Confess on My Wayward Son

biggest pet peeve? When you keep your drinks in the fridge and people think they are allowed to drink them. Nice try buddy, but thats not how it works. maybe next time ask? or just don't touch things that aren't yours.

I wanted you to know ... whatever's going on, I'm here for you. I support you. That's what I do.
I'm worried about you. I want you to be well and happy. And it's all I really want. I just ... hope you know that.

A love for comics and heros was not something that I was lucky enough to be born into. I was traditionally born into music but my parents cultivated me to express what it was that I enjoyed and to never be afraid of doing so. Adam West was my first Batman. It was he who, through excessive camp and bright colors against classic evil-doers, introduced me to the world of heros. Granted, I was never the biggest comic book person in the world as a child but he was the one who introduced me to the fandom, DC being my gateway to Marvel, and allowed me to enjoy it through the ages. I already miss him. i want to put on his series, but i know i'll cry even harder than i did earlier

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The Black Panther trailer should excite me more, it looks great, but I'm just too down to even join in the hype.

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8Tracks now only lets you listen for an hour a week if you don't pay them. BS. lets erect a batsignal in adam's home town and light it every june 10th in memoriam

Orange is the new black got me shook all over again.

You walked out on me, Because you couldnt handle it. You.Walked.Out.On.Me.
I accept your apology, but I can't help but feel like he wouldnt do that. You did.
I'll forgive, but I won't forget.

I've been used all my life. I just want love.

fuck you

Finally in Wiltshire and it's so serene here but I definitely wanna work on some writing.

I've been deaf in one ear for two weeks and I'm terrified to go to the doctor in case he tells me this is permanent. Without hearing my degree is nigh-on useless and I'm so scared that I'll be stuck doing something I hate because of my hearing.

This sucks. This really sucks.

The amount that I've felt masculine this week is particularly ridiculous with all things considered.

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I'm ready to cut my hair short(er than it already is) and dye it black but with a round face I already know how that one ends: as a joke.

And there it is.
Once again.
But will you actually go this time?

For the 5th day in a row. The fifth.

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I'm so sunburnt it's unreal. thank god for aloe.

oh and to anyone that thinks it's gross that i'm not wearing a bra, bite me. it's 90 out and too hot for that shit.

I don't know what you want from me, and to be honest, I'm sick of him telling me that it's not your fault and it's your hormones and whatever. You're not actively seeking help—you're not even considering getting help. I think, whether he wants to admit it or not, you like having an excuse when you do something shitty. You like having a crutch. And it works because, despite the fact that he should have left you by now, he still sits here and defends you because "it's not your fault." Which I'm sure it's no more your fault than it is mine at my worst, but you don't want to fix it and in your reluctance to get help, you're tearing this entire family apart and you know it. Your kids don't want to be around you. How are they supposed to even comprehend that this apparently isn't you when it's literally all that they know and have known for years? You're not trying to fix this and that's the fucking problem. I would be more willing to forgive you for the shit that you do to me if you were trying to be better, but it's not even a consideration to you.

I think maybe it's time...

That awkward moment when you think someone on youtube is trolling just to be trolling but only to find out that that "troll" is just going through a bad time via his youtube video. My thoughts and prayers are with your mom. I hope she gets the surgery or treatment or whatever it is she needs to get better.

Why the fuck am I always working with her? Like dude she's telling everyone that I leave the desk for a long time...when I go use the restroom and shit...like she does the same but I'm not sitting here snitching....

like what the fuck.

exploding boy.:

I've been deaf in one ear for two weeks and I'm terrified to go to the doctor in case he tells me this is permanent. Without hearing my degree is nigh-on useless and I'm so scared that I'll be stuck doing something I hate because of my hearing.

This sucks. This really sucks.

I was born deaf in one ear. *if* it is permanent, you will gradually adapt. I'm just a little hard of hearing. I live like anyone else really. I just might go, "WAT?" a couple times until I realise what you've said.

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I'm not getting any better. I was worried about this. It's only been a month. I can't imagine people who go through illness for much longer, bless their souls.

It's scary.

I finally don't feel like a boy anymore but it's in part due to trauma so yayyyyyy.

Every day is getting harder to bear and it scares me how much I don't want to be here anymore. Will I ever be okay again? I hope so.