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@ Lyra
Okay, sorry for taking so long to get back to you. I think I started to write you back and then the message was lost. Because I remember reading this already. But ugh. Okay.

But that sounds horrible. Lol. I really don’t want to see that. Hahaha

Oh that would be fun! I can imagine it’s fun to visit here. I mean, there’s always something to do. Most of the time. Unless you’re stuck out here in the middle of nowhere. Hahaha.

Oh my gosh. That sounds horrible. That actually made me feel kind of sick. That scares the crap out of me with Milo. Like he likes to play outside and he knows he’s not allowed to go up the stairs. But he goes up there anyway because he follows my dad. And I just have this horrible fear that one day he’s going to go tumbling down those stairs or fall off the deck. It freaks me out.

But that’s amazing! It’s good that it was caught so early. I mean, it’s sad that he fell out the window. But it’s good that he’s okay. And yeah, that’s a lot of really weird coincidences. (I totes believe in ghosts.)

Sorry! I did it again! I’ve been super busy and then I forgot. I had your message open on a tab so I wouldn’t forget but my computer shut down for an update without my permission (it likes to do that when I leave the room so I can’t say no) and then it was gone and I forgot. Oy.

IT’S TOO CUTE FOR THIS WORLD! I just saw a picture of him on Tumblr not five minutes ago and I squealed over that goddamn smile. Sebastian’s smile too! Lord have mercy. I know this is probably weird but I want to bite that man so bad. Hahaha. I have never wanted to bite anyone before in my life but if I got one night with Sebastian Stan he would leave the next morning covered in bite marks and I would have no regrets about that at all. CUTE SMILES EVERYWHERE!

Oh that’s horrible! I would be livid actually! I can totally understand being upset over that. Milo’s only in preschool but I haven’t had to deal with anything like that yet. I was actually kind of worried they were going to try to pin autism on him just because he’s behind in speech development. I’m not saying autism isn’t very real and diagnosis isn’t important. But I’d already had amateurs try to tell me they know he’s autistic because of blah blah reasons. But it’s usually just people who think they know shit. Professionals have never said that. But they were always really cool about asking me before they did anything with him. They did a few developmental tests and he’s exactly where he should be. His one and only setback is his speech and they did a hearing test (which he failed but he had a sinus infection so they have to do it again to know for sure) but instead of just like shoving a label down his throat they tried to help him with his speech and he got so much better just with the short time he was with them. So I’m really grateful for that program.

Aw. ^.^ My dad is… I don’t know. He has an abusive personality. He’s never gotten physically abusive toward me. But definitely emotionally and verbally abusive. Likes to make threats and punch walls and then blame you for breaking his hand. I just ugh… Soon.

I have a hard time hanging up anyway. Lol. I don’t know how to do it. I hate talking on the phone and on Skype. Just message me and we’ll be good because I won’t feel as guilty when I say I have to leave and disappear. Me and my sister have this bad habit of saying goodbye for like twenty minutes. Like those cliché teen romance things. “You hang up first.” “No, you hang up first.” That’s us. Every damn time. And one time I actually hung up on her first and she called me back and was like “I can’t believe you hung up on me.” And then the cycle started all over again.

I have not heard it actually. I need to listen to it because I still want to go see him in September but it’s looking more and more like that’s not going to happen. :/

All history is relevant, brah. Lol. And it is super interesting. I like history. But not in like a weird historian way. I don’t know how to explain it because it bores me at the same time. But that’s probably because I grew up in America where we’re taught the same thing over and over and over and never learn anything new. Which is also probably why I find Irish history so fascinating. It’s NEW FOR GOD’S SAKE! Lol.

Yay! Oh I saw that! I still have that up too so I can read it. I didn’t lose that one. Lol. No worries! :D

I know. This story is taking so fucking long. I got 19 chapters done already but I think I’m going to go back and try to flesh them out more before continuing because Bucky started to get weirdly like old Bucky. He got a little snarkier and cockier than I intended. Which isn’t necessarily like a bad thing. It just wasn’t what I wanted him to be like in his first few chapters back. I wanted there to be more angst and sappiness and he just kind of annoyed Jo a little bit and made her get snappy and I was like “What are you guys doing? This is not what I had in mind. Stop it.” So I'm going to try and fix that and then let him get gradually more snarky and cocky.

But yay! Did you go to London already? I’m assuming you did. But I saw your post that you were accidentally a week off. But I think you did anyway. *Narrows eyes and thinks* I don’t know. I am so lost. I don’t even know what day it is. Lol.

Lololololol. Yay!

I'm glad you liked it! It turns out that I forgot I had rewritten the intro. This wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Hahaha. But I'm glad you like it. And I definitely feel the different vibe too! And really the only thing that's changed in the first chapter is that it's in California now, they're in Rick's childhood house, and I elaborated more on how the move affected Ruby emotionally. But it completely changed the vibe. Lol.

But I'm glad you're excited! I am too. :D

Hello, thank-you so much for your comment on Dawn! =)

Thanks for your comment :D

Thanks for your comment (: I'm glad you enjoyed reading my story!

Thank you for the comment on The Pie Hole. Im glad you like it.

@ Indigo Umbrella
I watched it, and it's just...porn that tries to be 'artistic'. Not worth your viewing, trust me.

I wanna come to America though. My aunt lived in Florida for years, and if it wasn't for her fiancée marrying someone else behind her back, she'd still be there. I wanna go to Florida, or LA. My plan now, for the moment, is to save up money, then when I'm 30, take a long vacation in the States and just travel.

He's fine. He was 2 when it happened. We were all in the sitting room, bar my mother, when my little brother got up and walked out of the room. We always followed him when he wandered, because he liked to go upstairs into my bedroom, and he had a habit of climbing on my bed and trying to mess with the window, but my mom was in the kitchen so we assumed he went into the kitchen. It was honestly the one time someone wasn't with him. Anyway, my mom comes into the room 10 minutes later, asking if we can hear a child crying. It was one of those moments of realisations, when we were all like 'we thought Cian was with you". I race upstairs, go into my room and see the window is wide open. It was the worse feeling in the world , and to this day I don't think I've ever felt such fear in my life. I run back downstairs, just in time to see the back door opening, and my little brother is standing there, on the doorstep bawling his eyes out, with his arms wide open for my mom to pick him up. He's brought to hospital, where they x-ray him, but everything seems fine and he got away with nothing more than a bruised backside. The strange thing was that we had just gotten part of the garden cemented earlier that year, he should have hit the pavement, but somehow the bins weren't in their normal place at the side of the house. One just happened to be left below the bedroom window, so instead of hitting cement, he bounced off the bin and landed on the grass. The story doesn't end there, either. Two days later, my uncle was in the hospital collecting something. He just happens to overhear a doctor asking why there was no contact information for 'Cian blah blah' who came in with his father after a fall., because he needs to get in contact. My uncle then tells them that he thinks they mean his nephew, and he rings my dad and my bro is brought back to hospital. Apparently, after rechecking his xray, they saw a problem with his hip, and he was diagnosed with Perthes Disease, which is basically a problem with the thigh/hip joint, which can lead to stunted growth and a need for hip replacement later in life. It doesn't normally get diagnosed until the child is 9/10 and they've already done a lot of preventable damage to it. Because we found out when he was so young, he was kept away from sports and stuff, and he is now in the clear. His hip/thigh joint seems to be perfectly normal now. I don't believe in in ghosts or spirits or whatever, but that story almost makes me wonder if I'm wrong. The bin just happened to be left in the wrong place, my uncle just happened to be in the hospital at the right time. He's completely fine now.

Lol. I actually thought maybe I hadn't hit the reply button on my comment, and I was wondering if I should repost it on your profile just in case!

Aaaww, no need to thank me for saying something that's true!

Oh GOD, Frank's smile is the number one smile in my books. I just...words can't describe what it does to me. How can a smile be so cute, adorable, and yet sexy. I don't know how he does it in the one smile. God, I just...I can't even...and Sebastian Stan's smile too, yes...and Ryan Gosling... And Fassbender...Ugh!

That school sounds awesome. Actually, Cian's school were good for providing services since it's a disadvantaged school, but the special needs teacher went behind my parent's back to refer my brother to get tested for Aspergers.They referred him, then told my parents. They convinced my parents he had it, and my mom was near hysterical because she wondered how she couldn't see the symptoms before and had all this guilt. The school said he had no friends, but when my parents told them he has friends outside of school, they basically called my mom a liar and said she was in denial. When the guy came to the school to observe him, the school didn't notify my parents until the day before, when the guy had sent my parents a letter like, a month beforehand which they school didn't know about. They basically wanted the extra funding, so they were pushing for him to get a diagnosis. He was diagnosed with anxiety, but he understands humour and sarcasm, and social convention, and his lack of interaction is purely down to being anxious and he obviously doesn't have it. My parents were furious about the whole thing. The school handled it so badly, and if they had sat down and conferred with my parents,instead of telling my parents 'your son has a problem, and if you don't immediately agree you're an awful parent' my parents wouldn't have been so upset and frightened. Anyway, that went off tangent, but that really upset me, because issues like that have to be handled sensitively.

I just wanna give you a hug I never got men who have to put women down like that. You're an amazing creative person, and for your dad to try and make you feel less than that says a lot about him. He's got serious dependency/control issues, and self esteem as well if he has to keep people down in order to keep them around. I really, really hope you find a way to get your own car or find someone who's willing to help you get around. You don't deserve to put up with that shit.

Yeah, Skype can be like that alright. Whenever I talk to my friend in London, we're on it for hours. It's tough to just hang up when you can see the person you're talking to and it's like they're in the room with you.

:( me too. Did you hear Frank's new song, actually? It's pretty good.

In fairness, Irish history isn't relevant to anyone outside Ireland and the UK. Which is a shame, because as I've already stated, it's so interesting. To me, anyway. And it's so recent, too.

I hope so, lol. I'm gonna start getting it together in the next month I think, I have two stories finishing in the next few weeks so I can start working on it then. Oh, I posted my first Frank story yesterday! I'm still working on the one shot. I keep on getting distracted :-/

It's cool, I wanna see it in good quality. I just hate waiting :( I wanna see Bucky!

OMG, I can't wait. Seriously. Tomorrow week I'm away! EEEEPPPPP!!!!

Oh, okay I see. Oh okay. Yeah, I’ve never heard of it and I probably wouldn’t want to watch it, tbh. Lol.

I would say “Come to America” but we’re all dicks. Landscape can be pretty. But people are shitty. *Shrugs*

Oh man. That sounds horrible. Jeez, is your brother okay? Lol. Dang son. You too?! Lol.

