Confess on My Wayward Son

It's finally happening for me and it couldn't have come at a better time. Onwards and upwards from here on out.

Seriously. The Coca-cola that T left me has made this ENTIRE work day.

At least James would watch Guardians of the Galaxy with me.
It's so insignificant really, but at the same time it means so much.
You never really cared enough to actually make an effort to see it with me, even after asking so many times, after trying to use it to break the ice between us, after so many months of trying to plan it. And then you watch it without me.
Just another reason why I should've realized how you actually see me.

My focus has been really lacking lately but at least i'm writing, i think.

I'm so fucking tired and I don't know how to find my feet again. I think I would have preferred to disassociate because I don't know what to do with this feeling or how to overcome it. I'm tired of everything.

*eyeroll emoji*

Sooo...are you not gonna tell me when you're free so we can have this date? lol

I hope you're okay. I worry about you. It sounds silly, but ... I care. I don't like to think that maybe things aren't okay. I just want you to be happy.

my neck hurts.... why does my neck hurt? Like it's been hurting off and on for the past week but it's not extremly painful or anything. it just feels sore.

It's officially happened. I've fucking snapped.

TOMORROW IS THE DAY.

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Good bye, Mibba. You were good to me. Made me do things I'd never imagine doing. Made me talk to some of the best people ever (you know who you are). Made me escape the world for a bit. Thank you.

lied. sorry. just a hiatus.

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Yep, it's official, my mind is losing itself...

Please punch me my damn knee is hurting

Can I please stop writing stuff that makes me cry? kthnx universeeeeee
(but no, Im fine with that tbh, just hate crying, haha)

I don't think I've made an impact anywhere. I'm probably going to be stuck in this stupid state for another few years. Won't be able to get my dog. I hope a bus runs me over O'Malley style honestly. I'm done.

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Fuck this job.