This Is So Embarrassing...

Have you ever written something in a story (or done something to a story) that you're embarrassed about or ashamed of? If you have, post it here.

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I think my most embarrassing story moment would be with my first (posted) original fic. It was a vampire fic, which isn't the embarrassing part, and it was incredibly cliche, which isn't the shameful part either. It was only 19 chapters long and I was writing it over on Quizilla. It was, by far, my most popular story...ever. But after writing it for so long, and as my writing style developed, I grew resentful of it. I started hating having to write it, even though I actually loved all the characters and the plot and...everything, except my horrific writing style. Towards the end, when I just didn't want to keep writing it, I decided to do the really stupid and lame and amatuer thing, and just killed off the main character. It was kind of left-field for the story, and I regretted it later, but I was so insanely frustrated with the stupid thing that I had to slaughter her.

So many readers were upset and just (probably) confused and stupefied. I ended up writing a sequel, and then giving up on it, but every once in a while I get this crazy urge to pick it back up, re-do the first part, and then continue on with the story. My hasty disposal of that character and the story is probably the thing I'm most embarrassed about. Also, the nicknames (babygirl, being the biggest) in that story make me blush with shame.



Another embarrassing story would be a fanfic I wrote, it was a Brendon Urie (from PATD) fanfic - and again, my most popular fanfic on Quizilla and Mibba. It was about the sister of Adam Siska (from The Academy Is... - I miss them) and she moved in with him. Then she met Brendon and she liked him (of course, and he liked her (of course), but they just couldn't get it together. The Academy Is lived in this apartment building (two apartments) and all the Decadance guys would drop in all the time. Ugh. It was just so silly, but I still love it. I don't regret writing it at all, but I wouldn't show it to anyone.

yay for this thread!

I honestly think the most embarrassing thing I've written was ANYTHING I wrote when I was on Quizilla and wrote Naruto fanfiction. It was just... awful. I eventually gave up and deleted it

And I'm not ashamed of writing it, but I get a bit bothered when people start reading Music Girl because of Aravic's attitude in the beginning. I don't want them to think I think the way he does, because I certainly don't. IDK, it's just a peeve.

My interactive Green Day fic Rage & Love back when you could post stories on the message boards on GSB. It was so 'major drama, save, major drama, save, major drama, save, bloody deaths' because everyone was "controlling" the death.

"Candy Hearts" which is a Green Day fic I wrote about five years ago that I did not transfer over to Mibba. It's ridiculously lame. It's just . . . not a good reflection of my writing.

All my fic that never made it to the internet from junior year back. So heterosexual and Mary Sue filled and cliche.

Um... yeah.

Anything that I'm embarrased of has been deleted and the experience of reading it had been wiped from everyone's minds.

I had one original fiction on Quizilla (back when I was an amateur to the story-writing across the internet) and I thought it was the shit of all my stories because it had grew so popular so fast and I was actually getting messages for it with compliments and a lot of ratings but when I look back on it... it was full of stereotyping with the whole "emo" scene, bad characters, the typical blonde bitch that makes the main character's life a hell, jocks that beat him up, and getting involved with a girl that had a fucked up life too. I do like the way I portrayed the guy's character but aside from that, the story was awful.
Now when I look back on it, I hate it and cringe every time I see it but back then, I thought I was actually getting somewhere.

YES. Especially the horribly, undeniably shitty poetry I wrote when I was 13-14. It makes me feel like going back in time and slapping my past self.

^ Love poems, man. I have like 5-6 notebooks filled with love poems in Spanish. Whenever I re-read them, I blush madly and feel this little pull at my heart that tells me "man, you sucked".

My first story here on mibba It was so major embarrassing. My writing style was crappy, had tons of tense shifts, the characters were just... no Alter Ego, it was named, and I immediately erased it when I returned to the site after one year of not getting on it.

I feel like this about a lot of my older stuff, even stuff that isn't so bad. A lot of it I would say has moments of good that are surrounded by moments of cringe. Sometimes I'm way too hard on myself though. I get embarrassed or ashamed super easy by my own writing actually, even if it isn't that bad. I don't know why.

