Confess on My Wayward Son

I feel like some people are more concerned about what other people do with their lives instead of focusing on themselves. MYOB.

You're a horrid person. I knew you were fucking lying.

No one should get a medal for existing.

Loving my new theme.

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Not so sure about that....

The saddest thing about being a nursing student is that during those last two Sherlock episodes I was able to see straight through the plot with simple critical thinking and once you're past that you see all that's left it really just...made up. I'm glad I only had to experience it twice.

Had someone tell me today they were going to boycott anything I write in future because it's sexist.
Hmm, Okay, My heart bleeds over the fact that I won't have your opinion on my crappy fan fictions.

You face and conquer problems by going head to head with them, You don't pretend they don't exist.
Humans are weak individuals. Go cry elsewhere. While my character and I will strive to actually fight these issues, You'll still be crying on your vlog.
Some friend you are, I don't agree with everything you say, but I still support those because it's your hard work.

I just feel like such a failure, sat here crying like an absolute knob because you have brought out the worst in me, and whatever my brain tried to suppress, you've brought out again. I hate you for it, but at the same time, I want to be there for you. But on the other hand, it's damaging my mental health.

I was in no shape to go in anyway. Honestly I'll be lucky if I make it through today without a meltdown.

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Everything hurts.

Shout out to my friend who:

Can't seem to function without a girlfriend
Used me for support and comfort only because he had no one
Neglected to let the girl he was flirting with know that lolno it's not her
Tears apart the friend group because he needs to get everything he wants

:)

Wonder how that'll work out? My brain's just not functioning today....
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My head hurts now. I'm gonna go watch a movie or something. Playing Mother sounds appeasing to me... but i want to play another game...
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.... Ok....? ....

I fell back asleep this afternoon. That migraine was killing me. I feel so much better now, but I feel so guilty for not accepting the offer to get some overtime.

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I can't believe how strung out I am. I miss faking being happy. I can't even fake it anymore. I'm too tired.

I've been trying to write out an idea but it sounds so stereotypical that I just wanna scrap the entire thing.

I really think I might be pregnant, and I honestly hope I am, even if part of me finds it a bit scary.

I gotta stop being so...obsessive? What he's doing no longer affects you. Yes, his life looks pretty sucky. Yes, he is consistently dragged on social media for his sexist, racist, fatphobic, etc ways...and while you enjoy it, not your monkey, not your circus anymore. You're well aware you're 10000% happier and better off with the way things are now. You just wanna see him suffer. Let it go and let it stay that way.

If you know I'm trying to go back to bed, why don't you leave me alone? coming in here every 2 seconds is just annoying and at this rate I'm probably going to stay up. Barely slept last night as it was. Was up at 3 am and fell back asleep at 330 with terrible nightmares. i'm going to be a ray of sunshine today.

Alright, yeah, that's cool. I mean, I got the answer anyway.

Am I going to be punished? Honestly.

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I over-fucking-slept again. I know exactly what's wrong with me. The question is, how much further until I hit the bottom? Please let it be soon. I wish mental health wasn't such a stigma or considered excuses because you can't really see what's wrong with a person. I wish I could say, without being laughed at, that I'm having a hard time and I'm sorry if my performance isn't up to par.

What a world we live in.

Yep, it turned sappy real quick, but yet I question how can i not feel romantic love irl but here i am, writing all of these romantic scenes and fantasizing about romance for my stories? Sometimes i wonder if something's wrong with me. LOL.
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I want to play Mother 3 but i want to beat Mother 2 (again for the millionth time in my life) before beating Mother 3.
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Why did you appear on this game?! I thought i got rid of you! I will not build your home! Cause you apparently made many girls cry from the first time you've ever appeared in Animal Crossing! So no! Bad mole! go away!
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I wish mother nature would stop making it warm and then making it cold and then warm again and back to cold again.. just stoppp!

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Once therapy starts to not be beneficial, it becomes acceptable to cease treatment. It also holds that once therapy begins to be enough of a financial burden to the point of causing me even more anxiety than my normal life...it becomes an obligation to cease treatment as soon as possible.

His fucking metaphor doesn't even hold. You can barely equate going to the beach to going to listen to an artist who helps you be less fearful of the world that we live in, who had inspired hope in me when I thought I forgot what that feeling was like. So fuck you, once I finish paying this stupid No-Show fee, I'm out. Good job with chasing away a long-term patient.

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I should've not put the ideas in his head. Renting a hotel room for his birthday, planning a trip to Japan...but then I forget about other aspects of life, like Motor Vehicle Registration, or a bullshit $200 fee from your therapist. I feel like I can't go back on my word on these...because he got so excited, and he doesn't deserve to be let down like that. I want these things for myself as well, but I just...hate...being the person who commits a majority of my money towards these things...

What's it like being financially stable? It sounds nice.

You're loud, annoying, and obnoxious. I know you're getting excited about winning money in the stupid card game but shit, turn it down a notch. You're annoying everyone with your loudness and excitement.

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He complains about having no fricking money yet he's sitting there, playing cards for money and losing and then when someone tells him he should be doing his chores around the house, he cries that he's not getting paid so he's not going to do his "job"/chore... um, wtf? Okay, okay okay, i'm not paid to my chores around this house (not that i care cause i'm in no flipping rush to get money or to buy something---save for the new zelda game but that's a luxury and I'm happy with what I have, for now.

She was right, how you raised him is coming back to bite you in the ass.I may want a job but i'm not sitting here crying over not getting paid when I'm a bit lazy about doing my chores soooo... idk what to say other than, karma is a bitch.