It’s really really frightening actually. Aw, psh. Thanks. ^.^

No worries! I’ve been taking forever replying too. I’m just super busy all the time and can’t catch a break for anything. I’m actually writing this one small section at a time. Hahaha.

RIGHT! Frank too. Oh my lord. I should actually add to my list. I keep forgetting that Sebastian Stan needs to be on there. Because good lord that is a great smile too!

Me too! Ugh. My dad is such a dillhole.

That’s another thing I loved about Milo’s school. They were always like “Okay, you’re the one who knows your child best. We’ll do tests if you ask for them. But if you think he needs something you need to tell us.” They were very interested in my opinion. And they didn’t do anything without asking me first. I mean like, they wouldn’t even put sunblock on him until I okayed it with them first.

My dad won’t drive me anywhere unless it benefits him. And 90% of the time, he won’t even if it does. We haven’t gone grocery shopping in a month and we were fucking starving. And so finally I made him take me shopping yesterday. We stayed in the store for a total of 10 minutes. He “didn’t want to stay long.” So I could only grab a few essentials before we had to leave. We still don’t have enough food.

The thing about my dad is that he likes control and I have always been the easiest of his children to control. Therefore I was never taught how to drive or how to survive without help. I know how to cook and clean and he makes sure that I know that is all I am good for. When we were living in our other place and I told him I planned to move out, he freaked out and told me that I was leaving him to take care of everything by himself and that he would die and/or be homeless if I left. I had to hide the number for the women’s shelter in my clothes, because he once kicked me out and wouldn’t let me take my phone. I had to be sneaky about my plans to move out because he would immediately lose his mind over it. I couldn’t apply for low-income housing because he was the only person willing to give me a ride anywhere. :/

To be honest, it is a miracle that he’s letting me take the loft. However, he has also already made it clear that he has access to my apartment any time he wants it and that he has the power to evict me if I don’t do as he says. So my plan is only to stay there until I DO qualify for low-income housing. Then I’m out. Because once you're on the list it takes like a year before they get you settled.

I hate when that happens! And dude, I feel that deep in my bones. Lol. I once had people rooting for my characters (who were cousins) to get together, rather than the character’s intended (and perfectly nice) love interest. I was like “No, stop that. Don’t. That is not the direction I wanted this story to take.” Hahaha. I think I’m getting the hang of it now. I’m just taking it really slow. Only about 4 chapter still. But I’m at least satisfied with those chapters, and I wasn’t before. So that’s better. But ommigosh. Stop it, you. *Blushes*

Yeah, we love Skype. The only problem is that when people Skype me we end up talking for like 4 hours at a time. Sometimes more. And like, I got shit to do. My sister does that a lot too and I’ll get like her trying to call me and Milo’s dad trying in the same day and I’m like “Okay, five minutes. I have work to do.” Nope. Five hours passes before we hang up. Lol.

I hope so too. I miss those buttheads.

Oh, I see. I knew there was a difference between Northern Ireland and the rest of Ireland, but I didn’t know much about it. No, I’m totally interested in it! We just never learned this stuff in school. But the US has like the worst school system ever. We never learn about anything that doesn’t pertain to us, and most of the time we don’t even learn about the shit that does.

No! Don’t be like that! Lol. I’m very patient and understanding. Lol. Do whatcha gotta do.

Aw, I’m sorry! I would send you the link to watch it but it’s super bad quality. *Impatient dance*

Oh I saw your blog about that! That’s so exciting! Yay!

@ Indigo Umbrella
By banned I mean it wasn't in cinemas and it wasn't available on vhs/dvd. It was probably illegal to own a copy of it, I imagine. One year, in college for a huge project, myself and a group of people organised an event where we showed previously banned movies. We let people vote on it, then showed the top three, which happened to be a clockwork orange, from dusk til dawn and life of Brian. I love all those movies, though Clockwork does indeed fuck with your head, and it's a hard watch. Nine Songs is basically a porno with some semblance of a plot. It's about a couple's relationship, represented by nine songs. There was real sex in it, hence why it was banned here. It's a British film, so maybe that's why you haven't heard of it.

You should! At the end of the day, I might give out about certain things, but I love being Irish.

It was. I remember it happening, and what hurt the worse was when the put my foot into a bucket of ice. That was when I really starting screaming. And ouch, that sounds sore too. I've gotten oven burns but thankfully there were all very minor. My younger brother once put his hand on a still hot kitchen hob, when he was about two. The whole palm of his hand turned into one big blister, poor thing. He also fell out of a first story window. I also fell off a table and split my chin open the same year that my foot got burned, and I also have a scar from when my older brother hit me with a sharp end of a rusty pipe. I still have a scar right on my forehead from that :-/

I think that's what would frighten me if I ever became a parent. Like, nobody is perfect, and everyone has flaws, and all you can do is hope that your children don't hate you for them. As long as you give them shelter, food, clothes and love, you're doing good, I think. I also doubt your son will ever hate you. You love him, and you're taking care of him. You're doing better than a lot of parents out there. You sounds like an awesome mom, and your son is lucky to have such a wonderful mother.

Everyone does have one of those stories, indeed. Ugh, I could live without the stuff, really. I was at a hen at the weekend (hence the delay in writing back) and now my hands are broken out with psoriasis because of the amount of drinking we did. Stupid alcohol.

I LOVE that smile. Seriously. There is nothing more drool worthy than a guy with a nice smile. It's why I love Frank so much. When you see a picture of him smiling, I just get all "I want your baby". Same with McAvoy. Oh, and Ewan McGregor...and I better stop before I go on another list. But yeah, McAvoy is ssssssooooooo cute, sweet and adorable!!!!

I hope you get moving in soon!

Doctors don't take mother's seriously a lot of the time. They just think you're over reacting, but mother's know when something is wrong with their child. Nobody would know better that their child is in pain or not being themselves than their own mother.

*Shakes head* I don't get why your dad wouldn't drive you so you can get a bit of extra help. I know my dad complains when we ask for for lifts, but he still does it. And why would your dad be angry over you signing up for low income housing? What's there to be mad about?

That's a total creative killer, when you know readers have expectations or you're just plain concious that people are reading. One story I wrote, I had the majority of people rooting for the main character to end up with another character, and for ages it threw me off and made me doubt of the ending would be well received. I thought about changing the end because of it, but then I realised it was my story, and eventually I'd be pissed if I didn't stick to my original idea. I'm glad I stuck with the original end now. I just made myself realise that as much as I want to mae the readers happy, the story was mine, it came from my mind, and that I write for me. Just forget about the readers, which is easier said than done, but that's the probably the way to go. Also, you could never bore or disappoint your readers. Don't even try to pretend that you don't know what an awesome writer you are!

You mentioned that about your mom before, I can't imagine how painful that was If she cant see how amazing you are, you're better off. But she was totally right to keep your sister away from someone like that. That's what parenting is about. You put your child's interest at heart and do what's right for them. I think it's great that Milo gets to talk to his dad like that. Skype is brilliant, when my sister lived in South Korea for a year it was great to have it so that I could see she was okay.

I agree. I think it was more about not having that pressure to get back together within a certain time frame. I remember reading or watching an interview one time, and it was something Gerard said about the Black Parade becoming so big, and I think it killed the band for him. That level of fame was not something they wanted. I got the impression from that interview that if TBP hadn't been so successful, they'd still be together now. I think they'll give it a few years, let the hype around them calm down and then come back. There's a lot of people who liked the band to be 'in' with a crowd, and once MCR stop being so relevant, a lot of them will disappear and then they'll regroup. I hope so anyway.

Sorry, I suck at explaining it.


If you look at the map, you can see where Northern Ireland is, and that's part of the UK. The rest is a different country. I live on the border, so we saw a lot of action with the IRA, a military group who basically want the island as one nation. I love our history, it's so fascinating and yet nobody outside Ireland knows about it even though it's so interesting.

And now I feel the pressure, knowing you're going to read it! *squeals*

-_- If I didn't like you so much, I'd hate you right now. I have to wait another month before it's out on dvd. :'(

Oh, oh, OH! did I mention I'm going to London Thursday week? Because I totally am. For 4 days. EEEEEEPPPPPP!!!!!

Thanks so much for your comment, really appreciate the feedback! So glad you're enjoying it.

Oh yeah. They take it to the extreme. I mean, like I said, some of them don’t even eat chocolate. Hahaha. It’s too sensual. That’s so funny. Oh my god. I knew Life of Brian was banned. I didn’t know that about the Holy Grail though. I fucking love Monty Python though. A Clockwork Orange fucked with my head a lot, so I can kind of see that. From Dusk til Dawn though. Lol. But what do you mean by banned exactly? Like you can’t access the movie at all? Because Human Centipede never hit theaters here. I don’t think I even know what 9 Songs is though.

Oh I see. I would still like to visit Ireland. I mean, I’m not turned away. Hahaha. Politics are flawed. That’s to be expected.

Oh dude, that sounds horrible. That’s really the only bad burn I’ve had aside from an oven burn I had once as a kid. Because I was really interested in cooking from a young age. Lol. And my mom never let me cook but my godmother decided to let me make dinner because she actually encouraged that. And I made this honey glazed chicken that was super good. And I burned the back of my hand on the oven door. But she had aloe plants in her yard and it cleared right up.

Oh yeah, I remember you telling me about that. :/ That’s why being a parent scares the shit out of me. Because I’m just like, “Which one of my flaws is going to be the one that fucks him up? Which one is he going to hate me for as an adult?” *Sigh.* It bothers me because I just want him to be happy and I know he’s going to have to deal with the difficulties of life. ^.^ Lol. Thanks. It’s alright. I learned from it. So that’s all that matters.

Oh man. Lol. Sorry for laughing. But everyone has a story with this one specific type of alcohol (usually tequila, haha) that just fucked them up. That’s horrible though. That’s another reason I don’t like drinking. I hate feeling like that.

He is cute! I love his smile. Like I found this gif and I was just like “Yes, you’re the one I choose.”

He just has like a crazy cute smile. It’s amazing.

Nothing yet. :/ They’re going to put in new washers and dryers soon. And then they can start working on the plumbing in my place. My dad still says it’ll be done before summer is over, but we haven’t made a move yet.

Yeah, that’s what bothers me! Because I don’t take him to the doctor every single time it happens. So they’re not seeing how frequently it happens. And I tell them it’s happening frequently and they’re just like, “Oh, he’s fine.” No, I’m his mother and I’m telling you something is up. Do some more fucking tests. I’m going to do that next time we take him in for sure.