Also, I agree with a lot of you. My old songs and poems are the worst! Ugh.

Lol omg. My first stabs at poetry in 5th grade, my first original fic in the 6th (THAT WAS FOR A PROJECT THAT MY PARENTS EDITED, THAT I LATER ~DEDICATED~ TO A BEST FRIEND THAT WAS MOVING AWAY ), my unpublished first fics in a notebook somewhere, and the first few posted stuff on my ff.net account

I never delete anything though. I like having the option to go back and read them, and see how much I've improved no matter how mortifying it is

My first - now deleted - fic was a Green Day one.

It was odd because it was about Mike dating my Mum (for...I dunno. Some reason) and I distinctly remember getting Tre Cool to dress up as a bunny so I could distract a teacher and get permission to take a leave of abscence.

It was screwy

My angsty poetry. x]

The first fanfic one-shot I ever wrote. I felt that I was beautifying suicide, and the motivations of the characters were so overdramatic.

Well, I used to write a lot of song lyrics. Like, original ones. They're all garbage. I had a pencilbox, one of those kids bring to school, full of folded squares of paper. So many songs, so much crap.

Roxanne and Wasting Love for sure.

I mean even though they've only been up for a year or so (Roxanne a year and Wasting Love 11 months) they're horrible, the plot doesn't flow smoothly, and even though Wasting Love and Roxanne are joined they don't make sense, some stuff that should be metioned in Roxanne isn't and overall it's just not very good. Axl like PMS'es the entire time.

Hot Topic Girls Falls for Hollister Guy [What the hell?]
I'm kidnapped and turned into a killer, what the hell?
... to those stories, I am deathly ashamed. Only three words can explain my embarrassment.
What the fu-?


I also wrote this Tokio Hotel fic and Emmet Cullen love story.
I've improved so damn much. It terrifies me to read my old stuff. It's simply degrading.

All of my old stories contained Twilight characters.


Also, anything I used to post on my ff.net account, which I don't use very often now, but still.

My very first fanfic.
It was based on something I saw on the website Neopets.com, and it was awesome. In that kind of disgustingly awful way.



I think I might have been 11 or 12 at the time.

Some of my first poems I posted on here.
Stupid Emo Poem. Lots of other angsty 6th grade stuff.

I have written a story called, no jokes, And all the tears I cry... and all the cuts I make... . I meant it in all seriousness. It had six chapters and the opening scene was jocks and popular kids beating up Mikey (MCR) and he was saved by Billy (Good Charlotte). And of course apart from being bullied, Mikey was being abused by Gerard. I don't even know, you guys, it was so stupid.

That's happened to me. I think quizilla is the story disaster site. I started writing my second longest story (but the first longest to be written) on the site and when I looked back at it after my writing style started to developed, I was like WHAT THE FUCK!?!?! It was so bad. I can't believe I wrote it. I mean, some of the things in it wasn't even realistic like...at all. Like you the plot was good and all but the some character's characteristics need to change. I'm rewriting the whole thing because I've had so many ideas for it and I didn't want to just give up on it out of the blue. It's actually on this site. It's called Eternal Love (Changed from the original title Midnight Sun) and it's 1,000,000 times better than the original version.

I've decided that I was going to write three sequeals to it before but cut it down to two because the last book would be like Stephonie Myers book Breaking Dawn (full of horrible crap that's teeny bop fantasy land) in my opinion.

But yeah, it was embarrasing to me that I actually wrote that and let people read it.

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I read over some of the stuff you guys said and it's really funny. I've had a few terrible poems when I was younger but never too bad (I think I am and was a pretty good poet). One poem I'm proud of that I wrote when I was 13 was a poem named What You Think Is Not Always What Is. To this day I'm proud of the poem and although I have much more sophisicating writing now, I'm still proud to call that poem mine. I guess it's because it came from the heart and from some real experiences I've had and nothing something that's fake. I think when people write about things they know nothing about is when it comes off crappy. Oh and I'm proud of my poem It Was All For The Dream. I think I wrote that at 13 too but when I was in ninth grade. Yeah, that's another one I'm proud of.

This one story I wrote a couple of months ago, and it has this sex scene in it. I can hardly stand to read it.