If I study enough, maybe I'll forget that I'm hungry.
If I go to sleep, I don't need to eat.
I have two definitive reasons to lose weight. One is to build up my self-esteem again. My old clothes are tight on me for the first time since the beginning of college and it makes me feel disgusting.
The other is so that I can appear attractive to other people and they'll desire me thus making it easier to find a third person and my boyfriend will be happy with me.
And then maybe we'll still send Canada stuff and he'll finally stop giving me shit about my sex life because I won't just be talk anymore. But it could backfire and he could demand more. Idk.
...
Maybe I just want to be enough. He tells me I am but I don't feel like I am with how much he asks me to find a third. But maybe that's just me. I want to be better than his exes who were able to do this for him. I just constantly feel like I'm holding him back from having any fun.
If I go to sleep, I don't need to eat.
I have two definitive reasons to lose weight. One is to build up my self-esteem again. My old clothes are tight on me for the first time since the beginning of college and it makes me feel disgusting.
The other is so that I can appear attractive to other people and they'll desire me thus making it easier to find a third person and my boyfriend will be happy with me.
And then maybe we'll still send Canada stuff and he'll finally stop giving me shit about my sex life because I won't just be talk anymore. But it could backfire and he could demand more. Idk.
...
Maybe I just want to be enough. He tells me I am but I don't feel like I am with how much he asks me to find a third. But maybe that's just me. I want to be better than his exes who were able to do this for him. I just constantly feel like I'm holding him back from having any fun.
June 7th, 2017 at 06:49am