so today was my friend jerrys court date and i went and testified that the man that he killed raped me. they lessened his sentence which made me happy but he is still going away for 6 years...thats such a long fucking time as soon as im 18 im going to go visit i left that court room crying my eyes out because i feel so guilty cause of this. i dont want him to rot away in jail i really care about...

His name they ask….i don’t want to reply. I don’t see why I should have to. Yet their eyes stare at me so unforgiving so unbelieving. My breath shudders as I remember his name and I remember the weeks of nightmares I had, where I would wake up screaming and clutching my blanket tears running down my face. They still happen you know. Then there are the mornings when I look into the mirror in...

last friday i went to a party with an old friend, his name was paul he had just about a month ago bought a brand new harley motorcycle it was black and blue his two favorite colors. He rode it to the party that night and took me out for a test drive on it, he had "the need for speed" we hit about 90 going down a main road he was a good safe driver though. but then on sunday night 11/14/10 at...

have you ever realized that words can tear you down over time? that when someone you love says them to you its the worst and you try to hol d your head high and shrug it off by telling urself their just mad or they didnt mean it. but after time and after they repeat it over and over again...you start to believe it...your worthless rings in your head the words you are so stupid ring in yur head....

so today my best friend told me that he was going to be moving away to florida, i live in maryland that is a 19 hour drive. he is the on ethat i wrote the poem about last night titled "stars at my feet" i found it ironic how at the end i wrote 2 great friends never to be parted and the next day he tells me that hes going to look at hosues in florida this weekend cause he wants to move as soon as...