Dirty Little Secret [CLOSED]

Brian rubbed his hand up and down Zacky's back lightly as they hugged one last time, the taller boy becoming nervous all of a sudden as he waited for the next move. "I guess we should head to bed then," he mumbled, rubbing the back of his neck. A shy smile graced his lips when Zack smiled at him, those beautiful green eyes lighting up, the corners crinkling. Grabbing the smaller boy's hand, Brian laced their fingers together and brushed his lips against Zacky's cheek. "Goodnight Vengeance."

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

A few days had passed by since Zacky decided to give Brian a chance. He could pick up on how much happier Brian seemed to be and he couldn't help but feel glad that it was him that could make the brown eyed man feel that way.

Brian practically skipped into the dressing room as they prepared for their next show.

"Someone must have got laid." Johnny chuckled.

"Maybe he's just having a good day." Jimmy chimed in looking over at Zacky.

"What do you think Zacky?" Matt questioned him. He simply shrugged.

"Whatever it is, it's nice to see him happy." he glanced over at Brian and noticed him wink.

"You guys got five minutes 'til showtime!" Jason Berry's voice called from the other side of the door. As they all began to head out Brian stopped him.

"Meet me here after the show?"

"Okay."

@ RachTheBat

That night, the show passed without a hitch, everyone having a blast on stage. Brian and Zacky did their duels without any problem at all, even managing to share secret smiles with each other as the others looked on obliviously. Brian was excited but nervous for the end of the gig, excited to have some alone time with Zack but nervous too, he didn't really know what to expect or say. Handing his guitar to his tech, the guitarist jogged back to the dressing room, being careful to avoid the others as he slipped through the door and waited for Zacky to arrive.

Looking up, he smiled as the emerald eyed boy walked in, smiling back at Brian as he closed the door behind him. Both boys looked at each other, waiting for the other to speak. Brian stood, closing the distance between the two and placed his hands on Zacky's arms, squeezing softly. "Would it be okay if I kissed you?"

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

He felt his heart flutter a little at the thought of being kissed by the lead guitarist. He bit at his snakebites a little nervously. What if he thinks I'm a bad kisser? What if someone walks in on us? What if-

"Zacky?" Brian pulled him out of his thoughts and glanced at him. He could see that Brian looked just as nervous as Zacky felt.

"O-Okay." he said quietly. The chocolate eyed boy smiled and began to lean in for a kiss before the door burst open. They quickly pulled away from each other and exchanged apologetic looks before looking over at the door as Johnny, Matt, and Jimmy walked in.

@ rachthebat.

Brian internally groaned at the others' not so perfect timing, cursing them for being eternal cock blocks. He looked up to see Zacky looking back at him, giving the rhythm a small smile as Matt droned on about them being on top form for the show they'd be playing the next night.

"I think Zack and Brian should go on a coffee and donut run," Jimmy piped up all of a sudden, humour dancing in his crystal blue eyes. Mouthing a silent thank you to his best friend, Brian grabbed his hoodie from the back of the chair and headed for the door, checking over his shoulder that Zack was following.

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

Zacky looked at Jimmy before grabbing a hoodie and moving to follow Brian out of the dressing room. He had appreciated that his friend was looking out for them. He owed him, but wasn't quite sure how to pay him back. As they left the building to head towards a car, he felt Brian move closer to his side.

"Matt mentioned something about staying at a hotel sometime within the next few days." Zacky spoke for the first time since they had been interrupted in the dressing room.

@ rachthebat.

"Yeah? That'll be nice, beats sleeping in a cramped bunk any day," he chuckled. A blush crept onto his cheeks as his mind went straight to the gutter, visions of he and Zack sharing a room together filling his head as they got into his car and pulled out of the parking lot. Gripping the steering wheel tight in his hands, Brian drove them over to the nearest Starbucks, stealing sidelorng glances at his best friend when he thought the other wasn't looking, blushing profusely when their eyes met across the dimly lit car. This was going to be a long tour.

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

He had noticed Brian blush and bit at his snakebites to keep from laughing. It wasn't very often that he saw him blush. He smiled to himself knowing he was able to make it happen. As they made their way to Starbucks, he glanced over at Brian and noticed his tight grip on the steering wheel.

"The steering wheel isn't going anywhere," he chuckled a little as he caught the older boy's attention. "Are you okay Bri?" he asked as the car came to a stop.

@ rachthebat.

Brian looked at Zacky with confusion, arching a brow at the soft chuckles that filled the air. "Ohh, yeah," he snorted, loosening his grip a little. "I uhh..I'm fine, just got lost in my thoughts for a bit. Ready?" Brian pointed at the little coffee shop they were parked outside of and opened up his door, stepping out and pulling his hoodie closer to his body as a brisk wind picked up. He had to get a grip, if he kept acting like this, Zack would surely dump his ass.

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

Zacky raised an eyebrow in confusion wondering what Brian could have possibly been thinking about. However he decided to shrug it off. He stepped out of the car with Brian before stepping into Starbucks with him.