Well, that’s good. I think it gets abused a lot here. Like there are people who are trying to make them start drug testing people before giving them food stamps. Which sounds good in theory but for a lot of people that’s the only way their kids eat. Because all their money goes for drugs and they have this extra money that feeds their children. But at the same time there are a lot of people who will “sell” their food stamps for real money. Because they don’t charge you taxes on food you buy with food stamps. So those people will give other people the cash for it. And it just makes me sad. But it wouldn’t really affect me at all if they did that policy because I don’t have anything in my system. But yeah, $300 never lasts us the whole month. And Milo’s school gave me a bunch of resources. But I can never get my dad’s help with it. Like there are places and churches that give out food boxes. But you have to go and sign up for them and do meetings and interviews and stuff. And my dad straight up won’t do any of that shit. And I can only do what my dad allows me to do or takes me to until I get my own car. And I know they have places that help you pay the rent. Like low income housing and stuff. But I can’t sign up for that stuff online. I have to go into their building and do it. And I didn’t want my dad to know that’s what I was doing because I knew he’d be mad about it. I’m just lucky that I’m getting this loft here. So I’m betting on that now. Before I was just completely trapped.

Hahaha. You’re fine! Stop. Lol.

I think I pinpointed the problem today. I think it’s because I’m super worried about what other people will think. When I wrote Monster I just wrote it just for me. And I didn’t really intend to publish it until it was already finished. But since I KNOW that other people are going to read the sequel it’s just making me really nervous. And I can’t stop thinking about how I’m going to bore people or disappoint people. And I need to somehow work through that. I just need to figure out a way to tell myself that it’s for me and no one is going to see it but me. And not worry about timeframes or disappointing anyone. Ugh.

That’s good that your mom is like that. My mom did a lot of horrible things but I’m just being really bitter because she broke my heart. I adored my mom for 27 years before that happened. I know that she made a lot of mistakes and didn’t do as good as she could, and I blame her for a lot of my problems. But there are things that she did that I admire. And that’s one of them. She did, however, keep my sister from her father. But I don’t blame her for that because he was abusive and beat the shit out of both me and my mother when my sister was a baby. She put her own life at risk to get us away from him and so I stand by her decision to keep my sister from him 100%. But it’s different when your life and the lives of your children are at stake.

He actually talks to his dad a lot. Like I talk to him daily because he’s my best friend. And we Skype all of the time so he can see his dad. Milo loves his dad a lot and I’m really glad that he’s the kind of man who will always put his son first. I knew that he was when we met and he made a lot of mistakes too but he definitely loves his son and intends to be part of his life.

And that’s really really hard for a kid to go through. I mean, I was 27 when my mom told me she didn’t want me and that eats at me every single day. Being rejected by a parent is one of the hardest fucking things to deal with and I can’t imagine why you would ever want to put your kid through that. Even if my husband straight up didn’t want my son and didn’t acknowledge him, I would NEVER tell him that his dad didn’t love him.

Same here. I think it’s likely. Like Gerard said, he didn’t want to use the word “hiatus” because there would always be this push to get back together. But breaking it off left them with the freedom they wanted and the option to go back to it. And since they’re all still friends and have relatively good relationships. I think it’s a very real possibility. They just gotta do it in their own time.

D: Yeah, you totally lost me there. I know nothing about Irish history and this is fascinating!

Yay! I’m excited to see what you come up with!

Yeah, there’s gonna be a lot of sad. I just went to see the movie again because it’s at the discount theater and my brother was like “Were you serious about wanting to see it again?” And I was like “HELL TO THE YESS TAKE ME NOW!” So we went to see it (on Steve Rogers’ birthday, no less) and… I just… my feelings… I love this movie so much… I just can’t handle it.

@ Indigo Umbrella
Yeah, I knew the Mormons were anti-drink, but I had no idea that they were so against caffeine. I know they believe in not putting toxins in your body and stuff, but that's a bit far. Oh, speaking of chocolate, I heard that it's illegal for a woman to eat chocolate on a bus here. Apparently it was too risqué and sexually provocative. It's still in law, though nobody would use it, but still, it's crazy. You mentioned the concert ban before, which is nuts. Ireland used to be very strict and conservative as well back in the old days, and even at that, drink was never banned. The entire country would go into detox, lol. In terms of film and literature, we were very conservative and banned a load of stuff. Monty Python's life of Brian was banned, and the Holy Grail movie too, for being blasphemous. A Clockwork Orange and From Dusk til Dawn were banned too. They're not now, a new guy took over the censorship board who has a bit more common sense, though we still very occasionally ban stuff. '9 Songs' and 'The Human Centipede 2' are banned here, but otherwise it's all good. In terms of women's rights we're not so bad here if you discount the whole 'no abortion unless you're dying' thing which only came into law in the last few months, though it should have come in over 20 years ago. No government wanted to touch it, as here the main voters are 60+, who tend to be very conservative. It won't be until my generation are older that it'll change. Gay rights have come a long way here in the last 21 years since homosexuality was decriminalised in '93. We have civil partnership, which is almost the same as marriage, just aside from the adoption issue. We're having a referendum on it next year, which I'm certain will pass, so then they'll be able to adopt. Overall we're not a bad country to live in, and a lot of the old conservative ways are being forgotten about. Religion in schools is still an issue, but I believe that will change in the next decade or so. The government are trying to get the church out of schools, and they want to be out of the schools too, but the land belongs to the church so it's not as simple as them giving the schools to the state.

Ugh, that stuff is so outdated. Wtf? There's no room for that kind of thinking in this day and age.

You feel my pain then! I only had one burn that was worse, which was when I got scalded by tea on my foot when I was five. At my uncle's wedding. I couldn't wear shoes for 2 weeks until they were certain the tea in the blister (which was pretty big) had cooled down enough so that I wouldn't get scalded further. Burns suck.

Some parents just aren't good at at the guiding part. For me, I get on well with my parents, but my dad did pretty much abandon us at one point. His gambling got really bad, and we had no food at some points. They never encouraged us in terms of schooling or getting us into activities and stuff. Not that they were bad parents at all, but no parent is prefect. Like you, I would've been the type that needed a guiding hand, but I didn't get that so I didn't try in school. I didn't get into trouble so, I was left to it. I may have said it before, but I'm sorry your parents were so sucky

Damn, that was bad! No wonder you can't stand them. I'm like that with tequila. One night, I went to a house party after being in a pub. I don't know how many drinks I had, but I'd say it was around 4 or 5. I go to the party, and there's a bottle of tequila. I take the bottle, and a cocktail someone handed me. I then take a shot of tequila, gulp of cocktail, shot of tequila, gulp of cocktail, five times in a row, in less then five minutes. I ended up crying in front of everyone, though I didn't black out. Now, I cannot even smell the stuff without my stomach heaving. Any cocktail with tequila in it is a no-no for me. I'd vomit if I took the stuff now.

I don't get drunk much, I should clarify. I really don't. And drugs aren't my thing either. I once had my aunt give out shit to me for not getting drunk once, because I won't get drunk if I'm not in the mood, and sometimes I just can't drink. It's rare that I get past tipsy, because I have a weak ass stomach. I can't drink more than 2 pints of cider or my stomach cramps, and if I don't eat, I can't drink or I'll get sick or just get cramps.

Ah, I never read that one. I never read any of your A7X, actually, which I regret as I read AZX now. But yay to James McEvoy face claim. He's so cute!!!

Hopefully you'll get your place soon! How are things looking on that front? Any progress?

You think they would be a bit more concerned, but you definitely need to demand they run more tests and figure it out. Doctors sometimes think they're infallible, and occasionally need to be reminded that they're dealing with a human being.

It's not abused often though, and if you abuse it and get caught, you are prosecuted. It's a good system though, and I wouldn't change it. It's a lot better than what most other countries have, and that's a good thing. $300 isn't an awful lot for a month, that's ridiculous, really. Is there no sort of information office that can give you a list of places that will help? There must be some way of finding out, like a government agency or website. That sucks that you're in that situation.

Yeah, it makes sense, but then again, you had to explain it to me, thus emphasising my point, lol.

Don't take too long of a break if you're worried about motivation, but even just a few days makes wonders. You can stress yourself too much by concentrating on the one thing for too long. But I'm glad you realise what was bogging you down, so it should be easier once you step back a bit and then get stuck into it again!

My parents separated briefly, but my mother never once tried to stop my dad from seeing us. We were a bit older anyway so she couldn't have stopped us, really, but she never tried to turn us against him or dissuade us from seeing him. She was good like that, even though she was angry at him since what he did was really shitty. They're back together, and she's never fully forgiven him for leaving like that, but she never once tried to make us hate him or anything. She wanted him involved. And your dad's second baby mama sounds like a bitch who needed to grow up and be the bigger person. That's great that you make an effort and you and your husband are able to deal with custody stuff rationally like that. Even if he isn't seeing him much now, the fact that the door is there makes a big difference to your son. Like, a friend of my little brother, whose dad happens to be my ex's brother, was told that his dad didn't love or want him. She took his kids away from him, and in fairness she may have had a legitimate reason to resent him, but now those kids are hurt and messed up because they think he didn't want them, which isn't the truth. She took them, breaking a legal custody agreement, and now they never see their dad. It's horrible to see kids in pain like that. No one should think their parent doesn't love them.

I still hope too. I hope that like, in 10 years, once they've had a break and done their own things, they'll gravitate back together. I really, really, hope so.

I can see how it's confusing though, because of Northern Ireland. It's one island, but two separate countries. Well, the North (which is 6 counties) is a dominion of GB, and as such is a part of the UK. But the rest of the island (which is 26 counties) is a separate country. When you hear 'Republic of Ireland', that's the 26 counties that aren't a part of the UK, and we're a country in our own right. The civil war was basically over the partitioning of the country in the treaty that was signed. It's confusing to someone who doesn't live here, so I forgive your ignorance!

Aw, thank you. I may take you up on that! Now I'm genuinely excited about doing the idea. I just have to plan it out more, since at the moment, everything is in my head in a bunch of scenes, as opposed to a coherent story. But once I get down to proper planning, and get a linear story figured out, I can get stuck into writing!

Oh, that sounds really like my sister's natural colour, rather than my mom and little bro. Her hair was quite dark, but it had a really strong auburn hint in it, and it looked red in the sun. I didn't get that, unfortunately. My hair is dark, though I get blondish highlights in the summer. I'd love to have a red tint to my hair, it's so pretty when you see it on others!

