I stared at the floor, not knowing how much time I had passed. When I looked up he was gone. The clock on the kitchen said 1:23. For some reason it was vaguely amusing. I fell asleep sometime later, not sure how long it had been.
"You're so fucking useless!" He yelled, throwing the plate of food at me. I felt the plate connect with my head and I felt a dull pain before my head began to throb.
"I'm sorry..." I mumbled, immediately stooping to clean up the mess. My head throbbed and I lost balance, falling to the ground instead. I was weak, I hadn't eaten for three days.
"Get up!" He shouted, swinging his foot into my side. "You're so fucking lucky I love you, because no other man would deal with your shit." He said, his eyes narrowed as he watched me attempt to stand back up.
"I am lucky." I murmured, giving a weak smile as I looked around for a rag to clean with. "I'll clean up." I said, bending over to clean.
"I want it done in 5 minutes then come to bed." He muttered, turning for the bedroom.
I ached, I was in so much pain. But I attempted to clean fast enough so I didn't anger him.
"MALIA! I SAID FIVE MINUTES!" I heard him shout, making me begin to shake. I didn't move fast enough.
Though I was aware it was a dream, I couldn't move. It felt so real, I couldn't make myself wake up. I couldn't make myself stop crying. I felt like he was here and he was going to hit me again for my mistakes.
October 23rd, 2014 at 02:03pm