Title: Find Your Own Way (Back Home)Story Type: fanfiction
Fandom: Panic! at the Disco/The Young Veins
Rating: PG-13
Genre: drama
Status: one-shot, completed
Summary: When a band breaks up they always,
always blame it on creative differences, and no one ever believes them. This stance is mostly justified because usually ‘creative differences’ is just a feeble excuse to hide some big scandal, like the guitarist’s girlfriend having an affair with the singer, or the
guitarist having an affair with the singer, or some big huge row that tears the band into tiny, irreparable pieces.
It’s not like that for them. There’s no juicy scandal, no secret affair, no awful row. Just somewhere down the line, Panic(!) splitting right down the middle without Spencer ever even noticing.
Excerpt: “It’s not because I-”
“I know.”
“We just think, me and Jon, that-”
“I know.”
“We just don’t want the same things as you any more, that’s all,” Ryan says, awkward hands fiddling with the scarf twined so tightly round his neck that he'll choke himself if he tugs it any closer to his throat.
And Spencer should say “I know,” and smile and tell him it’s fine, really, it’s fine, but the words are stuck in his throat and the blank expression is frozen on his face and he just
can’t.
Because it’s true. They don’t want the same things any more.
(Somehow, that realisation hurts one hell of a lot more than a juicy scandal or a secret affair or an awful row ever could. Spencer almost wishes it was like that, because at least then he could get angry, at least then he could start yelling, at least then he could justify the abject betrayal curling low in his gut that he just doesn’t know what to do with.)