The car ride on the way back was quiet and it left the green eyed man with his thoughts. What could Brian have possibly been thinking about? Was he angry about something?

"Bri? Can I ask you something?" he asked nervously as he looked at him.

"Sure, what is it?"

"W-What were you thinking about before?"

@ rachthebat.

Brian's eyes widened at Zacky's question, blinking rapidly to stop the other noticing. "I umm..I was just thinking about stuff, usual boring crap," he chuckled, scratching the side of his head nervously. He could not tell Zack what he was really thinking about, the boy would run a mile! But he couldn't stop his mind going there, his thoughts occupied by the boy sat next to him. Brian was dying to kiss Zacky, to feel the others lips pressed against his own, he's dreamed about it for far too long now. Absent-mindedly running his tongue across his lips, he chewed on them, wondering if or how he could broach the subject with his best friend.

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

Zacky raised an eyebrow as he noticed Brian lick his lips. He looked at him and noticed his eyes darkening a little. He had never really noticed that look before.

"Are you sure about that?" he questioned the lead guitarist. Brian nodded and turned his gaze back on the road.

"Uh huh, it's nothing to w-worry about."

Zacky sighed and rested back against the seat as they made their way back to the others. Why was Brian acting strange all of a sudden? He seemed completely fine until he mentioned that they were going to be staying at a hotel. Then it clicked in his mind. Brian must have been thinking of what could possibly happen. Surely they'd have more alone time together, but his mind wasn't jumping there already was it? Zacky bit his lip as his own thoughts began to wander off.

@ rachthebat.

The tension was palpable as both boys looked straight ahead in silence, both lost in their own thoughts as Brian drove them back to the arena they were playing at. They had another six hours to kill before the show would start, six long and tension filled hours that Brian didn't think he could handle. Especially being alone with Zacky and not being able to do anything to ease said tension. Stealing quick glances at the dark haired boy out of the corner of his eye, he felt his mouth turn dry, swallowing thickly, the air thick with unanswered questions. It was like Zacky was a homing beacon for him, he couldn't help but look in the other's direction. Forcing himself to concentrate on the road ahead, he pulled into the parking lot and pulled his belt off, jumping out of the car and in the direction of the nearest bathroom. He needed to breathe and he couldn't do it around the object of his desires. "Need to take a piss," he all but squeaked as Zacky looked at him strangely.

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

He could feel Brian's gaze on him the entire ride back. He wanted to say something, but he was afraid of saying anything. Maybe Brian's mind wasn't going to the same place his thoughts were going. Maybe it was something completely innocent. The younger boy had to laugh at that thought. When the car came to a halt, Brian couldn't get out of the car fast enough. He barely even caught the lead mentioning something about going to the bathroom. He just shrugged it off and returned to the dressing room with the donuts and coffee.

"Where's Brian?" Johnny questioned as he took the donuts from Zacky.

"I think he went to use the bathroom. I don't know, he got out of the car quickly so I'm not quite sure if he's okay or not." he replied biting at his snakebites.

"I'll go check on him." Jimmy said. Before Zacky could say anything, the drummer had left the room.

@ rachthebat.

Brian jumped at the knock on the bathroom door, he'd been a million miles away, lost in his thoughts. Sliding the lock, he sat back down on the toilet seat and shifted his legs, pulling them to his chest and resting his chin on the top. Glancing up at Jimmy, the guitarist didn't need to utter a word, Jimmy sidled in and shut the door behind him before putting his crystal blue gaze on his best friend. "Zacky?"

Brian snorted, "how'd you guess?" Putting his thumb back into his mouth, he resumed chewing on the nail, deep in thought. "What do I do?"

"You could always tell him what you're thinking? It's not such an alien concept ya know."

Brian rolled his eyes and continue to chew absentmindedly. "I wanna do things to him Jim, bad things, but I can't tell him that! He'd run a mile and I don't even know if he actually fucking likes me!"

"There's only one way to find out Bri, gotta talk to each other." With a resounding sigh, he got up and followed Jimmy out of the bathroom, down the hall and into their little dressing room for the night. His stomach flip flopped when Zacky looked up from his guitar and trained his eyes on him, those piercing green eyes as if seeing right into his soul. Jimmy raised his brow at Brian, jerking his head in the direction of said guitarist but Brian shook his head, now wasn't the right time. Pulling a face at Jimmy's exaggerated eye roll, he sat down next to Matt and decided he would talk to Zack when they got to the hotel later that night, the very thought making him feel physically sick.

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

Zacky bit his lip a little as he stared at Brian from across the room. There had to be a reason he felt the need to get away from him so quickly and why he hadn't really approached him since their time in the car together. Had he said something he shouldn't have? He just hoped that Brian didn't go back to avoiding him. Though he still wasn't one hundred percent sure about his feelings towards Brian just yet, he knew he still wanted Brian to be able to talk to him about anything like he used to.

"Zacky!" Matt waved his hand in front of the smaller man's face. "You okay man?"

"Uh, yeah I'm fine. Just thinking about the show tonight." he looked up and smiled trying to convince Matt.

@ rachthebat.