Eeeeppppp!!!!! Yup yup, I'm definitely excited for this one. Most definitely. It's gonna be so sad, but so awesome too!

Separation of church and state is still something that people have a hard time grasping here though. I mean since there’s still such a huge battle going on for gay rights and women’s reproductive rights. Women’s rights in general. Their arguments about both of these things are that it’s not biblically or morally right. And in some states, like Idaho and Utah, the entire state is run by one religious group (Mormons) and the laws surrounding buying and consuming alcohol are just obnoxious. They were even trying to ban caffeinated sodas at one point. Did successfully ban music concerts for a while. And there are stupid ass laws too like here it’s illegal to give someone more than 15 pounds of chocolate as a gift. That sounds ridiculous. But it’s because Mormon’s are strictly against caffeine and 15 pounds of chocolate would hold a significant amount of it. They’re so fucking stupid. But then there’s other states like… shit, I can’t remember which state it is, but it’s illegal for a woman to get her haircut without her husband’s permission. And that goes back to a religious thing. It’s bullshit. Oy, that sounds tedious though. Lol.

And see, I’m not even a skirt wearer and I am 100% against ankle length skirts! Lol. My step-sister once went to a school that had ankle length skirts in their uniforms and she HATED it. But it was a Christian school that her dad put her in. And their whole community is like that. Women can’t show anything above the ankle and can’t wear pants. They can’t watch TV. They can’t do this. Can’t do that. :/

Lol. Oh my gosh! I’m so sorry. I understand that pain so much. When we moved out here from California it was the middle of summer so it was really hot and our car didn’t have an air conditioner. So I spent the ride with my arm out the window. It ended up taking us two days because our car kept overheating and we had to pull over a lot. So when we finally got to Idaho I had one burnt arm. Just the one. And only up to like halfway up my arm. And it stayed off colored for like a fucking year too. Hahaha.

Yeah, my parents are very big pot heads. And in some ways it was cool because it kept me from getting into trouble. I only ever smoked it at home or with friends. Never bought my own, so therefore never got busted. And I just sort of burnt myself out of it. It was easily accessible and therefore it lost that “fun” of rebelliousness. But at the same time it was kind of shitty because I ended up putting my entire life on a backburner and I just genuinely needed someone to guide me in the right direction. I needed to have someone tell me what to do. And my parents just didn’t care enough to be bothered. :/

Damn son! Lol. I thought I could handle my alcohol but I’d probably be dead if I tried all that! My dad’s favorite drink is Jagerbombs. And I used to like them in the olden days. But one time I got so shitfaced drunk that I actually blacked out and woke up the next morning at home in bed, with the worst hangover in the world, and I had no idea how I’d even got there. I was covered from head to toe in scratches, bruises, and soot. There were leaves and twigs in my hair and I was like “What the fuck happened?” It was an all girl party so I wasn’t too concerned. But it turns out I tripped and fell into a fire pit? And then I proceeded to barf until I fell over, which is how I got the scrapes on my face. I’m glad I don’t remember that. But I was so violently ill for the next day that even the scent of Jager or Redbull just makes me want to hurl.

See? Yeah. That’s how it was with the Jager. But otherwise, I’ve never really done any drugs. I don’t like the feeling of not having control over my own body. So I try to stay way from anything that will affect me that way. Including alcohol. But I will drink if I’m around people I know. Although I rarely drink to get drunk anymore.

I’m working on Sat Beneath an Orange Sky! It was a Zacky Vengeance fic. But it’s not anymore. Now the faceclaim is James McAvoy because he’s a cutie patootie. I was working on Chasing Cars but I got stuck. So I moved onto something else.

I should! I don’t have a TV but once I get my own place I’ll probably get one. And I think my Wii is in storage still, so I can set that up for him. He’d like it. We can play Mario Kart. :D

Yeah, poor baby. :( I hate that he has to deal with it. And next time he goes to the doctor I’m going to tell them to run more tests. Because normal people don’t get sick that often. If he has acid reflux disease we can help him. But every time we go into the doctor they’re just like “He’s just sick. Give him some antacids and he’ll be fine.” Like they’re not even concerned at how often this happens.

Oh that’s cool! I can see how that would be abused though. Still, I’d like if we had something like that here. We do have Welfare and foodstamps and stuff like that. Like I’m on Foodstamps. But they just give you $300 for food each month and we end up hungry at the end of the month because food is so expensive. And everyone keeps telling me there are resources for single moms to help me get on my feet but literally no one knows where these resources are. My only option at this point would be to go to a women’s shelter. But even then, I don’t really know how that will go down. So I’m saving it for an emergency. :/

Lol. Nah, it doesn’t always mean that. I mean like… sharper minded people just seem generally more intuitive? Not necessarily book smart or focused. Just that you have a better understanding of yourself and your surroundings than others. If that makes sense? And you sound pretty sharp to me, so shush.

Lol. I think I figured it out. It was just moving too slowly for me with nothing happening. I can still do the build up without having to write down every single action and moment. And so I rewrote the second chapter and now I’m just fleshing it out. It seems to be working better this way. I might do that though. I’m just afraid of losing my ideas or motivation for this one. But I’ve been switching back and forth, so hopefully that gives me the break I need to get those chapters worked out.

That’s exactly how I feel. One thing my mom did right was that she never tried to keep me from my dad. She always let me see him, always allowed him to be part of my life, she let me build up my own opinion of him. And that’s something that his second baby mama never did. Just from the start she was always at war with him and her kids hated my dad growing up. But now they’re both adults and they realize what their mother did to them. And now they both talk to my dad regularly. So it totally backfired for her. But I could never understand why she was like that. She played the victim constantly and talked about how my dad abandoned her to go have a family with someone else. And I was like “What the fuck does that make me then?” Because I’m the oldest. My dad ditched me and my mom for her. But you know, I had a good relationship with him because of my mom and so I didn’t count. Stupid people. And me and my husband talked about this a lot when we separated. And he was so afraid for like the first year that I was going to take Milo from him or not allow him to see him at all. But it’s never been like that. We both know that Milo is better off with me and he is more than welcome to be an active part of his life. When I was in California I even let him take Milo for a whole week. And I wanted to die without him. But I think that’s when he finally realized that I had no intention of taking Milo away from him. I want him to be there for my son. And he wants to be there. So we work together. *Shrugs*

Yeah, that might explain it too. That was a really great show. It was way too crowded and we couldn’t breathe because we were packed in so tightly. But we were right there in front of the stage and it was perfect. *Sighs wistfully* I still have hope! Hope in my soul!

Haha. See I wasn’t sure if it was like “Do they not like being referred to as part of Great Britain or the UK? Or is it both? Fuck!” But now I know. I will keep that in mind. Don’t make me squirm! Lol. It was an honest mistake! All the more reason for the history lessons! Lol.

You SHOULD. I can totally be your beta. That way you can have some good old American ignorance to tell you what information we don’t know. Which is pretty much all/most of it. But it sounds super cool and you should do it. I’m totally serious. I will help with my ignorance of Irish history. Lol.

Fuck yeah. That’s rad. Copper. There you go. That’s it. It’s not gingery red. Just dark brown with red undertones that come all holyfire alive under direct sunlight.

That’s the chapter I just fixed! Like that was originally going to be like chapter 4. But I changed it to chapter 2 and he basically just comes to see her. And, I don’t know how obvious this will be, but the whole reason he gets back in touch with his mutant lady friend from his story, is because he’s asking her to help Jo. And then he gets her in touch with Clint, who also helps. And he leaves her with Bucky’s dogtags. *Sad face*

I’m so excited too! But I’m excited for the later parts and the beginning is just not hurrying fast enough. Lol.

@ Indigo Umbrella
Yeah, as much as I like the US, sometimes I just think some of the laws are just insane. The one thing I admire is the separation of church and state, something we really didn't have here. I probably already mentioned how the vast majority of our schools (as in, 90% or something) are run by the religious orders and catholic initiation ceremonies are part of the curriculum. Constitutionally, the church has a 'special place' in our country. Our constitution also states that a woman's place is in the home and no woman should be forced to work. This was written in the 1930s, and it's still there, although it's ignored, mainly out of shame I imagine. We can't change our constitution unless we have a referendum, and nobody wants to remind people of that. It's also why the EU gets pissed with us, because any time they want to change treaties, we have to vote on it, unlike the other countries and everything has to be an unanimous agreement in the EU. So, if we're pissed at our government and a EU referendum comes up, we vote no and then the EU gets pissed at our government, lol.

No, they're not too bad, granted. The new ones are awful, though. Hideous, even. I almost feel bad for any future daughters I may have, having to wear that kind of uniform. It's not right. No one should be subjected to ankle length skirts. Ever.

Genetics are a strange thing. And that burn sounds painful, no wonder it ruined your holiday. I once got sunburned really badly, and the redness did not die down for weeks, seriously, and the pain was unbelievable. I was left with a tanned upper arm for over a year, too. You could see the difference in skin tone, and the worse part was, that this happened weeks before my leaving cert. I met an old friend who I hadn't spoken to in years, and we literally stood in the middle of the street talking for two hours, and it was a rare sunny day as occasionally May can get a few nice days over here. We part ways after 2 hours of talking, and I manage to secure a date to what we call the 'Debs' ball, which is basically what you call prom, which was in August. I didn't have any guy friends so I had been legitimately freaking out that I would go alone. I mean, I knew no guys whatsoever. (The result of going to an all-girl's school from the age of 8. I firmly disagree with gender segregation in terms of schooling and I would not still suffer from anxiety when it comes to dealing with the men if I'd gone to a co-ed school). So, this was in May when I got burned, and when the Debs came about in August, I had to get my arms tanned because the difference in skin tone was really noticeable. My upper right arm was still a little red in colour, while the rest of me was pale ass white. So, so bad.

I find it strange to think of a parent being that free with weed. If I had kids, I don't think I would have a problem with them doing weed as long as they were being safe about it, but I couldn't see myself giving them weed, either. I am quite relaxed about weed though, as long as your not going to drive or something. I've had it enough times and I really don't see much harm in it as long as your staying in and just lazing about. I'd feel hypocritical having any other attitude, and I wouldn't berate my kids over smoking it if I caught them, but I don't know if I would hand it to them either. I didn't do anything as a teenager, though I've made up for it since. I'm not a heavy drinker for the most part, but if I'm out, I can drink a lot if the occasion calls for it. One night, I had nine vodkas and red bull, a vodka and blackcurrent, an alco-pop called smirnoff ice, and a glass of champagne in like, a four hour period. Oh, and a shot of tequila, too. I ended up on the bathroom floor of a nightclub, completely wasted. Jagerbombs are my thing now if I'm out to get drunk. I have dabbled with drugs as well, but only on a handful of occasions, and I was always with people I knew really well, so it was in a safe environment and honestly, it was fun but I would never go out of my way to try it. Last time was in March, and I don't remember a thing from about an hour after I took the stuff. So, from 11.30 pm say, to 8.30 am, I have exactly three flashes of memories and I remember nothing else. I woke up with bruises, and that scared me a little so I don't see myself doing it again. There was no point in it, although I'm not gonna lie and say I didn't have a good time. I know I had a great time, but not remembering shit, even when you know you were looked after and at a party where you knew everybody and had a good time talking to people, it's not how I want to spend my nights out.

