I watched as he put the gun to his head,He looked at me and said"I love you, I'm sorry I'm a bad person I don't mean to be I just am."I tried so hard to pull that gun away from him,Hoping it would go threw me and not him,I tried to talk to him, I tried so hard,I looked at him and said"Your not a bad person Sam, Please put the gun down I LOVE you and so do a lot of other people YOUR NOT A BAD...

was siting there my arms side by side my body put on hold for awhile...you called me i answered. i new you were sad the second I started talking to you. "Whats wrong? honey are you crying?" i asked. "Steff? I cant take this I cant take the way I'm treated i cant take the way i feel about my self. "What happened honey?" "Everything. I cant do anything right even when I try I just cant. They tell me...

The cutting helps me remain calm. For a minute or two... The tears i cry never go away, the blood that falls never dries up. Pain is my best friend weather i feel the pain that's caused by other people or the pain that is caused by me. My eyes used to be so big and beautiful. I used to have the bluest eyes. I used to have respect for my mom. But i guess there is a first time for everything. My...

After yesterday i thought mabey my mom would have stoped and mabey she would have let me become a more indepent person.. So the whole day goes great i go home from school and do wat i normally do...Then i asked my mom while she was making dinner,,,,Can i go to taylors firsht soft ball game...She said i dnt no you have to ask royce,,,I dont...After dinner and after i tuck my 6 year old sisster into...

I walk threw the door after another day of school...Thinking my life is going to turn our great,,,,, I walk threw the door and ask my mom who is laying in her bed. Her room filled with old ciggeret smoke, her tv turned onto the news."Mom? mom? Can i have a smoke please.?"she looks at me and stares and said "NO! you all ready smoked a pack today you dont need any more...I look at her and she looks...