Well it's almost December. Time for shopping and decorating. Going to be spending my Xmas at my grandmas this year. I already sent out my wish list! Haha. I made the longest wish list i have ever did. Had about 23 things. A lot of variety. Some Gift Cards. Some clothes/shoes. Movies. Perfume. A keyboard. A special ring. Headphones. A Cullen Pendant. Hope i get the main things i really really...

Well, things are difficult right now.. I feel very alone. But in a way i blame myself. I tend to push people away, and i dont know why. I dont speak to my friends as often a normal person should. And i havent been hanging out with them, so its like im by myself most of the time. And in a way im fine with that. But I have to admit, its sad. Im going though a lot right now, but i dont talk about it....

Would you go out of your way to save someone,like a close friend? From all of their issues. All their pain. All their suffering. What if you knew this person had alot of issues..like cutting? Sucidal thoughts? What if this person didnt care to help themselves?

okay,so im back :) yay..well lots been happening.. Things i wish i could forget..well lets start off with my dad..i have not spoken to him in almost a year..it will actually be a year on July 25th..and the worst part is..he lives 5mins away from me..we had a fight..and well its a long story..probably best if i save it for another blog.. i had my first kiss with a psycho..his name is Cristian.. He...

today...i went to my last years crush's facebook, jason,we are friends on FB...so its not like im stalking him..well anyway i was checking out his pictures...and he looks happy where he is...iknew he liked me last year, but i kinda pushed him away...and if only he knew how much i miss and care for him...if i could i would repeat last year and change everything..i let him slip away...and now im...

i have this friend, juliet, we are completly different. i guess you can say we are best friends..but at times i dont wanna be around her anymore. shes very judgy..at times ill be lik that. but she always tells ME how to act and what to do...like this one time at school i finally told my other friend, cynthia, and juliet something that i dont tell many people, and they looked at me like i was some...

All this time thats all i needed,i needed that one thing to keep me happy,I was finally happy,i was comfortable being myself,i wasnt afraid to scream it to the world,but now that i figured the truth,nothing is clear anymore,i cant think straight,i cant function well,the matter of the fact,is that i just couldnt handle the truth,and it destroyed me in the end,now im back being sad and alone,scared...

well its saturday...and i start school on monday..soo nervous....i got lotz of great clothes today..but cant decided wat to wear on the first day of high school....ihope it goes smooth......i mean you never get another chance lik this, a first day being a freshmen...i want these 4years to be memorable...well most of it...cuz soon ill be auditioning for tv shows...so if my career takes off...i wood...