Oh, eepp! *Does happy dance* can I ask which one your working on? And yay for Monster sequel!!!!!

You should invest in game consoles then. It would be a shame to let his genius go to waste!

Oh, I've heard of Acid Reflux, it sounds nasty. Poor thing, he's so young to be suffering from that. At least the antacids are easy to get, and relatively cheap. Still, poor wee pet!

It's similar enough here too. Those in the lower socio-economic bracket tend to stay there. We have council estates here, and that's when you really notice it. The children raised in those estates tend to go to what we call a 'Disadvantaged' school which are always located next to these estates. They are the 8% that don't finish school in this country. You see the family cycle of teenage pregnancy from one generation to the next, and parents and their children are living in council houses in the same estate, and then you also see families where generations stay on social welfare. We're lucky that we have a relatively good welfare system here. You get money if you're unemployed, and you also get a medical card which pays for medical expenses, on top of a council house or rent allowance so rent a place while you're waiting for a house. If you have a child you get something called 'children's allowance', irrespective of how much you earn. And it's great, it really is. The only problem is the cycle of unemployment which can happen, since some people are better staying on welfare than working, because they'll lose benefits. It's rare that it happens, and the government are taking steps to curb it. But it is hard to move out of the bracket you're born into.

Oh, now I feel better. Though, I'm not sure if I have a sharp mind so I don't know how accurate that it. I'm way too easily distracted, and sometimes I'm just slow. Like, someone will say something and I just won't get it. Then they have to spell it out like I'm an idiot, and then I get it. It's gotten worse with age too, sadly.

How can it be boring? It's Bucky. But no, seriously, I get that. Strip away what you must, but as a reader, I cannot object to extra Bucky, even if it's unnecessary. Maybe you should take a break for a day or two from it and work on something else? I know that helps me when I start getting frustrated like that. You wrote the story in one block almost, and you've been concentrating on the same characters without a break. That's why one of my stories haven't been updated in forever. I spent over a year writing about the same set of characters, and while I loved them, I needed to take a break. I would update it now, but I want to finish another story first which only has two chapters left. Then, I'll pick it back up, get it done and rewrite the two stories I took down, which are the sequels to the story I stopped updating. That's the other reason why I haven't updated, actually. I need to finalise what changes I'm gonna make to them first, then I can get back into it.

I never got why you would want to cause your child so much unhappiness by keeping them from their father for no reason. Not to get all Judge Judy like, but you chose him as the father of your kid (by deciding to have consensual sex with him which could lead to the possibility of pregnancy), you chose to have to deal with him for the next 18 years. I'm only talking about cases where it's just bitterness on the mother's part. Obviously there are cases when it's legitimate to not have him involved, but pettiness or bitterness is not one of them. It's not just the father you hurt, it's your child/children too, and any woman who would willingly do that to their child should not be a mother. Children are not property or pawns to be used to settle scores.

Aaww, that sucks. Now that I think of it, the reason bands don't hang around here is probably because they don't have their tour bus when they come here. They play at a venue, then go to their hotel. They might just fly their equipment over, rather than lugging a tour bus around for one gig on a ship for one gig, especially since Ireland tends to the last stop of a European tour, or a UK tour. Damn :-/ I would have loved to have seen them in a small venue. Both times I saw them they were in an arena, and even the smaller venues used by international bands tend to be big enough in a way that they're not personal at all. The only exception was Ben Folds Five, who were in a venue that was tiny, but it was one of the best gigs ever since they were right there in front of us. That was cool. I would give an arm and a leg to have seen MCR in that kind of venue.

At least now you know for certain. Never mistake an Irish person for a British person, ever, to say Ireland is part of Britian. Unless you want a lecture on how we were declared independence from 1922 and all that jazz. It's fun to watch a person squirm though when you act offended by it.

Really? Now I kinda want to do it. ::tehee: The idea only came to me about a week ago, and now it's all I can think about. I don't know what inspired it to think of it now, but I'm just figuring out the plot and where the story is going to go and stuff. It's be tough in a way though, because I'd need to make sure that I don't put in stuff that non-Irish people won't get. That's not the kind of thing I want to turn people off reading. But it's basically be centred around a woman and two brothers who get involved in the Irish rebellion, and then the fall out from the treaty which split the country in two, and they find themselves on opposite sides of the cause then.

I can't say for certain, but the French red is more auburn than ginger as far as I know. All I know is that the auburn in my family is from my French great x 6/7 grandmother. I would imagine that's where you got it from, it sounds similar enough to my mam and brother. Their hair is a chestnut kind of auburn, but once it's in the sun, it's pure red. Not in the ginger way, but it's pure...copper, is the best description.

Aaww, I'm glad I could help! I felt bad not liking Steve, because I do love him! I love the Steve who understood Jo and believed in her and her abilities, so yay!!!! Have I told you how much I'm looking forward to the sequel btw? Because I really am, in case I forgot to mention it.

Yeah, they pretty much hand out guns to whoever the hell wants one here. :/ Yeah, I’m going to have a talk with him about it before he starts though anyway. Just so he knows how dangerous it is and that even if he’s playing around and trying to mess with his teachers (which he does. And he has once run out toward the street in an attempt to play with me) that he will get hurt and he needs to stay far far away from the road unless he’s with me.

Well, those aren’t too bad. But then again, I can’t judge because I never had to wear them. Lol. I would not be able to handle an ankle length skirt though. Fuck that shit.

There is absolutely no evening out in my genetics and I have no idea why this happened. Because my mother is naturally darker skinned, my father is white but he tans great. And then there’s me. White ass fucking pasty kid. And I burn. Oh god do I burn. My mom grew up in Hawaii and she was naturally darker skinned so she never had to deal with people who burn as much as I do. And my sister's father had lighter skin than mine, and yet my sister came out with nicely naturally tanned skin too. So like we would go camping and shit and my mom would forget to bring sunblock for white ass willy. And then within an hour of being outside I’d be covered lobster red. One time that happened and she didn’t bring sunblock because the campground said they had a lot of shade. Well, they lied. There was absolutely 0 shade. Period. And so the very first day we were there I got a sunburn so bad that I had blisters all over my back and it ruined the whole trip because I couldn’t move. It was horrible.

Same here. Like I did drink when I had the opportunity. But that was rare. And I did smoke a lot of pot, but that was my mom’s fault because I usually only smoked it with her. Otherwise I never did shit as a teenager. I didn’t even write fan fictions then. I didn’t do a goddamn thing. But then I reached a point where I decided I didn’t want anything to do with that stuff anymore. Like there was just no point? And so I haven’t smoked weed since. And I rarely drink. The last time I got drunk it was kind of an accident because I was offered a rum and coke, which is super lightweight, only it ended up being Bacardi 151 rum, which is like lighter fluid. So I got pretty toasted. Hahaha.

Lol. I miss them. I wish I wasn’t so busy with all my stuff. I need to get to work on them again. Gar. But! I’m currently editing one of my old fan fics. So that should be done fairly quickly. I’m switching back and forth between that and the Monster sequel since I can’t get myself to focus on that one for more than a few paragraphs at a time. It’s driving me crazy.

RIGHT? We don’t have any video games really though. Just my tablet, which is barely alive at the moment.

He’s much better. I made my dad get him some medicine and it worked like a charm. He had a really bad intestinal infection at one point and so now he gets like acid reflux really bad. And so he gets sick a lot and throws up. But then I just give him some antacid medicine and BOOM it’s gone. Just like that.

Yeah, kind of! I mean, it just says I didn’t go through the motions and finish high school like everyone else. But I took a test and TESTED out of high school. So at the same time it also means that I was already beyond a high school learning level and there would have been no reason for me to stay anyway. But everyone here just thinks it’s the lazy way out. Yeah, the US, I don’t know. Some people can have great jobs without having a degree. Like my aunt. But then there are people who did go to college, like my dad, and can’t get a job for shit. We live in a country where if you’re poor you pretty much stay poor for the rest of your life, regardless of how skilled you are. Obviously there are some instances where people somehow push through and become financially successful. But it’s rare. And I was already born on the bottom so getting to a place where I’m “comfortable” financially, is going to take a hell of a lot of work.

Maybe I should get a stress ball. It’s just digital though. I just can’t figure it out. Hopefully that changes in the future because I haven’t been doing it long. But everyone I talked to says you’re supposed to make quick lines and that’s how they’re so straight. And I can’t do that. Period. So they end up all ~ and it drives me nuts. Messy handwriting is also apparently an indicator of a sharp mind though, so there’s that. Lol.

Oh god. It’s just dragging along. I’m thinking I might cut a great deal of it out because it’s taking so long for anything to happen and the build up isn’t entirely necessary. But it’s just boring to me and I can’t get myself to work on it. Ugh.

That’s fucking horrible! It just makes me angry that there are even people like that! I would probably never see any of my siblings if that were the case here. My brother and sister’s mom has done everything she can to keep my dad away from his kids since fucking birth. She’s a horrible woman and she would abuse that so badly.

Lol. Yeah! They did Smooth Criminal too, which was really good. And they’re a good band. Or at least they were. I don’t think they’re together anymore. But I would have liked to meet them without there being so much screaming. They were a local band. Like I could have run into them at the grocery store. I was not enthused enough to scream at them. I’ve never been to a meet and greet either. :( Each time I’ve gone to a concert something has happened to prevent that. Like when I saw MCR the first time it was at the Long Beach arena, and that was the day they got their gold records for Revenge, which you can actually see in the Life on the Murder Scene DVD. So they didn’t come out to talk to anyone because they were getting their records. I was very sad. And then the second time I saw them it was so goddamn cold and such a small venue that they didn’t even leave the stage and come back for their encore. Gerard was like, “We’re just going to give you our encore now because if we leave the stage we’ll have to go outside and we don’t want to die of shock.” So they played their last song, left, and went immediately to their bus. Which I stood by for a while just in case they came out. But they were like “Fuck that. It’s too cold.” So we went home. :(

See, I heard that. But I wasn’t entirely sure. :X Well that… general part of the world… I mean then. Lol.

