I'll Be Safe and Sound as Long as You Kiss Me Again

Chapter 6

Tay’s POV

It was the night after Matt and I’s second date and I was on a severe low after my little weed smoking session last night. To make matters worse Jenna had avoided me all day and made it very clear about the fact that I shouldn’t have kissed her because she didn’t like me.

I didn’t realise that I had feelings for Jenna until the moment I kissed her last night, which was extremely hard to get my head around as I’d always considered myself bisexual but I’d never done anything with a girl before.

I felt really bad knowing that I’d kissed Jenna last night because now that I was aware of the fact she didn’t think of me like that and that she probably wasn’t even gay, although to me she gave off the vibe of being at least bisexual, like me.

Despite the fact that I was on an all time low and was extremely shattered after the show today I was being dragged by the boys to the one place I did not want to be. Tonight Alive’s Bus.

The boys had arranged a party for our band and theirs since they were technically our best friends on tour, this night was already starting to feel uncomfortable as the minutes ticked away and we were edging closer to heading to their bus which would inevitably mean seeing Jenna for the first time since last night.

Soon enough the time came when the boys told me we were leaving for the party, of course I was taken by force as I did not want to go because seeing Jenna was going to ruin the whole night.
So the further I was dragged against my will, the louder the music from Tonight Alive’s bus got. When we got there the boys just dragged me in and immediately started drinking.

I went and sat over next to Matt whilst the boys spread out, it didn’t escape my notice that Cameron slowly made his way over to where Jenna was sitting and sat down. They immediately started talking and I couldn’t help but feel a pang of jealousy in the pit of my stomach.

I decided to ignore Jenna, and the feelings I was having for her and attempt to enjoy my night. I began making small talk with Matt and I went in to kiss him but he turned away at the last minute and I ended up kissing him on the cheek and frowning at him to which he just sighed.

I sat in a highly uncomfortable silence and out of the corner of my eye I saw Jenna laughing at something Cameron said. My jealousy only increased and since Matt was being stubborn I could only sit there and watch as Jenna and Cameron acted like long lost lovers. It might just have been my jealousy, but I could almost say for sure that Cameron was flirting with Jenna and I didn’t enjoy watching it one single bit.

I think some of the boys could sense the tension radiating off me towards Jenna and the tension between Matt and I, so that’s when Whak suggested a good old game of spin the bottle which both bands were to participate in.

Well, nothing could possibly be worse than watching Jenna and Cameron flirt, right?
So that’s what we did, the two bands gathered around an empty beer bottle on the floor and prepared to play spin the bottle. Rob was up first and too his disappointment the bottle landed on mike so they were forced to share a fairly awkward kiss.

It was Mike’s turn to spin and he landed on me, we shared a fairly friendly peck before it was my turn and I got Matt much to his dismay so we were forced to kiss. It was only a peck though which made some of the other guys look around suspiciously and wonder what was going on.

We continued the game for a while more and then it got to Jenna’s turn, she spun the bottle and it almost felt like it was going in slow motion as it began to stop and seemed to be pointing at me. Unfortunately I wasn’t that lucky as it landed on the guy next to me, and that just happened to be Cameron.

I sighed as Cameron practically leapt forward and locked lips with Jenna. I just turned to Matt and asked him to go somewhere private with me, he begrudgingly agreed but could clearly see I was getting upset by the scene in front of me.

Jenna’s P.O.V

I was currently engaged in a passionate kiss with Cameron, which is probably due to the fact he got the wrong idea from the flirting earlier. I should have probably mentioned to him that I don’t swing that way and that I really had my eyes on Tay who seemed to be avoiding me.

Speaking of which she seemed to get up and leave with Matt which left me quite disappointed and upset. By the time Cameron had pulled away I was already feeling down because the party was no fun without Tay, however I continued to play spin the bottle but luckily didn’t receive any more kisses from the boys.

After Tay and Matt had been gone for about half an hour I decided to go check on them so I stood and walked to Tay’s separate bunk at the back of the bus. It had a door to separate her from the boys and it was shut.

I was about to leave assuming they were having some private time when I heard raised voices coming from behind the door.

“I CAN BARELY LOOK AT YOU TAY, HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO ACT LIKE NOTHING’S WRONG AFTER WHAT YOU TOLD ME LAST NIGHT?” Matt shouted.

“I didn’t mean it, I was high and didn’t know what I was saying” Tay sniffled.

“Oh no you knew exactly what you were saying, you were saying you had feelings for Jenna” Matt sighed sadly.

What? Tay had feelings for me? So that kiss wasn’t a mistake…?

“It doesn’t matter anyway, she clearly doesn’t want me… she wants Cameron” Tay cried.
Shit, Tay thought I’d been trying to get with Cameron?

“Tay, Jenna’s gay…” Matt started but before I could hear anything else I had left and was back in the living room, all of a sudden I had to sit down and process everything I’d heard.

A short while later Matt came back through and glanced at me almost sympathetically, as if I didn’t understand. Of course he was wrong, because I’d heard almost everything.

“I’ve put Tay to bed because she wasn’t feeling well, I think we should go…” Matt said before leaving. The rest of the band left but I said I wanted to stay behind and check on Tay. I think it was clear to Matt at this point that I’d heard the conversation.

Cameron, Mike, Rob and Jordan all went straight to bed and were asleep pretty much as soon as their heads hit the pillow.

I just crept into Tay’s room at the back and quietly shut the door. On the bed was Tay’s sleeping form except she didn’t have a peaceful sleeping face but a tear covered one instead.

My heart broke at the sight and despite saying I was only going to check up on her I couldn’t help but climb under the covers with her and hold her tight, nothing was going to hurt my Tay if I could help it.

Tay shuffled and snuggled her head into my neck, and it was like this that I fell asleep, truly content for the first time since night one of warped.