February 21st, 2014 at 11:41pm
As for your sister, reach out to her. There will be a day where she might be gone and what you said will haunt you. I remember when I was 16, me and my older sister got into and verbal then physical fight. We went months without talking. And I felt alone. She's my best friend. And without her, I died every single day. I texted her and apologized. For everything. That's what you need to do.
But how can you do that? I am so afraid of hurting people. But I want more than anything to sit down and just tell her everything. Thanks, by the way :). Means a lot haha.
On to my sister: I'm scared to reach out and fix our relationship. I'm scared of my family turning against me. I understand exactly what you mean about feeling alone. I am dying everyday. She has a tendency to take things the wrong way, though, and I don't want to send the wrong message to her. But I need her back in my life. She's literally the only person who has been there, and she's been through it all with me. But what if you're just that scared, for the purpose of your family? Should you risk that? Does it make sense?