I would totes read that though. History is rad. And I don’t know a lot about Ireland, obviously, so I would love to read it. You should do it!

Is auburn hair a French trait? Because that would make a lot of sense if it was. I have auburn hair. It’s dark though. But I mean, when I’m in the sun it’s like “POW RED UNDERTONES GALORE!” Hey, that’s freaking awesome! I love history lessons. Now worries.

Lol. I’m glad you brought that up though because I actually ended up writing a chapter in the sequel where Steve is going out of his way to help her. And I probably would not have written that chapter if you hadn’t of said anything. Because I am on the other side of this story and so I didn’t realize how Steve was coming off. This chapter will definitely fix that. I hope. And I’m glad you liked it! :D

@ Indigo Umbrella
It baffles me that people are targeting children now. I mean, sending your child to school is scary enough in itself without that too. The whole gun thing baffles me though. We have violence here of course, but never in schools and only farmers have guns (not counting gangs which have illegal guns). I just think it's crazy to have widespread gun access, it could never lead to anything good. Every time I hear of another shooting, I'm just thankful I live in a country where guns are petty much illegal. I've never seen a school that has a yard without a fence, wall or gates here. Is it a funding thing or something, maybe? I don't blame you for not looking forward to it. Milo sounds like a really smart kid though, I'm sure he understands not to go near roads so at least there's that.

Uniforms here are hideous for the most part. They've changed the style of uniforms for girls in recent years actually over here. When I was in school, the skirts were knee length, and 99% of girls would roll them up a little. Actually. here's a picture from the school I went to here. That's what I had to wear, which is a pretty standard uniform. Now, almost every school has changed their skirt to an ankle length skirt, with a jumper, open neck shirt and no tie. I don't like it actually, though I can see why they did it. Some girls would roll their skirt to mid thigh length, which is a bit much. Hogwarts is a nice one, actually. I wouldn't have minded that, actually.

My mom is really freckly and pale, while my dad is actually quite tanned. The two evened out for me, so I'm pale but I don't really freckle. I don't burn too easily, thankfully, but I still don't like being out in the sun for too long. It feels unnatural!

Me neither, actually. I was a quiet, introverted teenager who didn't get into trouble. I was more interested in reading and writing HP fan fics then drinking or smoking. My parents were strict enough on me though, in comparison to my older bro and sister, who did drink and do weed and probably other stuff too. I was the only one who wasn't interested in that stuff, and yet they made sure I wasn't allowed out. I've pointed that out to my mother many a time lol. My dad did by me a few drinks when I was underage, but to be honest it's almost socially acceptable to drink at 17 here. When you're in final year of secondary school, most of your class go out to nightclubs and drink with full parental knowledge. We do have a bad attitude to drink here though.

I can't wait to start reading them again. Jett's story is probably my fave out of the three though...though I do love the others. I just love Aasha. She's the kind of teenager I wish I was, lol.

He's a prodigy in the making! You must harness that talent, don't let it go to waste! Imagine what he could do with it!

Aaawww, poor little pet. I hope he's better today. It sucks when their sick, though I have noticed that they're far cuddlier when sick. They just want hugs and cuddles when they're sick, poor things.

I don't get that either. I mean, a GED sounds like harder work, not an easy way out from what I understand. You think employers would respect a person going back to get their education more. Here, it's just the leaving cert which you can go back and do at any time. Plus, if your over 23, you can apply to a college as a mature student and the points can be lower, or if you have relevant experience you can still get a place. In saying that, if you don't have a leaving cert here and you're under 50, it's impossible to get a job. Very few people drop out here, I think we have the one of the highest rates for people completing basic education (by which I mean finishing secondary school) in Europe, it's somewhere in the 90s. It was different for my parent's generation, as a lot of them finished after three years of secondary school, then did courses or apprenticeships like my dad. Now, for my generation, if you don't have a leaving cert, you can say goodbye to any job that isn't minimum wage. Plus, to be honest, we have a lot of people who to to college, so the basic standard for a halfway decent job, like a clerical working or a post office job, is a third level qualification. Very few people here don't go on to some kind of third level course, as we have free third level education. It sounds great in theory, but now its impossible to get a job in the current climate as everybody has a degree.

I have no idea why it is. It probably gets their imagination going more, as it's more surreal and filled with images they don't see day to day, so it's explorative in a way. I'm guessing. My mom loves reminding me that I was an awful toddler. I pulled tantrums, cried a lot and stuff. Basically, I embarrassed her wherever we went up until I was five. My siblings were saints by comparison. Then, when it came to teenage years, I was the only one who didn't cause trouble or stress. Go figure!

Even when I try to neat, my writing is messy. A teacher of mine once told me it was probably to do with weak muscles in my hand. Stress balls are a good way of building muscle strength in the hands, apparently. Don't even get me started on straight lines...even rulers can't make me draw one. True story.

Eeep, how is the sequel going so far? Is it good? Awesome? Fantastic? I bet it is...I wanna read it!

That story was like, back in the 50s or something though. That wouldn't happen now but yeah, it's a major, major problem here. A father can be taken to court, made to pay child support and then because the mother doesn't want him involved, he doesn't get to see them. Someone told me once that apparently, if you kick up a fuss every time the father picks up the child, just throw a completely hissy fit that gets the child upset, you can go to court and say 'because I'M getting upset over the father seeing them, I want visitation rights taken away', you can stop him from seeing his children. Seriously. Then on the other hand a mother who abuses her children has to be taken to court TWICE to get her kids taken away. Mother's are untouchable here, and rarely get their children taken off them, even when it's legitimate. If it was a single father on the other hand, guaranteed it wouldn't be nearly as long to get them into care. I know a guy who got married, because since he was an unwed father,he wasn't the child's mother next of kin, and because of that, the grandparents had as much a chance of getting guardianship if she died as he did. In saying that, if it had gone to court I really doubt it would have happened, but the fact is that it could have gone to court. Crazy stuff.

It counts. It SO counts. It doesn't matter that you don't remember. You have photo evidence. And I've heard of AAF, I know the cover they did and that song 'Movies', which I quite like, actually. Now, it's in my mind. Kerrang used to play it all the time, lol. That's awesome though, I've never gotten any kind of opportunity to meet or talk to a celebrity. Any bands that come here tend not to do meet and greets, or hang around venues and stuff. Most of them are wrecked as they're on the last leg of a European tour, so they probably just go back to their hotels or whatever. Which sucks.

Ireland has a pretty bad history with Britain, and a lot of Irish people get iffy if people say we're in Great Britain. We had a war of independence and stuff, of which the 100th anniversary of the beginning of the war is coming up in like, two years, so it's still pretty recent in terms of history when you think about it. Like, my dad hates it if he's abroad and get's mistaken for an English person. He gets really pissed off about it. I actually want to write a story based around the Irish war actually, it was a pretty nasty war of independence, and when we signed a treaty with Britain, we then had a civil war over it which divided families over the terms. From 1916 to 1922 it was just a war zone. We didn't have big battles though, it was all guerilla warfare and espionage and stuff. Anyway, I have a story in my mind and I would love to write it, which maybe a fan fic because in my mind I picture Gerard and Mikey as the two brothers, though I'd probably just have them as face claims, and change their surnames into something more Irish. I just wouldn't be sure if the interest would be there, since it'd be based on Irish history which nobody outside Ireland knows about, really. Even in Britain, they don't mention it in history class apparently, which is weird since they occupied the country for like, 800 years. But yeah, overall the history of Ireland, and the history of Britain are both really interesting. I know I have a French connection on my mother's side of the family, it's where the auburn hair my mom and brother have comes from apparently. French history, or at least the rebellion, was really interesting. I forget what I learned about it, but I know it was interesting at the time. War stuff in general I find interesting. My two favourite periods in history is the Irish War and WWII. But yeah, having a town named after your family name is pretty cool. Actually, my family surname is the name of the family that used to rule the area I live in back in the days where Ireland was divided into kingdoms. My family used to rule my home town, and the surrounding area, which is pretty cool. I'm part of royalty, lol. We never left! And no worries, I just gave you a history lesson, lol.

Okay, I feel a bit better. I didn't like not liking Steve. He's redeemed now though, so we're all good. Oh, and yeah, my feels. Every time I think you can't damage them more, you somehow manage to make them feel again. That last chapter was just...ugh, poor Bucky. He's so lost, and so is Jo, and I just wanna give everyone a big hug. Brilliant chapter, and I can't wait for the epilogue!

It scares the shit out of me. Especially now that there are people actually targeting small children. I mean, it was already terrible when high schools were being shot up. But that was usually other students. Now it’s grown ass men coming in and shooting a bunch of little children. And I wish I lived in a place that was less weapon friendly. California wasn’t so bad because people generally didn’t carry guns. Idaho is horrible. Everyone and their mother has a gun and there are tons and tons of completely unstable people who have guns. And they’re putting my kid in a school that doesn’t even have a fucking fence. And yeah! Most schools do have fences. And the fucking middle schools have fences here. But not the elementary school? Where the kids are obviously more likely to run off toward the street? At least in my elementary school the kindergarten playground was completely separate from the other kids, so that they could keep better watch on the smaller children. Nope. This school they’re going to have my kid out there in a playground with no fence and one or two people watching. I'm not looking forward to it.

Yeah, I always forget the ugly uniforms. Hahaha. I’m always thinking like “Hogwarts” uniforms. Those are rad. Lololololol.

Yep! Hahaha. I think I get it from my dad. He has the amazing ability to tan, which I lack completely, but he’s the whitest of the white. And I got my freckles from him. So it’s safe to say he’s also responsible for my paleness and red face.

I hope so. :)

It’s also difficult for me to write a rebellious child, because I have no experience with that. Lol. I was a really good kid aside from getting bad grades. But my parents also let me do whatever the fuck I wanted. So I never really got in trouble for anything like drinking or smoking pot. Mostly because my parents provided me with that shit. :/

They’re my babies. *Pets them* I really need to get back to their stories because I am so excited for Jett and Aasha’s story. And Diamond’s… All of them because Pearl has some shit coming up too. Ommigod.

I know! *Sobs*

He’s crazy good at games. It kind of freaks me out a little bit. Lol. I can definitely try! But he’s really stubborn. Hahaha.

