Always Searching

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

"Thats was Cry by Rihanna and this is KISS FM commercial free hour" The radio DJ said.

I was laying in my bed crying about what just happened.

How could he not believe me. I hate him, I love him, I want to slap him, I want to hug him, I just want to forget about him.

"I hate Jason" I mumbled to myself before a very familiar song began to play.

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

"I hate this fucking song." I mumbled and threw a pillow at my stereo.

Unfortunately it didn't knock it over or turn it off.

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you

I moaned and walked over to my stereo yanking it out of the wall and throwing it into the closest.

"Stupid song, stupid Jason, stupid Jonas."

I walked over to my laptop and turned it on and immediately regretted as a my wallpaper was a picture of Joe an me.

I sighed as I looked at the picture one more time before changing the background to a black and white picture of a rose.

I sighed onto AIM and waited for it to load up.

I sighed as I saw that ThexPresidentx was on. I quickly blocked him and removed him and the rest of the Jonas from my buddy list.

"Stupid Nick."

xMandyXKnowsx has requested to chat with you

"Great"

grafftiXmyXsoul: Hey Mandy
xMandyXKnowsx:How could you!
grafftiXmyXsoul: Dont tell me you believe Jason too,
xMandyXKnowsx: Well what the hell happened. I get a call from Nick, Joe, and one from Kevin all saying it's over cause you kissed Jason

I rolled my eyes. Why wont anyone believe me!

grafftiXmyXsoul: He kissed me! You know he's always hitting on me!
xMandyXKnowsx: So you kiss him?!

I sighed in frustration. I seriously wanted to pick up my laptop and throw it across the room.

"Bella, it's time to go" My mom yelled up the stairs.

"Okay."

grafftiXmyXsoul: I g2g!
xMandyXKnowsx: Call me! This isnt over!
grafftiXmyXsoul: Yippee! >.<

grafftiXmyXsoulhas signed off.