roof and I will admit, I'm scared shitless.

Andy saw my face and he gasped. "Is thee Ashley Purdy scared?"

"F-Fuck no..." my voice jolt in a way.

"It's safe and the rooftop is angled a perfect way so it's not like you're going to roll off."

I bit my bottom lip and shuffle uncomfortable. I shook my head no. "What if I do fall?" I asked. Andy stepped out and held his hand out for me.

"You won't." He smiled at me.

"You promise?" I was being so childish but I didn't like the idea of being on top of a house basically.

His eyes studied me, a crooked smile wipe across his face. "Yes. I promise." I stared at his hand for awhile then took the guts to grab it.

I climbed out with him and the guys. It wasnt that bad, I still through I could fall and die or some shit but it was cool.

"About damn time Ashey." Jake went, everyone laughed. I flicked them off. "Hey, Drew, what if I pizza man could bring us a pizza while we're on the roof?"

We stared at Jake with no words. CC grabbed his phone quickly and dialed out a number. "We're about to find out!" He said.

Today was great. We talked and chilled on the roof. The pizza man found his way to give us the pizza up here. We gave him a huge tip.

It was getting dark. Jinxx was playing music on his phone as Jake and CC yawned.

I felt someone's head lay on my shoulder. Andy was resting against me and he smelt like pizza and everything what an Andy would smell like.

I hesitated but rest my head on his. He got closer to me and that not right feeling slapped me. CC clear his throat and that cost me to lean away.

Andy blew under his breath then sat up straight.

"Sleeping over again, Ashley?" CC asked.

"Nah, I would but in have to check on my grandparents." My consternation was on Andy who faced away from me.

Jake was nice enough to drive me home. I told them bye. We got in the car as my mind played with me.

I couldn't think, when I did, Andy would come up...I tense up when I realized something I fear for.

I think I may have a crush on the boy with the blue eyes.......