Yeah kids, man. *Shakes head* I can usually handle most of that stuff as long as it’s not morning. Unless they’ve been doing it all day. There are some times where I’ve just had enough because it’s just been day after day after day of constant whining and I just want a break. But he was sick today. So he’s been really sweet and cuddly. Poor baby.

I don’t know either. Thinking about it makes my brain hurt. Lol. But that’s so freaking awesome. Here literally everything you’ve ever done in school affects college. Like if you got held back a grade in first grade (like I did) that shit marks you negatively for college. So even though I’m going to college and I’m determined to graduate with the highest GPA, I’m still going to have to explain to employers why I didn’t graduate high school and got my GED instead. They legitimately won’t care that I passed with a 98%. Meaning out of every group of 100 graduating high school seniors there are only TWO OF THEM with higher grades than me. 98% IN THE ENTIRE COUNTRY. That doesn’t matter. I still took the easy way out and I will pay for it for the rest of my life. -_- I hate this system.

That’s so weird though. Because what about animation draws them in? Like why would my 5 year old rather watch a cartoon aimed towards adults than a live show aimed toward children? It’s just weird to me. Yeah, he’s pretty smart. And he’s actually really well behaved. And I always forget about that because I see him all the time. But when I’m around other children I’m just like “My child is a saint.”

I can’t sew either. And nah, my hands do that shit to me all the time too. My handwriting is really shitty unless I’m trying hard to make it not shitty. Lol. And drawing is hard because I can’t get straight lines for shit. When I have a pencil I can usually make them LOOK straight by adding more lines. Lol. But I’m trying digital now and I cannot make straight lines for anything. It’s driving me absolutely fucking crazy. I also can’t get the hang of painting. I just want my markers back. Ha.

THAT MAKES ME SO ANGRY! It’s a lot like that here too though, with parental rights. They usually always side with the mother unless there’s something really terrible going on with her. But I mean, they don’t take children away from widowed fathers. That shit is bull.

Yay! I hope it works out. I’m sure you’ll get your mojo for that chapter going again. I understand that completely. I am doing the same thing right now with this Monster sequel. Ugh.

Lol. I was like 3 so I don’t remember it and I don’t think it counts! I was very unimpressed by Mel Gibson. I almost met a band called Alien Ant Farm once! I don’t know if you’ve heard of them because they’re a local band and the only song they did that ever went anywhere was a Michael Jackson cover. But I was at a local show in California and they showed up to support the bands. And they were standing right next to me and my cousin. So they came out and we were like “Oh hey, how’s it going?” and were going to talk to them. But then a bunch of screaming fan girls jumped in the way and we were like “Nah, fuck that.” And left.

Oh, that’s super interesting! I’ve always pronounced it “Gay-lick” in my head so I’m glad I did something right because I’m pretty sure I can’t pronounce the rest of the language. But that’s really cool! The whole history of Great Britain fascinates me. Probably because it’s my heritage. I mean, French culture and Native American history fascinates me too. But I’ve been learning about Native history since I was born. I don’t really know a lot about France, come to think of it. But I know there’s a town in France that has the same name as my family name! Which I think is really interesting and we might have actually come from there. Since a lot of people took the names of their home towns as their family names when they emigrated. Unfortunately I can’t find any information on that side of my family. :/ I just went on a way different topic. Sorry.

Noooo. Don’t be mad at Steve. It’s not that he wants to wash his hands of her. He feels extremely guilty for getting her into that situation. And he was sincere with what he said. He thinks having her in Malibu with Iron Man will keep her safe because he does know that HYDRA will send Bucky after her. So she obviously can’t join the fight or the search if she’s recovering from being shot in the shoulder. So the best place for her to rest and gain her strength back is with Tony and Clara. But he’s very very supportive of her choices in the sequel, I promise. When he finds out that she’s planning on going after HYDRA, he calls his mutant lady friend to help her prepare for it. Which is more than what Tony will do. I mean, Tony helps her out a great deal. But at the same time he wants no part it what she’s doing and doesn’t hesitate to tell her that he thinks she’s not capable of it. Steve is much more supportive. Although Sam is really the one who trusts her choice from the beginning. He’s just like “Hell yeah, son. You wanna go after HYDRA? What can I do to help?”

@ Indigo Umbrella
I have to be honest, I'd be terrified of sending my child to school in the US. I genuinely can't get over how pro gun people can justify their stance when it's giving your children access to guns to harm their peers and teachers. I'm so thankful that gun permits are given out freely here. Only farmers can get them, I think. Even our police don't carry guns - we have an 'armed force' unit, who get called out when needed but that's one division. That's it. And how can the school not have a fence? Surely that's basic health and safety for a school? If anything happens to a child surely they'd get sued?

No child/teenager likes being told what to wear. It sucks. It's only when you're older that you appreciate the idea. Plus, my uniform was a horrible bottle green colour in secondary school, which was very similar to the uniform I had for the second part of primary school. It was a green skirt, green tights, green jumper, green tie, white shirt. If my uniform had been blue, or grey and black, I would have liked it.

I'm the same when it comes to the red face. I'm annoyed - red face. I'm embarrassed - red face. I'm stressed - red face. I get it from my mom, unfortunately. I love autumn, actually. You can wrap up but it's not yet freezing. Plus, Halloween is just awesome. No matter how old I am, I will always love it. The atmosphere is just so nice, I think.

You manage that perfectly, and they're not Mary Sue's in any way, shape or form. Most teenagers don't fit into a specific group or style, I think.

I don't think they were, or at least not in an unrealistic way. They seemed like parents who where still in touch with their teenage side, and I know I'd probably be like that. I still think like a 16 year old, and I hope that I stay like that if I ever have any kids. They have a good relationship their kids because, as you said, their kids don't rebel.

And I really like Diamond. There's something oddly refreshing about her character. She's honest and speaks her mind, and I respect that. She takes care of herself and doesn't rely on anyway, which again, is an admirable quality. I love Pearl too, though, even if she is more of a 'head in the clouds' kind of person. And I've already spoken of my love for Jett!

I'm not looking forward to seeing that part. I almost cried when I read what they did to him...poor Peeta. Now I just want to cuddle him :(

He certainly has an aptitude for games. Sonic is a good game for him to get into, and I like his taste lol. Subtle manipulation works best in that kind of situation. Try to make it so that it seems like it was his Idea to be Finn...it should work!

There's just something about the high pitch whining that gets under my skin too. Cry, throw stuff, whatever. I can deal. Once they start going high pitch, and whiney, and repeating themselves and begging and saying no and not listening when you're trying to reason with them...that I just find very very hard to keep my cool with. But I feel with with the early mornings...they are not my thing, and nothing will get me out of bed early unless I absolutely have to.

I find the American GPA thing confusing...like, why 4.0? I just don't get it. We don't deal with GPA's until college, so maybe that why I find it confusing. Plus, our grades throughout school dont have any bearing on college, unless the school makes you drop from an Honours class to what we call 'Ordinary Level'. Ordinary Level is basically an easier class and exam paper. College here is purely dependant on one set of exams, which last over the month of June. So, you can fail everything at school and not work, but if you get an A1 on all of your exams, you can get the course of your choice.

Most kids are like that though I think. Once it's animated, they'll love it. They don't care what it's about, once it's a cartoon. That's good that he knows what he can't watch, and he tells you when to change it. He's a smart kid. Oh the X-Files theme tune...man, that just brings me back to when I was 6 years old...and Tomb...he was bad ass.

And no...I have no talent with my hands. I can't even sow. My Home Ec teacher hated me in sowing class, because I was that bad. She loved me in theory and cooking class, though. My hands are just useless, really. my handwriting is atrocious, and even when I type, I'm useless. My fingers do their own thing half the time and type out the wrong word, and sometimes the wrong tense of a word even though I was thinking the right word.

That's really similar here too. Men get easier sentences with those sorts of crime then women do. It's just an inherent misogyny that seeps into the justice system. In saying that, men basically have no paternal rights here, so there is inequality on both sides here. If a man isn't married, he has no legal right to his child here, which is ridiculous. Even if he's married, he's second class to the mother. I've heard some horror stories of father's who have had access taken away for no reason, and it sickens me. There's a movie with Pierce Brosnan, called Evelyn, about an Irish man who get's his children taken off him when he becomes widowed, that's based on a true story. Better for a child to be raised in an institution than with their single father back then, apparently.

Yay!!!

I had a conversation with my friend Saturday night, and she really convinced me to write the story, so I think I'll try and write the rest and hopefully that scene will come to me in due time. Maybe it's a block because of how much work that will need to go into it and it's a subconscious way to have an excuse not to do it :-/

"I haven't met any celebrities...except for Mel Gibson"!!! Seriously!!! That's so freaking rad....and you have a photo! That is ssooo awesome. I've never met a celebrity either, although I did have a chance to get autographs of a band called 'Westlife' that were a big boyband here and in the UK and Asia, it think maybe Europe too. They originally sang the song 'Flying Without Wings'. But I didn't do it. So yeah, I've never met any celebs :(

The Scots and Irish are both descended from the Celts, so genetically there's a big similarity. They have a lot of red heads too. Our native languages are quite similar too, there's only minor spelling differences and different pronunciations. If you're fluent in Irish Gaelic, you can make a really good stab at Scottish Gaelic. Like, that word 'Gaelic' is spelled the same and mean the same thing, but their pronounced differently. In Irish it's 'Gay-lick' and in Scottish I think its said like 'gah-lick'. that kind of thing. So, one is pretty much the same as the other.

Oh, okay. That drawing is pretty rad though. Those pictures are also pretty cool, the stars on the scarf are so cute! You have a ray gun? That's awesome. I wish I'd bought one, but that was during my not listening to music phase, so I didn't get into the concept back then. I'm so jealous!

And the last update...ugh, I actually kinda wanted to punch Steve. I don't like how he's telling Jo what to do. I mean, I get why he's doing it, but...ugh, it didn't sit well with me. He got her into the situation, and now he wants to wash his hands off her. I expected better of him, really.

I know, but it makes me so sad! Especially with all of the school shootings that have been happening. It just gives me anxiety. And like his school has no fence around their playground. He could seriously just run out into the street without anyone even noticing. And it worries the shit out of me.

Lol. Really? I probably would have hated them if I had to wear them too. Lol. Hahaha. Maybe I just have too much of the booty. There’s never any extra fabric to wrinkle. Lolololololol.

I hate the heat too. I’d much rather be cold. I go red in the face too! But I hate going red in the face because I do that if it’s too hot AND if it’s cold. There’s rarely any instances where my face doesn’t turn red. Just on these fucking little perfectly round circles on my cheeks and my fucking Santa nose! I like fall the best. Because you get to wear cute orangey colors and everything’s all orangey and scarves and coats and hot chocolate and pumpkin spice everywhere. It’s my favorite. Eeeeee. And Halloween.