The show that night had been a success, a sold out arena and thousands upon thousands of fans screaming and chanting their songs back at them, there was no feeling like it. Handing his baby over to the nearest tech, Brian grabbed a beer from the crate at the side of the stage and clinked bottles with the guys, all celebrating another knock out show. "Should we head over to the hotel straight away?" Matt grinned. "We got free mini bars all round!"

Brian opened his mouth to disagree with Matt, but Jimmy beat him to it, clapping Brian on the shoulder. "Yeah, let's get wasted! I'm sure some of us could use it more than others." Giving Brian a pointed look, he cackled to himself when the lead scoffed and rolled his eyes, skipping down the hall towards the tour bus.

With heavy feet, he traipsed after everyone else, his stomach churning at the prospect of being in such close proximity to Zacky. Keeping his fingers crossed, he hoped he would be able to share with one of the others, he didn't know if he could handle sharing a room with the boy he couldn't seem to stop thinking about.

Has luck would have it though, he had the worst kind. Arriving at the hotel, Matt gave Jimmy and Johnny their room keys, taking one for himself then slapping a key in Brian and Zacky's palm. Narrowing his eyes on the hyperactive drummer, Brian took the key and pushed off the wall he'd been leaning on, ready to go and destroy the mini bar for some much needed dutch courage.

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

He felt hurt by the way Brian was acting. Once again he had started avoiding him during the show. Though it may not have been as obvious to the fans or maybe even to Matt or Johnny, Zacky could see it every time he tried to move closer to him. Even though the show was a success, he couldn't help but feel hurt by the guitarist's actions. When the show ended, Brian hurried off the stage and had already began drinking. Sure he himself took a few swigs from the bottle in his own hand, but he wasn't chugging it down the way the brown eyed boy was. He also saw the look on his face when he got his room key. Zacky had known Jimmy would have made sure that Brian got the key to the same room as him, but instead of smiling or even looking remotely happy, he looked at the drummer as if he had just kicked Pinkly. His heart sank a little as he followed the others to the mini bar. He just thought Brian would be happy about being able to spend alone time with him.

"You okay Zacky?" Matt asked as he sat down beside him. The singer noticed his friend sitting off by himself as the others goofed off and felt concerned.

"I'm fine Matt, I'm just a bit tired that's all." he smiled weakly at him.

"You're sure that's it? You have been pretty quiet lately. You know you can talk to me about anything right?" he put his hand on Zacky's shoulder as he looked down at the green eyed boy. Zacky smiled a little and pulled him into a hug.

"Thanks, I'm okay though really. If something was wrong, you'd definitely be the first to know." Zacky replied before moving to get up as he stretched. "I'm think I'm gonna go to my room now. Tell the others I said goodnight." he turned to head towards the elevator and heard Brian's voice.

"Zacky wait up!"

He turned and noticed Brian stumbling and giggling as he made his way over. If he was going to share his room with the lead, he was kind of hoping it wasn't like this.

@ rachthebat.

Stumbling after the retreating form of Zacky, Brian neglected to notice the tray that was sat in the middle of the hallway, flying ass over tit as he walked right into it. "Oof!" Sprawled out on his back, Brian giggled and lifted his legs in the air, laughing away to himself. "You don't play guitar with your neck bro, you play it with your bum bum!" Slapping his ass, he started to crawl after Zacky towards their room. "Zaaaack! I love youuuuu!"

Finally having gotten into the room, he crawled over to his bed and passed out, still fully clothed. Stirring a few hours later, he swallowed thickly, what tasted like ass in his mouth as he moved to sit up. Groaning at the pounding in his head, he crept over to Zacky's bed and climbed in, sliding his arm around the other's waist. He hushed the rhythm as he stirred in his sleep, placing a soft kiss to the back of his neck and whispering in his ear. "Just wanna sleep next to you."

@ Xxzackysangel6661Xx

Zacky had heard what Brian said earlier that night but couldn't get it out of his mind. But he was drunk, he couldn't have meant that right? Besides, he was pretty sure he was saying that to everyone before he decided to go to his room for the night. He tried falling asleep which had only worked for about an hour before he felt the weight of the bed shift. He could still smell the alcohol on Brian's breath as he spoke. He could tell he was a bit hungover if not still a little drunk.

"Not tonight Bri. Go back to your own bed please." he whispered.

"But I wanna stay with you." Brian replied. The smaller boy sighed and turned one of the lights on to look at him. Brian closed his eyes as the room got brighter.

"Oh so now you want to stay with me?" Zacky arched an eyebrow him.

"What are you talking about? Of course I d-"

"Really Gates? Really? Because you sure as fuck have had a funny way of showing it!" Zacky replied his voice getting a little louder as he pulled away.

"Zack-"

"For someone who claims to like me and want to spend time with me, all you've done is avoid me. You know I even thought you wanted to spend time with me but the second you found out you were rooming with me, you looked like you wanted to kill someone! How do you think that made me feel?"

"I didn't-"

"I can't do this right now. You're drunk." Zacky got out of bed and moved to grab his hoodie off the chair.

@ rachthebat.