Rearranging his limbs into a comfortable position on his bed, Brian tried not to fidget, he felt sick with nerves. "Okay so, I'm not very good at talking about this kinda stuff, hence the notes," he chuckled. He held up a hand in protest as Zacky rolled his eyes and made to get up, obviously bored of Brian's less than funny jokes. "Okay, sorry, no more jokes." Brian blew out a long breath and cleared his throat, licking his suddenly dry lips. "There is a reason why I was avoiding you so much on stage and why I pulled a face at having to share with you and why I have generally been acting like a dick Zee, it's because...well, it's because I don't know how to act around you, knowing you know how I feel about you, I feel awkward all the time and that's nothing to do with you, it's all me. I don't know what to say to you or how to keep the really fucked up things I've been thinking, in my head. If you knew what flies through my brain on a daily basis, you would have run scared from me a long time ago." Noticing the confusion and slight fear flash through Zack's eyes, Brian shook his head and laughed. "Now I've made myself out to be some kind of psycho!" He snorted. "I'm really not, I'm sorry for emotionally vomiting on you but if I don't get this out now, I never will. Everyone thinks that Synyster Gates is quick witted with ladies falling over themselves to get to me, and I'm not gonna lie, when it comes to one night stands, I'm fine. But when it comes to matters of the heart, I get tongue tied and awkward and just seem to fuck things up. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I like you Zack, a lot. A hell of a lot actually, have done since we were kids. I was confused for a long time, hence the multitude of girls but I never once stopped liking you Zee, I just never, in a month of Sundays, thought that you would feel the same."
Running a hand through his hairspray clad hair, he sighed and laughed humourlessly. "And now I shall stop talking.."
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December 24th, 2013 at 05:46pm