Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Schizophrenia

I don't really know how to explain myself, but..... I've been feeling really snappish lately. I've always had an attitude problem, well that's what my parents say, and I feel just down right alone; like my life isn't amounting to anything, and it truly isn't. I'm homeschooled, always since 3rd grade, and I only have one best friend.

I live in a RV park, where there is absolutly no one my age here at all literally.Every friday and saturday some teens pull into the park with there parents for the weekend, but I don't talk to them. I just watch them, and suddenly I feel like shit and I want to cry my eyes out till they bleed.

I feel something is changing in my mood sometimes. I wouldn't call myself depressed, but maybe a slight form of bipolar. I'm just not sure anymore. Sometimes I even have a tired spell where I have to lay down for a half hour or more, but those don't happen too often.

Maybe I'm being a hypochondriac, or I'm going crazy like many of the woman on my father's dad's side.

well- my mom has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and depression.
i also think that i may have depression too...

Is Bipolar I worse than Bipolar II?
Or is it the other way around?

ChemicallyImbalanced:

Is Bipolar I worse than Bipolar II?
Or is it the other way around?

Depends.

I personally think Bipolar I is worse because I've seen my sister and I have the scars still from where she physically attacked me because she was fucked up.

People with Bipolar I are more likely to lash out when they are depressed.
People with Bipolar II are more likely to hide in their rooms.

ChemicallyImbalanced:

Is Bipolar I worse than Bipolar II?
Or is it the other way around?

It's all pretty much subjective, in my opinion.
Bipolar I is radically more vicious and tiresome, considering the extremes of the mania and depression, but Bipolar II also has its own terrible turns. With Bipolar I, the episodes of mania and depression have the possibility of lasting for similar amounts of time. (i.e., 3 weeks). But with Bipolar II, the relief of hypomania is very brief, lasting a few days to maybe a week, and then it's back to a much longer-lasting phase of depression.
If I had choice, I'd rather be diagnosed with Bipolar I, for the sake of the manic highs lasting as long as the depressive lows.

I am Bipolar Type II while my first cousin has Schizophrenia and my other has Bipolar Type I. My mother, father, and sister all suffer from depression.

If you need to know anything about how your home life is effected you can come right to me and I'll be able to tell you all about it. :}

I have depression and have had it for more than two years.

I am on anti-depressants, but I still fear that I have bipolar and/or schizophrenia.

druscilla; fairy.:

ChemicallyImbalanced:

Is Bipolar I worse than Bipolar II?
Or is it the other way around?

Depends.

I personally think Bipolar I is worse because I've seen my sister and I have the scars still from where she physically attacked me because she was fucked up.

People with Bipolar I are more likely to lash out when they are depressed.
People with Bipolar II are more likely to hide in their rooms.

So it's not like one is a more severe case, they are just different versions of the illness?

ChemicallyImbalanced:

druscilla; fairy.:

ChemicallyImbalanced:

Is Bipolar I worse than Bipolar II?
Or is it the other way around?

Depends.

I personally think Bipolar I is worse because I've seen my sister and I have the scars still from where she physically attacked me because she was fucked up.

People with Bipolar I are more likely to lash out when they are depressed.
People with Bipolar II are more likely to hide in their rooms.

So it's not like one is a more severe case, they are just different versions of the illness?

Exactly. One is more manic, the other is more depressive, but they are both bipolar.

My family is chalked full of desspion and Biploar.

On my dad's side my grandpa and my aunt had serious deperssion and so did my dad. My aunt was also Biploar.
On my mom's side my mom is it.
So my mom has to watch me carefully for signs and she thinks I might be Biploar and I might have a mild case of deperssion, and she also thinks I might have Schizophrenia.

My uncle is schizophrenic, and Manic depressive runs in the family, but thats all I know.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder about 6 months ago, but I've been struggling with it for much, much longer. I just didn't get a grasp of what was actually wrong with me until my mom took me to a psychiatrist. My grandmother had it (much worse than me), my uncle has it and my sister has it. I was on medication for a few months, but didn't take it after a month, cuz I figured I was all better. A lot of times I refused to take it. I have a feeling I might have schizophrenic tendencies, but I'm really not sure. I'm seeing another therapist next week and I'll ask about that.

Sometimes it's really horrible. One day i'm happy as can be, then the next day, out of nowhere I'm pissed at everyone and lash out at them, then fall into a really low mood. I hardly ever feel normal. =/ And because of our insurance, I've only been to one therapist, thankfully I'll be seeing another one, soon. I think the worst part is feeling like I have to keep it a secret, because if I tell anyone I'm Bipolar I'm immediately labeled as "crazy."

Oh dear.

(only mood swings, only mood swings, only mood swings, only mood swing...)

This explains me pretty well...=\

Oh dear god.

( They were wrong, they were wrong, they were wrong, they were wrong, they were all wrong...)

I need to talk to my therapist now. =\

My phsyciatrist who perscribes me Adderal (crap) was once telling my mother and I that his co-workers thought I was Bipolar because of my father telling them about my 'mood swings'.

We all agreed he was lying, but...

Nah,. he was lying. I'm a perfectly normal person who lacks several chemicals in my brain.

Nevertheless, I'll see Janice.

( talking to self)

Wednesday Sixx:

I went through an 8-month bout of severe depression, that I hid - with some difficulty - from everyone around me. But I slowly inched out of it, save for my already euphoric-depressed mood swings, which is considered a symptom of bipolar disorder.

My dad and I both display signs of bipolar disorder, but he's too stubborn to get checked out because that would mean he's not perfect.

No one knows what goes on inside my head. Sometimes it's so fucked up.

I had a cousin who was diagnosed with schizophrenia before I was born. He looked at a train schedule, found some tracks, laid down and waited for the train to show up. It was his form of suicide. And it worked.

You want to get checked. I do too.

I have been told that I have Bipolar Disorder--I think Biploar NOS--and, according to my discharge papers from the hospital (because the results were either that I was abusing drugs/alcohol or that I was schizophrenic), I might have schizophrenia. On top of Panic disorder and Psychosis NOS (according to my discharge papers from another hospital.)

^ That is a bit much...

I'm terrified of my children getting these from me.
Because it will happen. I just know it will.
My daughters will have depression or Bipolar.
My sons could develop schizophrenia in their twenties.
It scares me.
My mom cries when she thinks about everything my sister and I have been through because she blames herself for giving us the disease.
I know I'll be the same way.

druscilla; drink me.:

I'm terrified of my children getting these from me.
Because it will happen. I just know it will.
My daughters will have depression or Bipolar.
My sons could develop schizophrenia in their twenties.
It scares me.
My mom cries when she thinks about everything my sister and I have been through because she blames herself for giving us the disease.
I know I'll be the same way.

Adopt?
Or consider egg donors.