Taste Of Forever

"We can arrange that," she said to him smiling a little, "When you ate junk god it was awful but you smelled nice so, it outweighed everything."

He shook his head, "You won't grow old with me, I'll grow old and you go one and find someone else," he said to her, "and you don't get to do that... you're mine!" he said to her.

“I wouldn’t go on to find someone else,” She said gently. “I’d follow you, and just stop feeding. I want to be able to spend a life with you, I wouldn’t outlive you by long,”

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He smiled a little. “Do I still smell the same to you? Maybe a little different but do I?” He asked curiously

She nodded,"Yeah you smell the same, just not... as yummy?" she offered as she walked with him out to the car, "It's actually an erotic thing for vampires to feed on one another, don't know if you quite picked up on that yet,"

He closed his yes and pinched the bridge of his nose, "You're so damn stubborn," he muttered, "Turn me," begged her.

He smiled a little. “I notice it more now. First it was a sort of frenzy, all I could do was think of feeding. Now I notice it, the bond feeding has.”

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She looked at him and shook her head. “No.” She said simply. “If you hate me for it, fine. If you don’t want me to do it, go to someone else. I don’t see why living your life with me is such a bad thing. But clearly you don’t want it, clearly it’s not enough. And if that’s not enough maybe forever isn’t either.”

She nodded a little,"Yeah, it's been an adventure to be honest," she said lightly as she wet her lips a little as she pressed her lips to him then nuzzled her face into his neck. "I bought a heating blanket too, one of my favorite things was laying next to you cause you were super warm," she smiled.

He grabbed his clothed pulling them on before slidin his shoes on and walking out the door, he'd do whatever he had to to be turned.

Damarus sighed, sitting on the floor and burying her face into her knees, wondering what he planned to do or if he’d come back.

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He smiled a little, kissing her face. “I like being the same temperature as you now. You aren’t cold anymore.”

She giggled a little as she closed her eyes, "Yeah I remember you bitching when I put my feet on your back," she said to him smirking.

Damarus sat in Anas living room watching as Jaebum cooked in the kitchen and Ana went through her paintings. “I just... I know I’m being unreasonable but just like how you thought Jaebum might not wake up I’m scared he won’t ekther and now he doesn’t want to talk to me.” She said sadly. “I told him I’d live my life with him and not outlive him, but he’s scared I’ll find someone else if he dies, but I would never.”

Jaebum shrugged. “He is scared though of course he’d be afraid of you finding someone else, it’s why he wants it so bad.”

She sighed a little then looked at her, "He is scared, he is probably petrified but the idea of spending eternity with you is so tempting, words are good but actions are better in my experience. Becoming a vampire is very fickle, about 45% of all vampires turn when fed blood and killed. There are more effective methods - the longer they have vampire blood in them and the more of it they have the easier the change will be on them... " she said remembering how she was change it was like flash backs to another world.

"Isaiah fed me his blood for...days, I think it was... four days," she murmured softly, "I wasn't very coherent mind you he'd drugged with opium and a calming oil probably hemp now that I think about it," she said lightly - she remembered how scared she'd been. "Then it was over, and I woke up.. it took me two days to turn,"

She sighed. “I know, that’s why I’m afraid. I have this bad feeling that he might be one to reject it and die, and why risk it when I can have him for his human life?” She said softly.

“It took me just under a day but I had been fed vampire blood days leading up to it. And if that guarantees anything I’d try but you remember Joseph was fed vampire blood for a week before hand and didn’t survive.” She sighed. “But he won’t listen to me he’s so stubborn. He thinks it’s becaue I don’t want him for forever but I do, or that I won’t love him when he’s older.”

"It's not enough for him, and it's not saying.. you're not enough. ... he wants more time," she said to her lightly as she looked at her then at Jaebum, "one life time isn't enough to spend with someone you love, I get it," she murmured lightly then sighed. "I think... despite your fears, you should do it, because he'll do everything in his power to be changed," she told her.

She sighed. “Me do it?” She asked her. “I can’t, I couldn’t kill him. But I’d kill anyone else who tried to as well,” She sighed heavily. “If I could have him forever and it was guaranteed I’d do it. But it’s jot and I’m scared.”

"He could attempt to kill himself, he could go on craigslist as bad as it sounds - there are vampires out there who really want to be a maker but want someone willing..." she sighed a little, "He loves you, I think you should consider it. I didn't have a choice, in turning Jaebum but I wasnt going to because thats what he wanted," the thought of being without him made her feel sick. "My hand was forced in the worst way; don't let him be turned botchedly or be drained by some random,"

She sighed. “He said he would come ask you, I’m just so worried in it going wrong,” She said softly. “I’ll see if I can go find him, I just want more time I don’t see why it has to be immediately.”

"Everything in the modern world is rushed, I remember how things slowed down. In my time most girls started having kids at about 13 or 14, then it changed slowly they got older because began hitting their periods later. Then when you were turned, it was different even more," she said as she thought about it, "between sixteen and twenty to have children, the youngest around 15 now it's uncommon to have kids before 25 but they rush everyone in everything else. Get a job, go to school, date, get married - rush rush rush," she sighed.

"I'm not surprised,"

She sighed, getting up and pulling out her phone to call Yugyeom. “Can we talk?” She asked him, hoping he hadn’t done anything yet.

Jaebum walked over and sat down. “I understand where she’s coming from though,” He said softly. “Because the time is limited it’s more special. I’m happy I’m here but I would have been fine as a human with you.”

"I'm greedy, Jaebum," she murmured lightly, "Life without you would have been miserable," she said to him as she looked at him, she remembered the moment he refused her offer; if she'd been alive her heart would have stopped beating. "I would have definitely ended my life after you passed,"

Yugyeom sighed into the phone, "Sure," he murmured lightly, "Do you want to meet?"

"Can you come home?" She asked softly. "Where are you?" She asked him, getting up and going to her car. She waved over her shoulder at Ana and Jaebum, going out and shutting the door behind him. "Do you want me to pick you up?"

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He nodded a little. "But is it so wrong she wants to do the same with him?" He asked curiously. "You know I love you, I wanted to live my life with you. She wants him to enjoy his life in the way I wanted to. I was furious when you changed me, I only got over it because I love you. She just wants time with him, and it might cut their time short." He shrugged.

Ana sighed a little as she looked at him, "But what about his choice? " she asked lightly, "I get why she is leary I really do but, how is it fair to make him live out a life he'd rather live forever with her?" she felt bad that she'd turned him, should she have just let him die? She shook her head a little then sighed.

He sighed, "I'm at the bridge," he murmured as he looked at the water, he'd be contemplating a lot of things. He planned on asking Ana soon.

She stopped short, fear freezing her where she stood. “What are you doing?” She asked him, breaking out into a run to her car. From where she was she was about ten minutes away but she could cut it to five if she sped. “Yugyeom please don’t do anything wreckless, Please!”

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He sighed. “I suppose I understand where she is coming from. She’s not taking his choice away from him, she just would rather live out like humans, and I don’t see anything wrong with her wanting it.” He explained