I feel like... I'm drowning. In a pool of sucking water. Everytime something goes wrong, I go deeper. & when I try to get back up, it just keeps sucking me in... no way of getting out. I am sick & tired of everyones attitudes toward me. I'm just sick of everyone. So from now on there is going to be a new Laura. & not a good one. I'm not taking anyone's shit no more. I'm just done with...

Wow, I haven't been on this thing in forever. Well, a lot has happened, & I have growed up a lot since last year. I went through love, pin, suffering, loss, & gain. But I have found myself. I'm in the big high school now, & it is different. I have had my friends get me through everything, & my best friend. I love my friends & I wouldn't change them for anything <3 I still...

I lost my best friend. She is gone and out of my life now. I lost her in that split second and I can't do anything about it. I was stupid. She was stupid. But now she is pissed off at me. I am crying all the time now thinking...what just happened? I think about it everday how it could have gone down differently. She has been my best friend for 10 years...and now she is gone. Gone, gone gone, GONE!...

I am better. I mean the scars are still there but i haven't.....you know. I feel better because i quit. But somewhere inside me still wants to. I have to fight the urge and get back on my life and not do what i use to do. I still have the all of the stress in my life that i can't handle on my own. Somebody help me. And i mean one of my friends that i know. nd if you are just going to get all...

I don't know what has come of me. I have so much stress in my life right now. And now i did this. It's there. I know it. I can see it. I can feel it. But, something inside of me, i just can't seem to stop it. I need professional help. NO! I can't do that. My parents would start asking questions. They would want to know what is wrong with me. I can't let them know about what is happening to me....

School is okay, but my mom is going in to school with the people on Monday so they can solve the problem with Mr. Conway. I am so sick of him i just want to rip his head off. But, i am going to stay in the class even though i do not like him. I will solve the problem. Anyway, my friend is moving and i am really sad! So, a lot of my friends are making a suprise party for her....like a farewell...

Today...well i am having a suprise party for my uncle. (shhh! surprise) lol And it is going to be really fun. Yesterday (i know tht the title is called "Today" but get over it) Yesterday was the school dance was really fun! That was the best night of my life!! hahahaha This girl danced like she was tring to impress somebody but everybody just ended up laughing at her, haha Then me and my bitches...

Today, i can say, was an okay day. In math we changed seats and now i don't sit beside him anymore. I am really sad. Now i am sitting besides the biggest jers in the class. Whatever. In 11th period Mr, Reck was getting all mad at me, katie, and shawn for goffoing off and laughing very loud. Well, shawn is apparently very funny and annoying and its funny!! haha Well, then i went home and did some...

Today, i guess was a normal day. I went into breakfast...sat down for a minute until Kirsten grabbed me out and we went to first priority. I went to my regular classes until lunch came and Desteny looked mad or something. So she said she did not feel well. Autumn looked like she was all pissed off at me. She just said she was tired. The rest of the day was boring. i was late for Chorus because i...

I went to the counselers office and she said that she is going to talk to him. To change the subject...i went to the doctor's and they said i am fine. I just need to lose a LOT of weight and they gave me this whole thing of losing it. I am really happy. I went to school and when i went into Earth Science...i now sit beside this guy that i really like. But today i just couldn't look at him for some...

He is finally going to get it. The teacher found him picking on me. I am so sick of his amature shit. Why the fuck does he think he can just think that i am his own personal punching bag? I am not used for that kind of crap. I don't feel bad for that asshole. Not one bit. Maybe he has a horrible life at home but that dosen't mean that he can't change it by himself. I just want to punch him in the...

Why is my life so horrible? I have all of the things that i want...i have friends, family, and everything else that a lot of people don't have. And i STILL dont have a decent life. I wish that i could just be normal and what i wish that i am not. UGHH! I need to beat somebody up and i think i know who it is. I just wish i could run away with all of the people that i love and care about. I would...