I am a petulant, immature child that takes immense pleasure at knocking you down a notch (unbeknownst to you, but whatever). Maybe that makes me the petty one, but it's all I've got when it comes to you at this point. I want nothing more than for you to burn.I'm wondering if I really need the antidepressants, or if I just need more sleep so that I can be more focused, or maybe I need to practice putting certain things that we've gone over in therapists' sessions to action, like setting boundaries as far as what I need for alone time to recharge/take care of some responsibilities/etc. I really do want to go to another psychiatrist. I'm just too much of a baby to act like an adult.
I wish I could just take away all of your pain and make you feel better and hug you until you're ready to face the world again. I'm so sorry that you have to suffer and there's nothing I can do to help you.
I really do hate the guys I attract and it makes me wonder if there are any good guys out there that are attracted to me. And if there are, they need to be stop being so damn shy or whatever because it really isn't good to leave a girl feeling like she's going to be "forever alone," unwanted, and all those negative feelings.
I'm nervous because this next year of nursing school is going to be really expensive....but it's going to be super worth it. And my mom's going to get me a Littmann.
It makes me so happy that people actually want me around. It feels nice to have friends and people who I actually care about and I can't until the day when I live there and can be around people that I like and that like me.
I'm salty because I used to be best friends with this person, whose birthday is today. She 1. replaced me with my other best friend and 2. is so fake that I can't help but be salty every time her name comes up anywhere. It's sad because she and I are so similar and we've told each other things we've never told anyone else and we even were sure that we were gonna be friends forever (cheesy, I know) but whatever. It is what it is but imma still be salty. Homegirl has my secrets.
I always feel so bad and so guilty whenever I get in one of these moods because I'm aware of the fact that so many people have it worse off in life than I do. Hell, even just out of my friends, I have it the easiest. My best friend just found out her husband's been cheating on her for six months, so their marriage is pretty much dunzo, and my other friend is currently pregnant, still lives at home, and only works part-time. I should feel lucky, I should be happy, but I'm not.
my sister is one of the most ignorant people in the world & i'm not even sorry for saying that. I can't wait until she gets out of that stupid 16 year old phase.
I mean, if you wanna get technical, we're really not dating. But literally the only reason we aren't is because we don't live in the same place. We act like a couple and have talked about the future and might as well be dating because seriously. But I just can't commit to actually saying that we are because of the distance between us and in a way I feel bad about it, but it's also really freeing to know that we're sort of committed by also not.