Black Pearl

"How did you ask her? Did you assume or did you say; why were you talking to sehun?" he asked him curiously.

She sighed a little, "He saw me talking to sehun through an open window, I was showing him our son - and he's been distant ever since, saying i've been cheating on him and that he doesn't think he can trust me, accusing me of sneaking around,' she rolled her eyes a little.

She sighed. “Well, we knew he was difficult, but that doesn’t mean he’s not able to make you happy. You knew how sensitive he was about Sehun, he’s acting up now and he needs to get over it but he’ll need your help too.”

He sighed. “What was there to ask? We knew how she was with him. Are you telling me if you saw Alexandra and Chanyeol speaking alone you wouldn’t be furious?

he sighed a little as he looked at him, 'i'd be worrisome but she told me it was over... and she does care about me in her own way, we're doing well, I would trust her if she said nothing was going on," he said to him seriously, "I think you need to stop being so distrustful of her, she looks tired luhan, and not physically,"

She sighed a little, "I've tried, pleading and begging him to believe me, I told him I hadn't seen him in months but hes been so ...stubborn,' she sighed a little, "he was throwing a tantrum basically and... i told him to go throw his pity party somewhere else,' she mumbled.

She laughed a little. “And you know he would,” She said, whistling at Titan to bring her a blanket. “I get cold so easily now,” She mumbled, pulling it on and holding Amara up. “You know he needs more than just a little help. Help him and talk to Jongdae. He’s no doubt talking to him now.”

He sighed a little. “And I’m not? How do I know she isn’t still seeing Sehun? She had a son she has no obligations to me whatsoever anymore. How do I know.”

She sighed a little and nodded as she looked at her son, then bounced him in her arms as she closed her eyes before motioning to the wet nurse to take him since she'd been holding him all day. "I just don't know how to have him trust me when he doesn't want to,"

He looked at her, "Did she say she wasn't seeing him intimately?" he asked, "If so then believe her, she was so in love with you just four months ago, pushing her away will do nothing for either of you you have to trust her,"

She shrugged. “Maybe force him to see?” She suggested. “If you love him, make him see it. I don’t think women are meant to be unhappy anymore. I used to but now I realize that maybe we can be happy. If you want to be happy, force him. If he’s going to whine fine. But you can make him see.”

He sighed. “I don’t know, I’m scared. I’d be afraid to get hurt,” He mumbled. “I guess I’ll take some time, and see,” He murmured. “I take it things are well with Alexandra, she smiles now so I guess things are well?”

She sighed a little then laid her head back, "I guess," she mumbled softly as she pushed a hand through her hair, "I just don't want to get my hopes up,"

He nodded, "Things are going great actually," he said to him, "She's not ill anymore but needs to rest often, they said the loss in blood causes her weakness so it'll be a while before we decide to try for another baby"

She sighed a little. “Don’t worry it will work out,” She smiled a little. “Promise,” She added, sitting Amara in her lap. “Your parents must be happy? That you had a son;” She smiled. “I haven’t heard from my parents though I think Jongdae has been keeping them from me. Just as well, they’d be furious but I’m happy.”

He nodded a little. “Will you? Have another?” He asked curiously. “Do you want another?” He asked him.

"She wants to try for a boy, I'm not too concerned by," he said shaking his head, "The labor was hard on her," he said to him.

She rolled her eyes, "Don't even get me started, they want us to have another son," she mumbled, "already telling me we could start trying again - my nipples are chaffing and the other one is healing cause it cracked. I don't even know if I want another; I'm fine with just Han - but I'd love to have a daughter," she murmured gently.

“I think you would do well with a daughter.” She smiled a little. “I do like having her, but she will definitely be a clone of her father. She’s so calm when he’s near, especially when he sings to her,” She added. “I will try again for a son though, Jongdae doesn’t want me to. I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want to worry you, my pregnancy was much harder than I said in the letter.”

“If you don’t have a boy who will your estate pass to? Amara?” He asked him. “To keep Alexandra healthy maybe time before you try again? I’m happy with my son, but I’m being pressured to ha e another.”

She looked at her and furrowed a brow then sighed, "I feared that, I hadn't heard from you in quite a while I was worried," she said to her gently as she touched her hand lightly. "I'm sure he is just fine having a daughter,," she told her lightly as she wet her lips a little.

He smiled, "Yes that is the plan, regardless of what anyone says it will go to her; not her husband or her sons but her - in her name," he said lightly, "I'd like to divide my estates evenly between our children should we have more," he said to him. "A son and a spare?" he shook his head, "It's demeaning to the second son doing that, "but she is good with him; he seems quite chunky," he said to him.

She sighed. “You know how my parents are,” She mumbled. “I love Amara, I do but I felt as if I had failed and I still do. I do want to try again, but there’s a worry I won’t make it through a second pregnancy.”

He laughed. “They don’t care, they just want a second son. I’d like a daughter though, to spoil and buy things for.”

He smiled a little, "Well you have to talk to your wife for that to happen," he said to him smiling teasingly. "I'm sure you'd do great with a daughter, amara is going to learn everything a son would - if she so wishes," he said to him.

She sighed a little as she looked at her, "I feel like you'll be okay, my mother had issues birth my sisters, though she never had a son so I don't know why she was so insistent on me having one," she laughed, "eight girls and not one boy,"

Luhan smiles a little. “Alexandra will be happy. So you for what you wanted,” He sighed. “You wanted love and you got it.”

She sighed a little. “Yes But my parents don’t see sense,” She mumbled. “I just want to do something right in my parents eyes. I rebelled so much but it meant so much to me.”

she nodded a little and sighed a little, "I get it, trust me," she murmured lightly, "I wonder how different things would be if I'd ran away," she murmured as she looked at her hands. "If I'd be happier,"

He smiled a little then nodded, "I do, she hasn't said it yet but she cares," he said knowingly.

She sighed. “Well, find happiness in other things. In your son, in yourself, in me,” She snorted. “So what if he’s gonna whine, don’t let his immaturity dictate your happiness. If you want another child, bed him. Why must we wait to be bedded, no do it yourself. I do and I prefer it this way.”

He smiled a little. “You’ve been taking care of her since the incident of her pregnancy then?”

he nodded a little then smiled as he looked at him, "Yes, it's been nice to be close to her,' he said to him.

She snorted a little then sighed, "I look different now, when I'm not clothed, I'm not sure he'd want me," she murmured softly.

“As if in 20 years when they’ve grown fat we are supposed to want them? I mean I guess with feelings that changes but if there are no feelings, you do the deed and leave. That is how that little one came to be isn’t it? Had to pull yourself away from Sehun, just do it again.”

He sighed a little. “Will you want to eat dinner with her? Will we need to join them?”

She nodded a little then sighed, "I suppose," she said as she wet her lips, "I've been ready to be intimate again for the last two months,"

"I figure we could have dinner all together," he told him shrugging a ittle.

"Maybe tonight, you and him share a room? Jongdae and I can say we're renovating," She laughed a little.

He sighed. "If we must," He murmured. "Rather just sit in here and eat with you though," He sighed. "It's been so long, I sort of wish for the days when we were both young and marriage was the last thing on our minds.