Exactly! That’s why I try to make my teen characters just perfectly average. Which probably makes them Mary Sue’s but I’d much rather have a teenager who does not fit any specific clique than one who fits a mold too perfectly. And I am no longer a teenager, therefore I do not really understand teenagers at this time. So I don’t want to overdo a teen cliché and then have real teens be like “What the fuck is this shit?” I just make them… average. Or I don't specify their "style."

I just felt like they were too… perfect. Parents usually tend to have a lot of flaws with their parenting. Like no one is really an expert. But Ruby and Felix always seemed to know the right thing to do and say with their kids. And their kids always just kind of had a good relationship with them in return. Like that shit doesn’t happen. Hahaha. And yeah! I wrote them as teenagers and I wrote them grow up. I couldn’t make them break character just so they could be more “realistic” as parents of teenagers. And their kids aren’t very rebellious. I mean… Jett is much sneakier than the others. But he minds his parents when they’re around. He’s also the spitting image of his dad so he gets into fights and does some other stuff in his story. Like lying to his parents about spending the night at Aasha’s house. Surprisingly, I think Diamond is the most rebellious in terms of disobeying her parents. But I think that’s more that she’s just more reserved. She does speak her mind a lot but she also kind of has it in her head that she has superior intellect and knows what’s best for her. Pearl is just too shy and timid to really get into much trouble. Plus she’s the baby of the group so that lasts into adulthood. I just way over analyzed them. Sorry!

I hope they do too. I’m looking forward to it. :D And the whole thing with Peeta. Poor Peeta.

Lol.

I barely remember the 90’s. Hahaha. But yeah! Man, I had my Sonic and my Street Fighter and my Tomb Raider. I was the shit. Lol. But my son found a Sonic app for my tablet and it’s the classic Sonic game. So he learned how to play that and then got really obsessed with it. MY FIVE YEAR OLD BEAT THAT WHOLE GAME! But anyway… he started watching the cartoon on Netflix and now he’s just Sonic crazy. He wants to be Shadow for Halloween. I’m trying to convince him to be Finn the Human because I already got him three pieces of that costume. He doesn’t know that yet. Shh. But I got it for play time so he can do whatever he wants. Finn would just be easier on me.

Seriously! I know how to handle a tantrum. But the whiney shit just gets under my skin. And I cannot handle it first thing in the morning when you’re barely awake and they’re whining about having to put their shoes on. And it’s not the shoes they want. And they don’t want to wear the shirt you picked out. And they don’t want oatmeal for breakfast. It’s like “Give me a break.” I would wake up earlier than him and just let myself wake up, but I can’t do that. I’ve tried. If I don’t absolutely HAVE to be awake, I won’t. Lol. That’s going to take some serious training and I’d end up going to bed at like 8pm. Not happening.

Oh, that’s weird! Yeah, we have GPA’s all through high school and college. 4.0 is the highest, I think. Right now I have a 3.87, so I’m pretty close already. But I figure if I keep my GPA at 4.0 it’ll be easier for me to get scholarships for next semester and (I’m not sure if my school does this) I could possibly travel abroad in my final year. So I want to give myself the best opportunities I can. Plus, it’ll look good on my resume to say I graduated college with a 4.0 and a Bachelor’s degree. It’ll at least show determination.

Yeah, at the moment he just likes animation. If it’s animated, he wants to watch it. Although, he does know that some cartoons are bad and that he’s not allowed to watch them. Like Family Guy for instance. He’s not allowed to watch that. Or South Park. So when it comes on after his other cartoons he comes and tells me to change it. He wasn’t allowed to watch Regular Show for a while too because they’re a little too adult for being a kid’s program. But I watched it and it wasn’t that bad so now he gets to watch it. But he used to love the X-Files! Hahaha. When I was a kid I remember thinking it was a really scary show. But we got back into it a few years ago and I realized it was mostly humor and I loved it! But Milo loved it too. It was so crazy. He’d sit and watch the whole episode. And as soon as he heard the theme music he’d come running into the room to watch.

Well hey! Everyone starts somewhere!

That is the most horrible thing I have ever heard. I legitimately have no response. Rape is taken very lightly here too though. I mean, it depends on the magnitude of it. Because there’s a lot of issues with victim blaming and majority of rapists get off scot free all because the victim was too pretty or wearing a short skirt. And then the ones who do get charged end up with like 4 years in prison. Murder they take more seriously. If a man is murdered that is. They don’t seem to give a flying fuck about women. Like a man who brutally murders his wife will get a lesser sentence than a woman who accidentally killed her husband while defending herself from being beaten. Shit is fucked up.

I won’t, I promise! I will convince Sebastian that we must visit friends in Ireland! And we will ride the train thingy!

I understand completely! But it might help you carve out what you want to do. Once you have a sort of “outline” or skeleton worked out. You can always go back and change things once that chapter is the way you want it. And the rest of the story might help you get through that chapter.

Lol. I’ve never met any celebrities. At least not like in an accidental way. I did meet Mel Gibson once. But that was just because my grandpa used to be a stuntman and he worked on the first Lethal Weapon movie. But I was like 3 so I don’t even remember. I just know there’s a picture of me somewhere with Mel Gibson and Danny Glover and I have pig tails and I’m wearing a Garfield shirt. Lolololol. I’ve been on the train at Disneyland? Lol. I don’t think that counts. Hahaha. Sebastian will. I know so. I’ll have that pull over him. Lmao. *cries*

That’s what I thought! But purple just makes them look brown and mucky. :/ Thanks! My Irish grandma was on my mom’s side of the family. But my dad’s side of the family is apparently Scottish to some degree. Like enough that we have a coat of arms and my grandma has our plaid somewhere. So my redheaded aunts are descended from that family line. BUT! My dad says there’s some Irish in that family line too. I just don’t know where it is because I’ve never taken the time to actually read our geneology book. But my dad also has the tendency to just make shit up because for a long time he told me I was Italian and then I later found out that there is literally 0 Italian in me. -_-

That drawing wasn’t mine unfortunately. Lol. I won a drawing contest from another artist and I had her draw Nine Lives for my prize. Lol. But I used that picture anyway because I cannot seem to find any of my other Nine Lives designs. So I need to draw her again. I miss her.

You know what? I might have one on Facebook. Lemme see.



Those are the only ones I could find that showed off my mask that I made. Lolololol. I actually have a raygun now. I have Ray’s raygun. And his mask.

I’m so sorry! I had to do it. *Cries* I will update very very soon. :D

No worries!

@ Indigo Umbrella
Space is good for them, though. It's an adjustment period for parents as well when their child starts school, but you just have to keep on mind that even though you're not there for those hours, you can still be involved in little ways. I think I'd be awful if it was me! I'd probably be in tears!

I hated having a uniform! It's funny how you always want what you don't have! As for the underwear thing, I asked her once and she said 'but I know that they're creased'. And yes, I can get wrinkled lol.

I don't like heat. I'm allergic to the sun! Plus, if I have to walk in it, I go really red in the face which is embarrassing. I don't like the cold though. I like Spring, where it's a happy medium. It's not freezing, but you still have to wear a coat. I just like to be...cosy.

Ugh, that's the kind of story I hate. The whole 'I'm emo and different, but I'm in the popular clique and a cheerleader and I'm dating the quarter back' thing. It's as annoying as 'I'm emo and nobody likes me, I have no friends and I cut in the bathroom in between classes' cliche story.

With Ruby and Felix, they were cool parents but not in an unrealistic way. They don't just approve of everything their kids do and they don't let them do whatever they want. They just know when to pick their battles I think. And also, seeing them as teenagers, it'd be hard to see them being any other way as parents. It'd be...strange.

They would have to change that. It wouldn't translate well to have Gale just disappear. They'd have to give them their final scene, I think. I hope they do, anyway.

^_^

And of course! You know my love of all things LF!

I miss the 90s sssssoooo much. The older I get, the more I miss it. And that's awesome that he's into sonic. My younger bro loves games but he like his GTA and Call of Duty. Shooter games, pretty much. He never had the joy of Crash Bandicoot or Sonic.

I hate early mornings too, so I'd be doing the same thing. It's the summer so it's not like he can't sleep in and make up for it. The one thing that irked me more than anything working in daycare was when the kids starting whinging. Especially first thing in the morning when the parents were dropping them in, when I'm still waking up. Whinging in general irks me. A full blown tantrum I can deal with, but once they start whinging that's when I start losing my patience.

We don't have GPA's here, not in schools anyway. We have then in college but it works differently. Like, a 1.1 is the highest, then it's 2.1. 2.2, then pass. Some colleges count your yearly GPA toward your final degree, but mine just counted your final year.

He wouldn't get the adult humour anyway. I used to watch x-files and friends when I was younger and the adult stuff goes over your head. I watched a lot of movies that had sex or violence in it, but I didn't take notice until I watched it again as an adult. I wouldn't be too worried about it.

That's why I wish I had some kind of artistic talent. There's always something new to learn, and I like learning!

We're pretty bad here though when it comes to violent crimes though, or sec abuse. Like, there was a mother of 6 who raped her son and starved and abused all of her kids. It took the HSE ( they have control over children in care) had to take the mother to court twice before the kids were taken off her. Then they found out about the extent of the abuse and she was charged, but she only got 7 years or something. For raping and abusing her kids. Rapists in general we give low sentences. You also serve more time for manslaughter than murder, average murder sentence is 7 years, average manslaughter is 10 years. It's pretty messed up.

Yes!!!! You can do it!!! Just don't forget about me!!!!

I could skip ahead I suppose. I just wanted to get that done first, but maybe I should just skip and get the rest done. I'm just a little afraid of getting the rest done, then going back to do that scene and not being able to write it!

I've always wanted to go to LA. Just to see the sights, and, ya know, stalk a few celebrities. Lol. And you've never been on a train? You have to go on one! And yes, when you marry Sebastian, get him to pay for us! We'd have so much fun!!!

I was told purple is best for bringing out green eyes when I went to a make up specialist once. And your eye is sssoooo pretty. Are your red hair aunts from the Irish side of the family? Red hair and green eyes sounds pretty Irish.

And wow, that drawing is awesome. You really do have a talent! I'd love to see the picture if you ever found it!

And yes, you shows be sorry...you killed my feels. Destroyed them. WHY?!!!!!!

Also, I wrote this on my phone so forgive any mistakes... Autocorrect hates me and changes words on me!